Distracted

Distracted 71

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If being distracted and confused is one of the things that defines being in love, then, hindi ako papayag!!

I asked them all, when did they notice if they are in love, not just crush. They have a different answers. And I think, Larence is right. It's me who can only give a fine answers to my own curiosity. If me, being distracted is the answer to my curiosity, then, I won't deny it anymore. If my own definition of in love, is being distracted. I guess, I'm in a spell of some love. I'm literally in love. Dati pa. Matagal na.

No what ifs, no guesses. Distracted me, is in love me. I'm in love. The hell...I'm in love. I'm literally in love! I feel so much distraction. The person I'm in love with right now is the same person who distracted me, with his own feelings. He likes me, he loves me, he fell in love with me. It's always him, the one who always expresses his feelings, the one who always cares for me. The one who always, always tell me, that no matter what happen, he won't let his own feelings to be gone. It's always him. Laging sya. Palagi na lang sya, palagi na lang yung feelings nya.

If being distracted and confused is one of the things that defines being in love, then, payag na 'ko.

I got distracted. Nakalimutan ko yung sarili kong nararamdaman. Nakalimutan kong umamin. Nakalimutan kong sabihin yung nararamdaman ko. Na may nararamdaman na rin pala ako. Nakalimutan ko. Masyado na akong nalilibang sa pagkakagusto nya sa akin, sa nararamdaman nya sa akin. Magulo dati. Pero ngayon, kaya ko nang aminin sa sarili– hindi lang sa sarili ko. Kaya ko nang aminin na gusto ko sya. Gustong gusto ko rin sya.

Pero paano ko aaminin kung nag-iba na sya. Paano kung meron ng sila? Paano kung hinayaan nya nang mawala yung nararamdaman nya sa akin? Na kahit sinabi nyang hindi nya iwawala, nawala na nang kusa? Kusang napagod, kusang nawala. O pwede ring, gusto nyang iwala. Gusto nya talagang mawala na. Kaya hinayaan nya.

Last time, I said that I didn't know how to deal with Cedric. But honestly, at that time, I just didn't want to deal with him. Now, I really want to deal with him, but I just don't know how.

Playing: Miss Independent by Ne-yo

Narinig na namin ang emcee na ini-entertain ang mga estudyanteng nanonood. They also introduce the judge. Explaining the criteria, category, and all mechanics of this event, which is just getting started.

"five minutes! Get ready!"

Humawak na ako sa braso ni Justin. He smiled at me. I only gave him a nod.

"Kinakabahan ka?"

Umiling ako.

Hindi talaga ako kinabahan. Dahil siguro sa ibang bagay nakatuon ang utak ko. Hindi ko magawang mag focus dito sa bwisit na event na 'to.

Nagsimula na umandar ang pila namin, ibig sabihin may rumarampa na. Rinig na rinig namin ang sigawan. Mas lalong umingay nang magsalita na ang nauna. We're total of twelve pairs. So bale 24 lahat kami. Pang walo kami ni Justin. Nung unang meeting, nagbunutan kami, kaya eto imbis na nasa top five ako unang papasok dahil second year, limang section kami sa second year, napunta pa kami sa pang walo.

During our practice, we were only asked to mention our names. They said the rest would be done during the actual event, which is today.  Wala naman akong ibang naririnig na kakaibang intro sa mga naunang candidates.

"Good luck!" Miesy cheered us.

Kami ni Justin pang walo, sila naman ay kasunod lang namin.

Kasalukuyan nang lumabas nitong backstage ang nauna sa amin. Ibig sabihin kami na ang susunod.