Please don't fall (Shawmila)

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Shawn's POV

I woke up by my ringing phone. I immediately sat up and grabbed my phone, seeing it was Sinu. "Hello?" I asked. "Good morning Shawn, I'm sorry for waking you up so early but she woke up. I don't know if- " That was all I needed. "I'm on my way. Thanks Sinu." Then I ended the Phone call and sprinted to get myself ready.

I arrived at the hospital within the next 15 minutes. It was still 6:23 am. None of the girls were awake. But here I was. At the hospital visiting Mila. I went to the reception asking if I was allowed to get to her room. She nodded her head and I entered the elevator, going back into the same room as yesterday. I knocked and when I heard Sinus voice, I opened the door. Sinu was sitting next to Camila, holding her hand. Camila was laying in the same position as yesterday but this time her eyes were open. She was looking towards the door and had an uncomfortable look on her face and I could tell she had cried before. "Hey." I greeted the both. Sinu let go of Mila's hand and went to embrace me. I then kneeled down next to Camila afterwards and kissed her forehead. She closed her eyes in the process. "I already called a nurse. She said she's coming in a few minutes." I nodded and was about to sit next to Sinu when Camila squeezed my hand, signaling she wanted me there. So I leaned back down and caressed her cheek with my other hand. Sinu was silently watching our interaction. For her it might've look strange but for us it was pretty normal.

A nurse entered, checking on Camila. "She can't really talk." The nurse told us. "She should take care of her voice for the next few weeks. She will have an aching sensation while talking or eating. Thats why she's only getting liquid foods. Camila, have you tried talking today?" The nurse asked, directing the question to Camila. She nodded. "And you probably felt a lot of pain right?" She nodded again. Poor Mila.

After the nurse and Sinu left, I was alone with Mila. She was still beautiful. No doubt. She's the most precious thing ever. I looked at her in adoration while holding her hand and she was sleeping. Then the nurse came in again with some plastic packages to put on one of Camila's tubes. It was probably her breakfast. Camila was awake again. She plugged the bag onto the tube, explained it to us how it would be and left again. I was looking at her again and she was staring back at me. She hadn't said a word but it was because she couldn't. It only took a few minutes for the liquid to enter through the tube. When we were sure it was empty, I pulled it out again, like the nurse had told me to do when she was ready. I played the bag in the trash can and sat back down. Then we both got lost in thoughts.... spacing out. I knew what I wanted. Her. And I knew it for a long time. I don't know if she feels ready. Hell.. I don't even know if she is ready... I'll never know if I don't try...

"Mila?" She looked up to me from her sleeping position. "Do you trust me?" I could see the confusion in her face. But she nodded. "Good..." Silence. "Do you... do you like me?" Oh Shawn.... just shut up. But Mila nodded without hesitation. "You said you trust me... please... let me do this... let me do this while I have the confidence too okay?" She was very confused but nodded again. I slowly leaned down to her level, putting one of my hands on her cheek. This is it. The moment I have been waiting for since I met her. I got closer to her face, eyeing her beautiful features. Flawless. This is it. I got closer to her lips and placed mine gently on hers. I didn't care about her dry lips, it still felt soft. I only kissed her very lightly before pulling back again. She had her eyes closed and I saw tears coming out of her eyes. No...

"Mila... I.. I'm sorry... I shouldn't have done that, I'm sorry... I wasn't thinking. I should have known...Shit... I-I think it's better if I leave." I rambled, unable to form a proper sentence. I knew it was a bad idea. I was about to stand up and walk out to think but Mila pulled me back. She had my hand firmly in hers. I looked back at her. She still had tears streaming down her face but was shaking her head. "Don't you want me to go?" I asked unsure. She shook her head again. So I sat back down, not letting go of her hand. What would happen now? Would things be weird between us? I knew Camila wasn't able to talk right now but I'm sure she would if she could. I prefer the silence at the moment. No one dared to move and I didn't dare to say another word. But then I felt a tug on my hand so I looked at Camila. She pulled my hand and also took my other hand, causing me to lean closer to her. She let go of my hand and put her small, soft hand on my cheek, causing me to smile lightly. She pulled me closer to her, by putting her hand on the back of my neck. I didn't know what was happening, until I felt her lips on mine again. I could taste her tears on her lips. And this time, it wasn't just a light peck. It was a proper kiss, which she initiated. And it made me really happy. I didn't know what it meant yet, but I liked it. Her perfect lips on mine, her hand on the back of my neck, playing with my hair. Everything was perfect. Apart from Mila being in a hospital. When we pulled apart, she still had tears streaming down her face and her eyes closed but she was smiling lightly. I decided on not saying anything about this until she was able to talk again so I just kneeled there, next to her, my hand in hers and her hand still on my neck, both slightly smiling. This is what I want. I want her. I want her to have me.

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It happened! Will Mila finally be happy? At least for a bit?

My quarantine day 3 just started!
I'm gonna do some workout ind online school 😴✌🏻 But our online schooling system was hacked on Monday morning.... so I'm curious how thats gonna work out now 🤷🏽‍♀️
What are your plans for today? Or what time is it where you live? Its almost 11 am here!