Please don't fall (Shawmila)

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Camila's POV

Almost two weeks had passed. Two weeks since we have been working on the songs, perfecting them. And what can I say? I barely have anything to do. I only sing a few lines in the chorus and that's all. They chose the arrangement with the producers. The team was still disappointed in me and I knew it... they had only given me a few lines in each song, made me record first and I was always the first one to leave the studio again. The whole week I had been kind of hiding in my room, talking to Shawn. He was very busy, I could tell. The calls ended after only a few minutes because he had to go back to recording.

I was sitting in my room again. The cuts had increased, not only on my stomach but also on my thighs. I had lost weight again, which wasn't really worrying me. I was working out a lot. In the morning, after eating a bit at lunch, in the evening, in the middle of the night, always. I was kind of keeping track of my calories, hoping to loose enough weight for people online to like me again but that wasn't the case... unfortunately. The comments were still mean and it was dragging me down, a lot. Since I was doing so much sport exercises I had barely any time to sleep so my eye bags were really.... visible. The girls and I talked sometimes but not much. We would meet to watch movies occasional but that was kind of rare. Well it was rare that they watched a movie with me. they met a few more times to watch movies. We will have an interview in four days and to say I was nervous was an understatement. I was a nervous wreck. I had have anxiety attacks for the past days, only because of the interview.

Right now I was sitting on the floor on my balcony, smoking, again. I had don it a lot recently and no one seemed to notice. No one seemed to care at all. It was around 6pm and we had just finished another studio session. Well I had finished an hour ago, the others had just finished and the team had left.

Just when I had finished smoking, the door ringed. I quickly sprayed my body with body spray, standing up and sitting on my bed, listening to who was on the door. "Camila! It's for you!" Normani shouted. What? For me? Confused I stood up, walking out to the front door of the apartment. The door was already opened and there was.... Matthew? "Matthew?" I asked him surprised. "Hello Camila." He smiled friendly, handing me a bouquet of roses. I took them, smiling. "What are you doing here?" "I asked your team and they told me you would be here for a few months so I decided to visit you, since I am here too for a few months." He smiled while he explained. "OH, come in.." "Oh I actually wanted to take you out? What do you think? Dinner?" It was making me kind of uncomfortable. I mean, I have a boyfriend... the best boyfriend. "I- I actually have a boyfriend." I told him unsure. "Oh, thats alright, just a friendly dinner between friends, alright?" I thought about it for a few seconds before finally agreeing with a nod. "Alright, give me some time to change... you can... come in and... sit in the living room while I get ready." He nodded, walking in behind me. I led him to the living room where the other girls were sitting. "Oh, hey... this is Matthew... is it okay if he waits here while I get ready?" I asked them. "Sure" Dinah smiled, smirking at me. Oh right, they don't know I have a boyfriend, so I just hope he doesn't say anything. I nodded, walking back to my room, setting the flowers down on the table in front of my mirror. The first thing I did was checking my phone for messages. None. But I decided to leave a short message for Shawn, not mentioning the dinner I would be having though. I don't know how it will be and we are going out as friends. 'Hey baby, I miss you a lot. My week has been hard... I hope you are doing alright. I love you' I tapped send, put my phone down and started choosing clothes, but not before going into the bathroom putting on some make up. I took out some blue jeans, not too tight though and a black shirt with a simple white cardigan. I also pulled on a black scarf, taking a small pure, putting in my money and my charged phone. I had on my touch bond bracelet and sent three touches 'I love you' before walking into the living room. "I'm ready." I said shyly, not wanting to stop their conversation. He looked up at me, smiled and walked towards me. "Alright girls, it was nice getting to know you, maybe we will see us soon again" he said to the others, before walking me to the door. "Alright, I'm here with my car and I'm going to take you to this nice restaurant." I just nodded.

We were now at the restaurant, at the back since people would probably recognize us. We made sure to stay hidden, which I think we did pretty well. "So, what do you want to eat?" Eat... food... I will have to work out a lot. "Ehm... I don't know..." "Alright would recommend some Pasta with mushrooms and some great sauce... and maybe a glass of wine?" "Yeah" I nodded, it really sounds nice. He called a waitress which took our order and brought the wine. Matthew field up our glasses, mine a bit more than his. "To us:" he said, raising his glass towards mine, smirking a bit while clinking our glasses. I took a sip, red wine being one of my favorite wines. "I'm going to the bathroom real quick." I told him, standing up and walking towards the bathroom. I had my phone in my back pocket which I took out. A message from Shawn. It made me smile. 'Hey baby, we can talk soon if you want... I'm sorry I haven't had a lot of time to talk but I will soon. Love you.' I put my phone away, doing my business in the bathroom and leaving when I was done. I saw Matthew sitting by our table, suddenly feeling really bad about this. Shawn was thinking I was at home... and here I am. Not cheating on him but... hanging out with another man... someone I have absolutely no interests in. I sat down again, seeing the food, which looked absolutely delicious... but the smell was making me slightly nauseous. "Another toast to this evening" he said, clinking our glasses again. I looked at him, seeing a weird smile on his eyes. The wine had a weird taste but I didn't think anything. I just took a usual sip, setting the glass back down and starting to eat.

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Mattmila????  NEVER!! But with my stories... you never know...

GAME: Look at the picture on the top of the chapter and tell the story you know about it! It has something to do with Shawmila! I'm excited to see who remembers haha