Please don't fall (Shawmila)

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Camila's POV

Saying bye to my mom at the airport was kinda hard. I knew she was worried for me and didn't really want me to go, but Shawn talked with my mom about us. Our flight was before my mom's. She was flying back to Miami and we were flying to Toronto. I kissed my mom and embraced her, as a sign that everything would be good, so did Shawn, and then we left for our gate. It was so exhausting walking around this huge airport, not only because there were so many people, but because I still had a fucking fever. We had already gone through Check in and were now waiting until our gate opened. Shawn wanted to sit down to eat since it was 2:46 pm. Our gate would open at 3pm but we were told that it would be delayed. I had enough of this place already but Shawn made it a bit better. He talked to be, made me laugh and distracted me, since he knew how anxious I get in crowded places. I even ate something, since I had to and just walked around with Shawn. Then, finally, our flight was called. We had luck because Shawn booked us first class tickets. He insisted on choosing our flights and even wanted to pay but I didn't let him. It was only a short flight from about two hours but he said that he didn't want me to be uncomfortable. So he booked us first class.

We were the first to enter the plane and sat down on our seats. He helped me put my bag pack in place and we put our seatbelts on. Shortly before putting my phone on airplane mode I received a message.

'UNKNOWN' (just now): Have a good flight :) Gonna see you there.

Please no. I just want a peaceful time with Shawn... but I quickly turned on airplane mode and locked my phone. Shawn gave me the window seat which I knew he loved. But he said that he would just enjoy the view sat next to him... me.... which I found super cute.

Before the plane took off, Shawn gave my hand too squeezes, followed by a third one and a kiss on my forehead which I reciprocated by closing my eyes. We were sharing headphones and I let him choose the music. I had pulled out my notebook to write down a little about my feelings and thought. Shawn knew I have been writing some songs in my notebook so he looked over my shoulder when I pulled the book out of my bag. "Are you working on any new songs?" I nodded. "Can I see? I understand if you don't want me to." I've never shown anyone whats inside this book but I trusted Shawn, a lot. So I nodded. I flipped open one of the last pages and it showed a song named 'Anxiety' . The song wants finished yet but I really wanted to finish it. I let him read what I had until now.

'anxiety' (this song is actually by Anna Clending so check it out!)

On the surface, everything's just fine
But nervous doesn't describe what's going on behind these eyes
It's just too easy to fake a smile
But you got my heartbeat on repeat
Going 'bout a hundred thousand miles

My mind's racing, but I can never out run you
You're two steps ahead while I'm tripping over my shoes

A-N-X-I-E-T-Y no matter how hard
You will never leave.... Yeah, yeah I H-A-T-E-Y-O-U and all the stupid things you do
I give in so easily, you get the best of me

After reading through it he handed the book back to me. "Mila, this is great.... Is this... how you feel?" I nodded. It's no surprise. Daily anxiety attacks give it away. He put his arm around me and kissed my head. "I know this feeling is hard.... but just know..... I'm here okay?" He spoke calmly. I nodded, kissing him on his lips. I continued writing in my book, continued a bit of the song and also wrote down my feelings. My fever wasn't too bad at the moment which was good for me because I hadn't brought any medication in my backpack. Then I closed the book, leaned down on Shawns chest and tried to sleep until we landed. I was actually scared about arriving in Toronto because of the message I had received earlier. But I just tried to escape it by sleeping.

"Hey... Mila... wake up... we're here." I heard Shawns soft voice calling me and felt his hand on my cheek. opened my eyes and was met by his beautiful ones. I smiled and looked out the window. We were indeed there. I sat up and saw that people were still walking out of the plane. "sorry for waking you up. I know this is probably the most sleep you gat since yesterday." "It's ok." What? I whispered. Holy. I could at least communicate again. "Mila. Your voice!" Shawn said happily. I smiled and kissed him. I took my hand and helped me up. I still had a headache but it was ok. With our bags we walked out of the plane and into the room to get our suitcases. I had two big ones since I was supposed to be o tour. Shawn only had one. I took his smaller one and her carried my big ones. Then we walked out. His parents were supposed to pick us up and bring us to Shawns Condo so we looked around for his parents. "Mom!" Shawn shouted and waved towards his mom when he spotted her. She saw us and walked towards us, embracing us both. "How are you two? Oh, Camila. I missed you. It's so good to see you. How are you?" I smiled and whispered a small "ok." Karen looked confused at first until Shawn told her what had happened. Well... not exactly what had happened but why I had a soar throat. She nodded understandably and put her hand reassuringly on my upper arm. She helped us carrying our suitcase and lead us to the car where his dad Manuel was waiting. When I wanted to open the door to enter their car Manuel was faster and walked around the car to hug me. "Camila. It's been so long:" He said happily. He let me enter the car and Shawn sat down ext to me. I was exhausted and as soon a as everyone was in the car and everything was calm, my fever came back. I was glad that it didn't come back while I was on the flight because now I would just be going home. Well... yes home... Shawn.

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If you have any sad fan fictions about Shawn and Camila, let me know! I'm super interested in reading those!