Please don't fall (Shawmila)

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Shawn's POV

I was speechless... what is she doing to herself... I am not mad at her but I just ... I was feeling so much at once. I had been talking to Sinu this past few days... And I needed to tell something to Camila... but now was not the right time... That's why I had asked Camila if it was her mom when she was shocked about the message. Sinu had told me something... pretty... bad. An we had planned on telling Camila one of these days but now? Definitely not today and I needed to call Sinu and tell her to not tell her today. I was in the living room, which was empt. It was already evening . I sat on the balcony, preparing myself on what I was going to tell Sinu.

S: Hello? Shawn?

SH: Sinu... hello...

S: Is everything alright? You sound... down? Have you told her?

SH: No... I- I didn't... and I don't think it's good to do so any time soon...

S: Why? You know we don't really have a lot of time left... It is quite important.... she should know and-

SH: Sinu... she has relapsed...

I finally admitted it.

S: What!? She relapsed? You mean like... with her weight and-

SH: Yes... she relapsed.... really hard... she looks.... not good... and on top of that... she's sick... she has a fever.

S: Oh mios dios... i don't know what to do.... This is not good... this is not good at all.. It's just so much going on and I can't be there for everyone.... how long are you staying?

SH: I was supposed to fly back home next week... but I don't think I should so I probably will be staying a bit longer...

S: That's very kind of you Shawn... I am so worried... not only for Camila but also for-

SH: Yeah.. I know.... I will take care of her here... I lover her a lot. I will try to somehow tell her... and I'll let you know... 

S: Thank you Shawn, you are a good guy.

SH: I try to be...

S: You are Shawn... good night, rest... let her rest...

SH: Thank you Sinu... you too, try to take your mind off things... try to sleep as well... I'll call you and keep updating you.

And I hung up. There was a lot going on right now... and I don't know how to tell Camila what is going on in Miami... I don't know what to do... I was overwhelmed.... Camila being sick... Camila relapsing.... Sinus bad news... I let myself fall into the couch, closing my eyes for a bit, hoping to calm my mind. "Are you okay?" I heard a voice behind me. I turned around and there stood Ally. "Oh.. yeah, kinda..." I said, turning back around. "How is Camila? Any better?" "Not really..."I admitted. At least she seemed to care. "Did you give her some soup?" "I did... and tea... I think she just needs to rest..." "Yeah... I think so too... why are you not with her?" She then asked. "... It's just a lot going on... and she's... sleeping peacefully so I just wanted to get out for a bit..." "You are okay, right?" "I am." I reassured her. Why was she caring about me? Thy don't really care about Camila... She then talked a bit more before she went back into one of the rooms. I sat in the living room a little longer, thinking about what Matthew fucking Hussey did.... how the hell could he... I was so angry... so fucking angry.... I definitely need to do something about him... later. Right now I need to focus on Camila. I sat there until it got dark and I walked back to Camila's room. She probably thinks I'm mad at her... I am not... I am just worried, really worried. I quietly opened the door to her room and saw her sleeping. As I got closer to her, I noticed she was all sweaty... again. "Camila..." I shook her shoulder lightly, wanting to wake her up so she could take the hoodie off. "Camila...." She finally opened her eyes. "What... what?" She was clearly confused. "You're sweating again..." she slowly sat up wiping her hand over her forehead. She tried pulling her hoodie off, being still sleepy and weak. "Can I help you?" I offered. "Please..." she said quietly. I gently took the hem of her hoodie, gently pulling it off her head. Her body scared me a lot... she looks... incredibly thin.... I can literally see every rib... She noticed me staring at her body and quickly pulled the blanket oder her half naked upper body. "Camila... I love you, I swear... even if your body scares me... it scares me why you are doing this... I don't understand..." I said honestly, gently pulling the blanket away from her body. She had a tear rolling down her cheek. "Don't cry, Camila... Mila..." I said... I don't know why I was calling her by her full name... I was... concerned. I reached out, wiping the tear away. "I love you. I love you just as much as I did before... nothing changed... I think I even love you more Mila... I feel the need to protect you... because I love you so much." I said, caressing her cheek. The room was dark but I could still see her beautiful face and every feature of her and her body. "Mila... it's just hurting me... you gotta understand that..." I explained again. She nodded, wiping her fresh tears away. "Come here." I said, opening my arms for her. She leaned into my embrace, her body feeling on fire but it didn't matter to me. I laid us down on the bed, me spooning her. "I love you, Mila..." "Everything between us is okay, right?" She asks quietly. "It is... baby it is... I swear." I promised. It scared me that she thought that this could break us up or something. I was not letting go of her that easily. Of course I was confused at first when I saw that picture of her half naked body... on someone else's bed... but I also knew that that wasn't like her at all... so when she explained... I immediately believed her. Because I love, trust and know her.

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