Please don't fall (Shawmila)

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Camila's POV

The others arrived about half an hour later. I really didn't do much apart from playing some games on my phone. It was still 7:34 am and I was really tired. How the hell were Shawn and Lauren able to talk this much this early? I could barely keep my eyes open. I was really tired and about to fall asleep when I heard the door open and three girls entering. Finally. They greeted us, put their things away and sat down with us. Now we were just waiting for the driver to tell us that we were finally leaving. I knew that as soon as the bus started moving I would be going to my bunk and sleep. I had nothing to do on the bus. And no one to really talk to. Well, Shawn, but it seems as if Lauren was trying to take him away from me already.

Dinah started a conversation with me, asking how I was doing and if I was doing any better since my hospital stay. We talked for a few minutes and I was glad that she seemed to not ignore me. Then, the bus finally started moving and we sat in the front on our regular bus seats, listening to music or doing other stuff. I at first thought that Shawn was going to sit next to Lauren but I was gad when Shawn sat next to me. He had brought a blanket, two pillows, snacks and his laptop with headphones. "Here Mila" He said, Handing me the blanket and the pillows while he sat down. "Lets make ourselves comfortable and watch a movie. We have a 4 hour drive ahead of us." I took the things and scooted over so that he had enough room next to me in his seat. He then put the blanket over both of us and gave me the laptop to put it on my legs. He held the snacks in his hand and then signaled me to lean against him so that we were in a comfortable position together. I laid back into him which was really comfortable. I didn't eat any snacks though, which he hadn't noticed.

I must have fallen asleep, because Shawn woke me up. "Mila, you literally overslept the whole movie." He said while smiling at me. I giggled and watched around. We were at a parking lot. "We're doing a break right now. I just wanted to tell you. I'm gonna go inside the gas station and buy some real food. Do you want anything?" I shook my head. "I'm just gonna stay here and wait for you okay?" I told him. He nodded, put on his shoes, grabbed his wallet and walked outside. The other girls were there too. Now I was alone on the bus. I looked to my bag, which was laying on the floor next to me and took out the box of cigarettes. Now was the time.

I put on some shoes and threw a jacket over my hoodie and walked to the back of the bus which had a wall behind it. It was a good hidden place. I took one out and lit it. It felt good to be smoking again. It made me relax. I sucked in the smoke, kept it inside my mouth, let it get to my lungs and then puffed it out again. After the first one was done, I pulled out another. I smoked two, only to notice that I only had one more left. 'Shit' I thought to myself. I looked around, looking for a cigarettes vending machine and luckily spotted one. I walked back to the bus, grabbing my purse and making my way to the vending machine. I put in the money and pressed on the right button. After taking out what I bought I wanted to make my way back to the bus, when I heard male voices walling towards me. I Stood still, hoping that no one would come near me but unfortunately that was the case. A group of 5 boys walked around the corner, looking at me. "Oh, isn't this Camila Cabello ?" One of the boys say looking at me disgusted. What did they want? I hadn't done anything wrong. "Oh? Smoking? You? Attention Seeker." He spatted at me, shoving me forcefully into the wall. The others laughed. " We knew you only wanted attention. You are stealing the spotlight from the talented ones. Everyone is so focused on your mistakes that the real talent is being hidden because you." One of the other boys sad, coming closer to me, making me walk back until I hit the wall again. "What do you want?" I asked. Wanting to sound strong but my voice was shaking. Great Camila, I thought. "No wonder no one likes you." The boy spoke again. "You're even uglier person." He sad, pushing my shoulder forcefully. I was positive it would leave a mark. "Go back to where you came from. Are you even legal? HAhaa" He spat, laughing right in my face. That brought tears to my eyes. Why was I being treated like this? What did I do? "Go. Before anyone notices you're missing, which they probably wouldn't even mind." The other one said. A looked down, running back to the bus, getting inside and laying in my bunk, closing the curtain. Great start.

I laid there crying until I heard Shawn looking for me. I quickly dried my tears and faked sleeping. He opened my curtain whispering something and closing it again. Please just leave me alone.... everyone.