Please don't fall (Shawmila)

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I can't with this performance 🥺✌🏻

Camila's POV

We were sitting down, eating the pizza we had made before in an really romantic setting. I was just lucky. Lucky with Shawn. "I love you" I whispered, before putting another piece of pizza in my mouth. "I do more, baby." He said. And I blushed, again. We finished eating, being really romantic with each other and cleaning his kitchen together.

We were now back in the bedroom. I was sitting on the bed, watching him choose his clothes for after his shower. "Mila, I'm going to take a bath I think, alright?" I nodded. I actually also felt like taking a bath. "Yeah... Shawn? Do you think... I could maybe also take a bath? When you are done?" I was really unsure. "Sure baby...do you think.... maybe... what about..." he stopped talking, a thinking look on his face. "Maybe... if you feel like it... we Cana take a bath together? Only if you feel comfortable enough of course. We can also wear our swimming suits... I don't know.... only if you want of course." He spoke so unsure.... and scratched the back of his neck, looking at me. This question took me by surprise. I was so unsure of my body. Especially since he wanted me to gain weight... I was still very thin, which didn't bother me... but I knew it would bother Shawn... and my wrists with stitches... the bruises I get easily... so many things which made me feel self-conscious... "Mila I'm sorry.... I-i knew it wasn't a good idea..." "No no no... Shawn... let's go. I want to...I'm just not sure... of my body...." He came a step closer to me, pushing me up from the bed. "In my eyes.... you are perfect Mila." He kissed my forehead and then my lips. I giggled and walked to the closet in which I had some of my things and pulled out underwear and a pair of leggings. I was going to wear the same hoodie I was wearing right now.

Shawn had already entered the bathroom and started to fill the tub with water. When I entered the bathroom, Shawn was in his boxers, adding bubbles to the tub and checking the temperature. I sat my things onto the counter and stared at myself in the mirror. Then, Shawn walked up behind me and rested his chin onto my shoulder, embracing me from behind. "Are you ready? I put bubble in and a pink bath bomb." he said, which made me smile, and caress his curls. "Yeah..." I didn't know where to start taking my clothes off... "Do you want to get into the tub first? Like... if you feel uncomfortable.... I can... go outside for a minute so you can get undressed and into the tub and then I can enter..." he suggested. I thought for a minute before I nodded. "yeah... I'm... I'm sorry... for making it so... complicated..." I whispered. "Mila, it's alright... I understand... and after everything you went through, this is a huge step, and I'm lucky that you trust me enough to do this." he reassured me, kissing my cheek and caressing my sides, before pulling away and leaving the room, closing the door softly. I started pulling off the hoodie and feeling pretty... exposed... When the hoodie was completely pulled off, I was left in only my underwear. The first thing my eyes saw was.... my stomach... with the fresh cuts... shit. I had completely forgotten about it. I was lucky that Shawn gave me the privacy to get undressed alone. I closed my eyes, before undressing myself completely and getting into the warm water, closing my eyes. "Shawn?... I'm... ready" I shouted softly. He walked inside in his boxers and closed the door behind him. "I'm going to undress myself now Mila..." he informed me. I nodded, looking away, because I was not sure of how to react. When I felt his body slip in behind me, I closed my eyes. He made sure to touch me gently, not wanting to scare me, which he didn't. He first touched my shoulders, sliding down to my waist, as he sat down. I didn't have the courage to lean back just yet, since I wasn't sure of his reaction. I knew I would feel his.... something.... on my back... and I was slightly uncomfortable with it, knowing that my first contact with a... penis... wasn't... good at all. And he knew it. "Mila? Do you fell comfortable enough to lean against me? I don't want to pressure you or anything... it's a huge step you took until here. And I love you." He said, still having his hands on my waist. "Yeah... I want to lean back... but...I... my first contact with a...-" "Mila... I know... I know how... hard this is... that's why I'm asking... if you want to, do it. I will be as gentle as possible Mila. I just want you to know... ok?" I took a deep breath and nodded. "Y-yeah... I'll do it... I want to." Shawn made sure to not push me back but to let me do it by myself. I slowly leaned back, until I felt his chest touch my back, and then I leaned in a bit more.... feeling it on my butt. I closed my eyes and relaxed a bit into his body. He kept his hands on my waist and only moved them when he felt me relax even more. "you ok?" he asked softly. I nodded and he started moving his hands slowly up from my waist, caressing my sides. He made sure to not touch any inappropriate areas, which I was very thankful for.

His hands roamed my waist, my hips, my back, but not the lower part, my shoulders and my belly. But suddenly he stopped. His hands stopped on an area on the side of my belly and I knew exactly what it was. My cuts. I closed my eyes, slapping myself internally for not thinking and covering them with my hands. "Mila... what's that?" he questioned, tracing his finger over the cuts. "I-I..." I didn't have any words. What should I say? "We'll talk about this later, okay? I am not mad, okay? I love you." he intertwined his hands in front of my body and placed a kiss on my shoulder.

We were in the tub for about 10 minutes, just talking and exchanging sweet kisses and touches and I decided it was a good moment to talk about the message from Lauren. "Shawn?...." "Yeah, baby?" he said softly, his head still resting on my shoulder. The bubbles were still covering our bodies, together with the pink, warm water. "I... I got a message from Lauren today... they... they are coming to Toronto tomorrow and want to meat up the day after tomorrow..." I could feel him tense against my body. "Why?" "We... we have a Christmas tour in December... and we need to write new songs and plan everything and.... yeah..." I wasn't exited at all. "And... aren't you exited?... not even a little bit?" I shook my head. "I'm more... scared... and nervous...." "Yeah... I completely understand... but... Mila, just be yourself. You have so so many fans out there. It's what you love... take over the stage... You are already... You already took over my heart Mila... continue doing what you love. I want you to shine, I don't want to see you sad. You don't have to be scared. Why are you scared Mila? You are a star. You are the star in the group. Even if I can't be by your side... I'm here..." he said, putting his hands on my heart, not touching my my breasts inappropriately. "And I love you Mila, baby." Another kiss to my shoulder, then to my neck, my cheek and then my lips, when I turned my head to the side. I was so happy and grateful for having him by my side, loving me, just as much as I love him.

I was so relaxed in his arms, that I fell asleep against his body, his hands still gently touching me. The warm, pink water surrounding our bodies but the main thing that gave me warmth was Shawns body.

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I felt like writing a cute chapter, before the girls reenter Mila's life... finally or unfortunately?

And did you see the performance of Camila and Shawn on global citizen? Holy 🥺🥺🥺🥺 It's the cutest thing 🥰