Please don't fall (Shawmila)

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Camila' POV

Shawn held my free hand and made sure to lead me safely to the car which was right by the entrance. Of course I was completely anxious when I entered the car and Shawn gave me a moment to calm down, before starting the car. "You ok again?" He asked, looking at me worried. I nodded and looked at him. He gave me his phone so I could choose the music. I tapped on the song 'Stay awake' by Dean Lewis, a song we both love. Shawn started the car, interlacing our fingers while driving, giving me comfort. We sang along to different song but I could tell Shawn had something on his mind. And it was slightly bothering me. I decided to just talk to him later on the beach.

When we arrived and parked the car, we took out the food basket and his guitar, locked the car and walked down the beach. We had tons op paparazzis behind us, but they were asked to leave as soon as we touched the sand of the beach. The guards told them it was not allowed to follow us so they stayed behind, trying to take even more pictures. We made sure to not hold hands so it wouldn't be obvious that we were together and since I wasn't ready for anyone to find out about us, especially not people on social media. The beach was more crowded today so we tried to not be too obvious while crossing it to walk up to our spot, which we didn't really succeed, due to the tons of paparazzis which were following us on the other side of the beach. My anxiety was crazy but I tried to shake it off. It made me even more nervous that I wasn't able to hold Shawns hand but I tried to stay cool. People not the beach were taking pictures of us with their phones and talking about us, until we finally entered the little gap between the rocks. People luckily didn't follow us, which I was really happy about and the spot between the rocks was empty too. Just for our privacy we walked a bit back to an even more hidden place and laid down the blanket and the basket. I sat the guitar down next to Shawn and sat down on the blanket, pulling off my shoes and socks. Shawn did the same and sat down, pulling a snack out of the basket. It were grapes. I leaned down against him as he fed me some, which I gratefully ate. But still... something was on his mind. "Shawn? What's up?" I finally asked. "What do you mean?" "Shawn... I can feel that you have something on your mind... what is it? You can tell me everything..." I know that Mila... it's- it's what you told me yesterday. I just can't get it off my mind...it's.... it's horrible." He said, intertwining our hands while speaking. "If I knew it would bother you so much... I wouldn't have told you... I'm sorry...." I said, feeling guilty and looking down at our hand. I then felt three light squeezes on my hand which made me look up at Shawn. "No Mila, don't say that. You know it was very important to talk to someone about.... about something so... horrible.... traumatizing. And I think that it's a huge step in our relationship. Trust. And thank you..." he kissed my temple lightly. " Thank you for telling me Mila. I love you." He then kissed me on my lips. "But... can I ask you a question about... that?" He asked unsure. I just nodded. I trust him. "Did... did you ever talk to someone about it? After it happened?" It made me think. I did... I told Lauren... but... where is she now? "Yeah... I did... I told Lauren.... right after it happened and she took care of me. I was so... hurt after it happened... and she held me... but... then... she abandoned me. I trusted her... so much..." I felt a tear escape my eye, falling onto our intertwined hands. Shawn immediately reached over and wiped it away. "I won't leave you Mila, never, okay? I love you too much for that. I understand that you are hurt... but I will stay by your side." Another kiss to my temple and then on my lips. "Thank you" I whispered, before leaning even more into him. "No problem... baby..." He whispered the last part... probably unsure of how I would react. "I.... I like how that sounds...." I whispered back. "Baby...." I imitated his word. He put both his arms around me, whispering a quiet "I love you" before I closed my eyes and drifted into a light sleep... a calm sleep.

I opened my eyes because of the faded sound of a guitar. I was laying on my back, my head propped up on Shawns leg and on his other leg. I noticed his guitar, which he was quietly strumming. He hadn't noticed that I was awake yet so I continued listening to his playing. He was playing a melody I didn't recognize but I really liked it. It was not too fast so I could tell it was a song with emotions. He wasn't singing though.

After a few minutes I decided to make myself noticeable by turning my head up to him. "Hey sleepy head" he smiled at me, setting down his guitar. "Sorry for waking you up." he said softly. "It's ok, I am awake for some minutes already. I enjoy listening to you, playing. Can you play something for me?" I asked shyly. "Yeah, sure baby.... I actually wrote a song for you..." he said, scratching his neck. I sat up, smiling at him. "yeah... oh my god... this makes me really happy..." He grabbed his guitar again and put is in his lap. I sat in front of him, the ocean behind me. He played the first chord and told me how the song is called. "Mila, I wrote this for you... it's called 'Best Part' and it's about... well you.2 He said even more unsure. I smiled, leaning forward and pressing my lips onto his, closing my eyes and savoring the kiss. Then I slowly pulled away and smiled , waiting for him to start.

'Best Part' (By H.E.R & Daniel Caesar but pretend it's only by Daniel Caesar since it's only Shawn singing)

You don't know babe
When you hold me
And kiss me slowly
It's the sweetest thing

He smiled sweetly at me, making me blush a bit.

And it don't change
If I had it my way
You would know that you are

You're the coffee that I need in the morning
You're my sunshine in the rain when it's pouring
Won't you give yourself to me
Give it all, oh

I just wanna see
I just wanna see how beautiful you are
You know that I see it
I know you're a star

His smile was even bigger and I blushed even more.

Where you go I follow
No matter how far
If life is a movie
Oh you're the best part, oh oh oh
You're the best part, oh oh oh
Best part

It's the sunrise
And those brown eyes, yes

He winked at me. He really wrote this about me...

You're the one that I desire
When we wake up
And then we make love
It makes me feel so nice

You're my water when I'm stuck in the desert
You're the Tylenol I take when my head hurts
You're the sunshine on my life

I just wanna see how beautiful you are
You know that I see it
I know you're a star
Where you go I follow
No matter how far
If life is a movie
Then you're the best part, oh oh oh
You're the best part, oh oh oh
Best part

He just smiled at me, a big, honest smile and I believed every word he was singing.

If you love me won't you say something
If you love me won't you
Love me, won't you

He waited a bit before stopping the last note of his guitar and looking back up at me, probably waiting for my reaction. "Shawn... this is the most beautiful song I ever heard. Really... this... this... wow.... thank you babe..." I whispered. No one ever did something like that to me. I closed my eyes, smiling and leaning forward for a kiss, which he of course reciprocated. When we pulled away again, we just sat face to face in front of each other when I heard Shawn whisper "Perfect baby." as his smile grew on his face. "You are perfect in my eyes... and this view? Wow... you in the sunlight... with the ocean behind you... just wow...." He said proudly, pulling me into his arms and just holding me tightly, enjoying the moment.

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Since I'm still not doing too good, I tried making a not too sad chapter. I hope I did it...