If Only [COMPLETED]

Chapter IV

Becky

Freen left the rooftop right after she blow at me. I admit I am the one who is in the wrong for telling her nonsense, and how she responded about my firebacks are all unexpected.

I never felt ashamed of the things that I did before she told me i'm shameful.

I never regret things that much as much as how I regret when she slap me with reality straight in my face. The things she said, all of those were true and sometime it's painful hearingy the side of reality from people who are not close to you. Because they are the ones who knows you the most, they never conceal truth by white lies to make you feel better, instead they slap you with the truth and make you live with the sting of it's pain.

That's what I felt the moment Freen left. It seems like reality hits over me hard that I find it so shameful remember my acts. It's unreasonably for me to be so rude to Freen when all she does is help me get through my failing grades.

Stupid Becky!

I walk in silence as I go down from the rooftop. Every step I take seems so heavy and every breath I enhaled seems so hard to breath out. The truth suffocated me. And so does Freen's word.

"Hey Bec... How are you? What happened up there?" Irin ask as soon as she saw me in the corridor few steps from our room.

I never said anything. Nor utter a word. Instead, I walk back to the room and sit next to Non as if nothing happened.

"Babe... Are you okay? Did Freen hurt you?" Non took my hands and check for marks that is left because of how strong Freen pulled me a few moments ago. "Aishhh! That bitch!" Non stood as he saw red marks on my wrist.

"Non stop it!" He looked at me and raise a brow.

"Babe! She hurt you! Look at the marks on your hands." Non.

"Stop Non! If you weren't too lazy earlier she shouldn't have come here and we shouldn't have fought." I exclaimed. "I'm going out."

I stood up but was pulled back half way to the door.

"I'm coming."-Non.

"No."

"I'm coming then." Irin stood up and pulled me outside as we walked ourselves towards the field.

We both sit on the ground the moment we arrive there and non of us speak, not before Irin broke the silence.

"I saw Freen from the rooftop. " Irin cooed as she look at me. "She look so angry that the orbs of her eyes change. I saw a different kind of Freen a moment ago, I know she was scary and cold. But the Freen I saw is much colder and scarier. So I guess you did something that might pissed her off that much. Now what did you do?" I sigh as soon as Irin stopped talking.

"We fought... I was being so rude to her and said things I shouldn't have said because I never know even one fourth of her life. But stupid me, I still did something awful." I look at Irin and saw how concern she was and she is waiting for me to continue so I started telling her everything that happened back in the rooftop.

"WHATTTTTTTTTTTTT!BECCCCCCC!!! WHY DID YOU DO THAT?" Irin yelled as I finish telling her what exactly happened.

"I was also pissed off, she caught me off guard and I didn't stop myself from saying things." I explain but Irin facepalmed herself.

"Becbecccc... That was so mean."

"I know, and as much as I regret telling her those things I cannot do anything anymore. She hated me and before now I think hate is an understatement of how much she dislike me."