If Only [COMPLETED]

Chapter LIV

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Days have passed since the day both Rebecca and I are stuck in the cabin. We never had time to talk because when she tried opening the topic, I would try my best to keep it shut and tried escaping from it.

After the time I told her that I needed space, she is always hesitant to approach me anymore, like there is an invisible wall keeping us away together, a wall that protects me a away from her, and she also have a wall that shield her inside. Both are just so hurt to even let the other one enter, both are just so hurt to try working things outs.

"Freen, what do you want to eat?" Seng asked.

That's correct, I am with Seng. After the incident, Seng and I have been spending a lot of time together. A friendly bond I guess. I already told Seng that I cannot give him something more in this relationship anymore, I can't love him back again. And he is never against it, instead he cheer me up on to get my own life back. To have something back. Because he knows I deserve more than anything else in the world.

Flashback

I am on the benches of the stadium alone as I was checking all the equipments being delivered today when Seng suddenly show up in front of me carrying my favorite green tea drink in his hand.

"For you." He retorted handing be me tea.

"Thanks."

"Always welcome."

He smiled a little as he sat beside me and both of us are looking far on the other side. I am clouded up with thoughts so I keep my mouth shut, and I don't know what's going on inside his mind so he also keep quite.

"So... The person you are telling me you are inlove with." He started. "It's Rebecca right?"

I look at him cautiously and slowly nodded. I don't have any reasons to lie anymore.

"Yes."I replied . Then he smiled slyly.

"She's lucky."

"Is she?"

"She is Freen. She just didn't see how lucky she is... She cannot see how lucky she is by having you love her. You are everything Freen, everything that anyone could ever ask for in a girlfriend." He paused. "You are amazing that a lot of people are willing to take risk just to have you by themselves. While everyone is dying to experience your love, Rebecca is there to just watch you as you fall alone. Rebecca is oblivious about how you feel about her. Everyone is down about you, and here you are down bad with someone who don't see you enough."

I smiled bitterly. He has a point. But we cannot just force things to work out. It needs time to work out. Because if we force things to work when it isn't the right time yet. I am afraid only the label of the relationship will work out, not the relationship itself.

"It's okay, I just have to let things flow fluently. No forcing things, and no making things work out if it isn't meant to be."

"You really love her don't you?"

Do I love her?

"Yes I do."

"You sound like you are marrying her dude." Seng teased making me smack his head. "Kidding aside. But, is your feelings for her already varied Freen? Are you sure I can't change your heart?"

"It's already infinite Seng. I'm sorry I can't love you back again." I apologize and I see how his eyes turned into a sad one the moment I told him I can't give him what he wanted.