Distracted

Distracted 59

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"Adal Juico"

Crush is a thing you feel about for a certain person. Or people. You can have a lot of crushes. It's normal. "Crush is paghanga" overrated may seem but it's true. You admit that you have a crush on them, you admire them. Admire their face, their hair, their eyes, their height, their color, their dancing or singing skills, all their own skills, you admire it. The way they walk, the way they style themselves, the way they smile. You admire a lot of things on that certain person.

It's normal to admire them. Kapag nakikita mo kinikilig ka. To the point na nagiging inspirasyon mo sya. Kaya ka gumaling sa isang bagay, kaya mas lumala yung determinasyon mong may mapatunayan kasi alam mong andyan sya, nakikita ka nya. Their presence makes you brave enough to explore things that you don't normally do. For instance, the thing they called 'first move'. It's hard but you will do it. No matter how cold your hands, how fast your heartbeat, how pale your face, you will still do it anyway.

Yung iba kapag andyan ang crush, kumakapal ang mukha. "chance ko na ito, tulak nyo ko!" "Hi libre mo ko!" "penge lima!" Pero meroon ding nahihiya parang nasabi sa isang kanta ni Taylor Swift, "...find you in a crowd Just to hide from you. " they contented just to admire their crush from a far. Meroon ding hindi alam kung anong gagawin. Parang ako.

"Adal Juico"

Ako nga.

"Huy Adal!"

Natauhan ako nang pindutin ni Remi ang pisngi ko. Masama ko syang nilingon, pasimple syang ngumuso,

Just to see Ms, Keana glaring at me, "yes? Ms. Juico? I called you four times. And you still busy daydreaming. Care to share?"

No.

Umiling lang ako at umayos ng upo. Pinagkatitigan nya pa ako at umiling iling na bumalik sa pagsusulat ng kuna ano sa board.

"bakit daw ba?" bulong kong tanong kay Remi.

"May tanong si ma'am, ikaw ang unang tinawag. Apat na beses...para kang may sariling mundo dyan. Care to share?" sa dulo, ginaya nya pa ang boses ni ma'am.

Hanggang sa matapos ang oras ng pagtuturo ni Ma'am Keana, halos hindi na mabilang ang ginawa nyang pagsukyap dito sa pwesto ko. Nakinig naman na ako. Sinubukan ko.

Mahirap panatilihin ang pagkakaroon ng crush "lang" sa isang tao. Yes you admire them. That's the end. You just admire them. No hidden feelings. No hurt aches. No jealousy. It's just a crush. No hard feelings. No crying every night. No rants every 3 a.m. No begs. No chase. You should not do those 'NO' things. A big NO, if you have just a "crush" for that certain person. Otherwise, if you do that, just one thing on those things, then, I will say, that's not a crush anymore. You're fooling in love. eme. You're already inlove. You are falling in one of the sacred word, Love.

Love is a big word. But honestly i don't have any idea what is love. When can I say that I'm already in love? I experienced having a crush. I admire a lot of people. That's why I know, not so a lot things in having a crush.

I only know that love is magical? Tanyo, hindi pa sure. Love is him? joke. Ewan ko. No joke. But it's true. Love is Him...Going back, love is magical. For me. It's magical word you can admit to yourself and you can say to the person you really wanted to be with. That's it, love is magical. Because it takes you in another world, with different views, different feelings, a lot of new things, with a lot of magic. Magic that will guide you to your "and they live happy ever after".

But I still don't know, how those person admit that they really in love. Not just crush, they're falling in love. Hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman. Kung anong dapat maramdaman. Ayoko namang isearch kay gugul "how to know if you're in love" tapos biglang lalabas yung steps galing kay wikihow.