Please don't fall (Shawmila)

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Camila's POV

When I opened my eyes the first thing I saw was a very bright light that caused my eyes to close again.  I wasn't  feeling too well.... I was feeling terrible. I put my hand on my head to ease the pain I was feeling. The lights didn't make it better. The headache was immense. After looking around a bit and finding the button for the light, I tapped on it and the bright light went off, which made my eyes open completely. I was obviously in a hospital room. I looked around and finally my eyes fell to my arms. My wrists were covered in bandages but I could see stitches underneath. Great... How was I going to hide this? Why am I even here? What time is it? How long was I asleep for? Where are the others?

I need to stand up. I feel trapped in this bed. And that's what I did. I threw the blanked away and pushed myself of the bed. I was hold back by some wires that were plugged in my arm but that didn't stop me. I just pulled them out and after getting them out, I was finally able to get out of the bed. I pushed myself up and stood in front of the bed for a few seconds. Just when I was about to start walking towards the window, I felt nauseous and fell on my knees. I needed to throw up. Shit. I put my hands in front of my mouth to stop myself from vomiting on the floor. I tried holding it in which didn't turn out as a good idea. My throat started burning and I began to cry. Why isn't anyone here. The tears dripped onto the cold floor underneath me and I closed my eyes for a few seconds, trying to calm myself down.

Suddenly the door opened and I heard talking.

"I think she is awake by now....wait... where is sh- omg Mrs. Cabello!" Lauren and a nurse entered the room and ran towards me when they saw me on the floor. The nurse understood why I was holding my hand in front of my mouth and quickly gave me the bin that was standing by the door for me to throw up in. The tears, of course, didn't stop. Lauren was sitting next to me, rubbing my back while the nurse was telling me to go back to bed now and that I shouldn't have left it in the first place.

The nurse and Lauren helped me up and put the blanket over my body. The nurse put the wire back into my arm, where I had pulled it out and told me that it was there to pump medication to my body.

Laurens eyes of course fell onto my bandaged arms and I saw sadness in her eyes. I felt uncomfortable and pulled the blanked over my upper body, including my arms.

"I called your mom, she's on her way and should be here soon" Lauren the told me, while the nurse was running some tests and setting up the machines. As soon as those words had left Laurens mouth, I froze. My mom. I hadn't talked to her in a very long time... she's gonna notice how different I look.

"What did you tell her?" I asked Lauren. My voice was only a whisper though.  "I only told her that you fainted. Nothing about....well.. your cuts." She said and looked down. I just nodded. Thankful that she didn't say anything else.

I didn't really remember falling asleep but when I woke up, I wasn't alone. There was someone holding my hand. At first I thought it was Lauren but when I looked at the hand and saw a golden ring on its finger, I immediately knew who it was. My mom. So I slowly turned my head towards her.

"Mija...." she whispered. I gave her a small smile. "What are you doing Camila..." She continued. I didn't know what to answer so I stayed quiet. "You know... when Lauren called me and told me that you fainted, I was worried sick. I jumped into the next flight and came here as soon as possible. I think I've never pack my things so fast." She told me. I, as before, stayed quiet. "How are you feeling, baby?" My mom asked. I just shrugged. I mean, I just woke up. The room got silent, except for the machines.

I felt very weak. Not just physically but also mentally. My mom and I just sat there in silence. I felt uncomfortable. My mom just kept eyeing me until she started talking.

"You look so different, mija.." she said in a worried and sad tone. "You look so thin.... you look so pale too... and tired. What have you done?"  She grabbed my hand, squeezed it and I saw tears come to her eyes. Then I heard her sniffling. Oh god... And just with that, I started crying too. Knowing I was the reason for my moms sadness made me feel guilty.

Its crazy...little things like this already trigger a panic attack.... So here I am. breathing heavily while my mom is trying to calm me down. Effortless. My breathing was getting sloppy and I was only taking short breaths. From the corner of my eye I could see my mom panicking and pressing the nurse button on the side of my bed. A few minutes later a doctor and a nurse entered my room and took my mom outside. They gave me medicine to calm me down and plugged an IV back into my arm. After that my vision got blurry and I fell asleep.

Sinu's POV (Camila's mom)

Seeing Camila in this condition broke my heart. I heard rumors about Camila, that she apparently didn't look good. That they had to stop a concert. That she was changing. But I was never expecting a drastic change like this. My small, hyperactive, bubbly baby. What is going on with her? I thought she was living her dream life. But a dream to me looks different.

After her breakdown earlier, the doctors send me out of the room back to the waiting room where the other girls were. when I entered Lauren immediately stood up with a questioning look.

"She... she had a breakdown. She wouldn't calm down so they gave her medicine and now she's passed out." I told her before she could ask anything. She nodded and looked at the ground. Almost guilty.... but why? "Lauren?" I asked before she distanced herself. She looked up but avoided my eyes. Something is up. "Did you know about her condition? That she had changed this much?" I asked slowly. At first she kept quiet but then motioned for me to sit down. We walked to sit down a bit away from the other girls.

When we sat down I immediately noticed how Lauren was uncomfortable. "I..I... I knew something was up with her..." she started. "Why didn't you call me?" I asked. "I didn't know it would be this serious. I didn't know she would end up in the hospital after trying to kill he-" She stopped talking and put her hand over her mouth."What? Lauren? Are you telling me she tried killing herself? Camila? Did you know? Why didn't you tell me? She could be gone!" Lauren had her hands over her mouth, tears streaming down her face. "I promised not to tell anyone..." she whispered. "She.... she trusted me.... " she continued. Tears welled up in my eyes. My baby wanted to kill herself. Something made her feel so bad that she decided that death was the only thing making it better.... she thought her only escape was death. How.... why.... she wanted to leave. I let a loud sob escape my mouth. Why would she do that?

I have to call my husband. Now. I would have never imagined that it would be this serious. If I knew I would have brought him and Sofia along. With shaky hands I grabbed my phone out of my purse and dialed his number. Lauren was still crying while watching my actions.

"Hello? Sinu?" Alejandro spoke from the other line.

"I- I need you and Sofi to come down here to the hospital where I am. As fast as possible please."

"Why what happened? Is it about Camila?"

"It is... and it is serious. She needs us. I need you. Please come as fast as possible." I say.

"Okay, stay calm. We will be there as soon as possible. I love you. See you soon."

With that he hung up. I slowly put my phone in my lap looking at Lauren before embracing her. I couldn't be angry at her. Not now. We need to be strong.