Love Suicide

LV

DECEMBER 12: Saturday

"Do we still need to attend the mass?" Tita Zen asked in the middle of our breakfast.

After what happened last night, parang... Ang akward na. No, I mean. Dati na ngang akward, mas lalo pang naging akward.

Damn, this is the first time that I'll be joining them to eat breakfast. "What do you think, Dave?" My Papa asked that's why I look at Dave but when I saw him look at me, I immediately look away.

And after what happened last night, Dave and I can't even stand to look at each other. Parang hindi kami komportable sa presence ng isa't isa.

"I-if that's the case..." He looked at me, straightly to my eyes. "I'm happy that you're also happy even if I'm not the one giving you that happiness you want. I'll always be happy for you."

Matapos niyang sabihin ang mga salitang 'yon, umalis siya at padabog na sinuntok ang pinto na papunta sa rooftop. Kitang-kita namin ang pagmumukha ni Justin, Joshua at Kate na nakikinig na pala sa mga pag-uusap namin.

Kate and Joshua followed Dave while Justin went to our direction. To be honest, he left me dumbfounded.

"Jacq?" Napatingin ako sa pinto ng rooftop at nakita ko si Tita Zen na alalang-alala habang papalapit sa'min.

"Tita, I can--"

"What happened? Bakit umiiyak si Dave?" I close my eyes, seeing her tears run down her cheeks. I remember my Mom, the first and last time that I saw her crying.

"T-tita..."

"Na-misunderstood niya ang ginagawa namin, Tita." Pagsingit ni Quin kaya naman napatingin sa'ming dalawa si Tita.

Kitang-kita ko kung pa'no napangiti si Tita. "Are the two of you..." Kahit pa man hindi na ituloy ni Tita ang kaniyang sasabihin, alam ko na ang ibig niyang sabihin.

"No, Tita." Her smile turned into a genuine one.

"If that's the case, it's okay for me." She tapped my shoulder and looked at me in the eye. "Pero kung mayro'n mang namamagitan sainyong dalawa, I'm happy for the both of you."

Bakit gano'n 'no?

May mga tao talagang nasasaktan na pero masaya pa din para sa ibang tao.

"I'm going." He answered Tita Zen that's why I look at him and he's focused, eating.

"How 'bout you, Jacq?"

"I-I don't--" Naputol ang aking sasabihin nang naramdaman ko ang pag-vibrate ng cellphone ko na nakalagay lang sa may upuan ko. "E-excuse me." I said and stand up from my seat. Their eyes, fixed on me like I'm going to do something.

["Jacq?"] I close my eyes for a second because of my heart, skipping a beat after I've heard his voice even on the other line.

I clear my throat first before talking. "Uhm, Quin." I gulp when I heard him chuckle on the other line. "Ano tinatawa-tawa mo d'yan?" Pagtatanong ko.

["Wala lang. How ironic that I can now call you in the morning and hear your mood swings."] He said like he's controling not to break out from laughing.

"Kung mambu-b'wisit ka lang naman ng umaga ko--"

["Jacq,"] napapikit ako sa paraan ng pagkakasabi at pagkakabanggit niya sa pangalan ko. ["I didn't call to piss you off instead, I call because I just want to invite you to go to church with me today."] He explained.