Please don't fall (Shawmila)

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Camila's POV
I woke up due to feeling a weight on the mattress near my head. I opened my eyes, only to see Shawns head laying next to mine. He was standing outside of my bunk with his head in my bunk sleeping. I wanted to wake him up to tell him, he could just lay in my bunk with me, but i felt extremely weak. I could barely lift my arm to touch him. But I still managed it. I touched his shoulder but he didn't react. After trying one more time, I slid my hand up to his hair, feeling his soft curls. I loved his curls. It made him look super cute.

After stroking his hair for a few minutes, i felt movement. Shawn looked up and the first thing I saw was worry, which I didn't like at all. He is always worried about me. He gave me a small smile after yawning and rested his head near my lap. I put my hand on top of his head again, touching his curls carefully. After realizing that he must be really uncomfortable, I finally asked him to come and lay next to me in my bunk. He, if course, didn't decline. Hi scooted over, making enough room for him, since he was really big. Compared to when Lauren used to be in my bunk we barely had space to turn. But that was okay. We liked being really close. Especially now, when I needed comfort. It was quiet in my bunk. I didn't have the energy to talk right now. He was just laying next to me, his arm around my body to keep me close.

"Mila? How are you feeling?" Shawn asked quietly. I slowly tried to turn around, feeling the bruise on my arm which the boy had given me outside earlier. I groaned softly while turning towards him. "Are you Ok?" Shawn asked when he heard my groan. I was contemplating on telling him that someone hurt me but decided against it. It would only cause him to be more co concerned. But telling him I had a bruise was ok. "Ehm.... I think I have a bruise on my arm.... when the bus started moving I collided with the wall." I said weakly, still not feeling too well. "Let me see." He said, slowly sitting up. He turned on my bunk light while I pushed my hoodie down by my shoulder. I couldn't just take it off. I had fresh cuts on my arm. Pulling it down hurt a bit but it was nothing compared to the pain I caused to myself.

When he got a look of my shoulder he gasped. I hadn't seen it myself. "Mila... this doesn't look like you crashed against the wall.... this looks like a hand print." He said. I looked down only to see that he was right. I hadn't expected it to look like this. "Who did this Mila?" He asked, eying my bruise. "I... I don't know." I lied. "Don't lie.... someone obviously hurt you.., you can't just say that you don't know." He pulled out a bag of his bagpack. Inside was a small tube. It was ointment for my bruise. He gently put it on my bruise while I whimpered due to the contact with my bruise. After a few seconds he was done, eyeing it once more and slowly pushing my hoodie over my shoulder. "Mila... just so you know, I'm here to talk." He said as he was putting the ointment away. "Do you want me to stay here?" I nodded. "We only have about one more hour until we arrive in Memphis." I scooted over so he could have a comfortable position again. I don't know if I should feel bad for keeping him here with me, when he could just have fun with the girls. Next time he asks if he should stay with me, I'm gonna say no.... for his own good.

We layed in my bunk until the bus came to a stop. Shawn stood up and then told me that we had arrived at the hotel we were staying at. We grabbed our bags and joined the girls who were already outside. I think it was clear that Shawn and I wanted to share a room. So we got our key and entered the huge modern hotel together. Our rooms were on the 17th floor. We all entered the elevator and an awkward silence overcame us. No one knew what to say. I just looked down, knowing it was my fault that everything was awkward between us.

After finally arriving on our floor, we left the elevator and walked to our room. Shawn opened our door and I was surprised by how big the room was. It had two beds and a big window with a nice view over the city. It was only one big room and a big bathroom. We would only be staying here for one night though.

Looking at the clock, I realized that it was time to meet in the lobby to go to the aren to prepare for the concert. I grabbed my bag with stuff I needed and walked downstairs after saying goodbye to Shawn, who was laying on his bad on his phone. Shawn would be coming later, since he didn't needed to be there for our soundcheck. I closed the door behind me and took the elevator. When I reached the lobby I saw the van which was waiting for us and entered it. We were waiting for Dinah and Normani. When they arrived we took off to todays location.

Getting back into the routine of performing wasn't easy but possible. It was a lot of stress which caused me anxiety but I managed to get through soundcheck. After that we only had about 2 more hours left until the show was starting. We wouldn't have any meet and greets for the rest of the American tour. Shawn had arrived when we were done with soundcheck and stayed by my side to keep me calm. With his help I managed to stay calm until I had to go on stage. He would be watching the show from the side of the stage, where no one could see him. It gave me some sort of safety. Nobody knew that he was on tour with us.

Walking on stage and seeing all the fans cheering gave me a good feeling. Maybe today was gonna be a good show. I stood on stage with a slight smile, starting our intro while pretending to have a perfect relationship with the girls. Just like before.

And the show was indeed good. Not perfect but good. We were done now. Everyone was cheering and clapping for us as we walked back while waving. I let myself fall into the couch while Shawn wrapped his arms around me, telling me how good our show was. I smiled exhausted. The girls were already starting to take off their make up and changing into some comfortable clothes. I did the same, loosening my grip from Shawn.

When we all were ready, Lauren dropped an idea. "We should go clubbing today. What do you think?" She asked, looking at us all. I somehow found this a good idea. Maybe a distraction from my everyday life, so I nodded, looking at Shawn and waiting for his answer. I knew he and Dinah weren't 21 yet but we could always use someone to take care of the drunk ones. And to my surprise everyone agreed. On the way back to the hotel we planned everything and chose one of the best clubs here where not everyone could answer so we could be there without being recognized.

In our room, I was kind of freaking out. I didnt know what I should wear. Meanwhile Shawn was already done. He had on a simple white shirt, black skinny jeans and his black leather boots. He looked really good. His hair was my favorite though. He let it dry and his natural curls were showing. I loved them. They looked really fluffy and made him not only look cute but also sexy.

I on the other hand, hadn't even picked out my outfit. I groaned in frustration as I let myself fall back into the bed. "Want me to help you?" Shawn asked amused. I nodded. He walked over to my suitcase and pulled out some black ripped jeans and a white shirt.  Just like his but with a floral pattern on the collar. I was about to take it, when I remembered the cuts on my arm. "Shawn... as pretty as it looks, I can't wear that shirt..." He looked at me with a questioning look until I pulled up my sleeves a bit, signaling to my hurt arms. He nodded and bent down to my suitcase once again pulling out a white blouse. I had a black collar which looked like a necklace. It had long sleeves and I thought it was really pretty. Satisfied with his pick I took it out of his hands, walking into the bathroom to change.

After putting my makeup on and looking somewhat satisfied, I opened the door and stepped outside to our room. Shawn looked me up and down. "Mila, you look really good." He said smiling, which made my cheeks grow hot as I giggled. "So do you Shawn." I replied which he also reciprocate with a slight smile. "We should get going. The girls are waiting for us." He said. I grabbed my purse and put on some black heels and a jacket and followed Shawn outside.

The drive was short but silent apart from a few giggles here and there from Normani and Lauren and when we arrived we all excitedly got out and walked to the entrance.

Tonight is my time to take a break from life. I said, as I followed everyone into the club.

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Will this be a nice evening partying or....?

I'm writing this on Valentines day! My day wasn't good at all and I couldn't stop writing because I needed to distract myself. So here you have a longer chapter!

Love you guys <3