Please don't fall (Shawmila)

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Camila's POV

The concert went really good. We rarely messed up and the girls even interacted with me and acted nice towards. But of course I know it was only because of the dances and because the crowd shouldn't suspect anything. As soon as we got of the stage everything went back to normal. Everyone acting like I'm not even there, even Lauren. That made me kinda sad.

We took our clothes of and went back to the bus. I went directly into m bunk and cold the curtains. The usual. I would do this every time I had a bad day with the girls and they know it, but they don't care. Sometimes Lauren climbs into my bunk just to comfort me. But not today. The girls sat in the chill area watching a movie. I could hear them arguing about what movie they should watch but there is one voice I didn't hear. Laurens. I peeked my head out of my bunk to look if Lauren was sitting by the girls, and to my surprise, she wasn't. I put my head back into my bunk, grabbed my phone and my headphones and listened to music while writing into my diary. I alway do this after a show. It's just easier to express my feelings, especially then, when you have no one to talk, like today. I just sat there by myself, listening to music and expressing my feelings until I heard someone whispering my name. "Camz? Can I come in?" It was Lauren. I could tell because of the nickname, only she uses it. I pushed the curtains aside as a sign for her to come in. She kneeled down and got in. Then she looked at me. "Camz, why are you crying?" I hadn't noticed it myself. I really must've been in my feelings. She took her sweater sleeve to wipe away my tears. I think it's kinda embarrassing. For me. I still hadn't talked to Lauren since she joined me in my bunk. I just hold my Diary in my hand, making sure Lauren couldn't read anything. No one ever should read this. There is all my personal stuff in there and all my feelings I don't want to share with anyone. 

Lauren and I just sat there both staring at nothing, enjoying the warmth of the other person. I stared down at our hands and so did Lauren. She then looked up at me and smiled. I gave a faint smile back. I really didn't feel like smiling at the moment. "Whats up Camz? Why aren't you saying anything?" She noticed. I hadn't really talked since Normanis comment earlier. She said I should shut up and I am. It made me realize that I annoy a lot of people when I talk. So I just keep my mouth shut. I just shrugged at her question and looked down to my blanket we were both under. Lauren didn't say anything. So I started talking. "Wanna watch something?" but Lauren completely ignored my question. "Camz, you know you don't have to shut up just because Mani told you to. She didn't meant it like that. I like hearing you talking" I smile at that and chuckle. "So should we watch something?" She asked me my earlier asked question. I nodded and got my Laptop from under my pillow.