Please don't fall (Shawmila)

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20K !!!! OMG Thank you so much! That means.... 3 chapters today! This is the first one, enjoy and leave comments <3

Camila's POV

Today was my second doctors appointment and I would get my stitches out, finally. I was already dressed and standing by the window in the living room, watching the busy streets of Toronto. Only one more week until I was going back to New York with the girls and I didn't know when I was seeing Shawn again. 

I was concentratedly watching the cars pass by and people walk on the sidewalk until I suddenly felt to wrong arms gripping my hips. Shawn. "Hey baby, you ready?" he asked, kissing my neck. "Yeah." I smiled back. I was kind of scared. Would it hurt? Would it bleed? Would it ever fade a bit? How would it look? Oh god, I was too worried. "Come, lets go or we're going to be late." He said after a few minutes, grasping my hand and pulling me to the door after taking my purse. It was still pretty warm since it was the end of august but I just couldn't walk around in shirts because of my arms. No fans knew about it. And it should stay like that. I had on a white top and a jacket of Shawn on top. 

We silently sat in the car after being attacked by tons of paparazzis, again. Shawn held my hand again, trying to calm me down. I took a few deep breaths and when he noticed that I was okay again, he started the ride to the doctor.

"Camila Cabello please." The nurse said, entering the almost empty waiting room. I stood up, taking Shawns hand and walking behind the nurse. "I'm sorry, but you can only be in there alone." The nurse said before we entered the room. "Please.... I- I-" "I'm sorry, but its the rules." The nurse said. I looked down to my feet and then back at shaw. I nodded before gettin on my tip toes and giving him a soft kiss. "I'll be waiting, alright? Don't be scared, you got this." He whispered in my ear, letting go of my hand as I entered the room. I had to sit down on a chair, take off my jacket and stretch out my arms. "Good morning Camila, how are you feeling?" The doctor Ms. Reece asked as she entered the room. "Morning... a bit nervous. " I admitted quietly. "No need to be, it's going to be really quick and you will only feel a little sting." She was taking out the things and placing them on the table where I had both my arms stretched out. "So, should we start?" She asked. I nodded, letting out a weak breath. She started sterilizing my arms and checking if anything was infected, which it luckily wasn't. I felt a little sting when she started sterilizing which made me worry. She then set the tweezers on the string and stated removing it slowly in my right arm first. I closed my eyes, trying to focus on another thing. It was hurting me a little, since my skin was very sensitive. The doctor tried to hurry because she could feel that I was hurting. 

After a few minutes she stopped and I looked down at my arm. "First one done." She said, setting down the tweezers and sterilizing my arm again. I could see the small little holes where the string had been before and she put a bandage around it again, so it wouldn't start bleeding. She then did the same on the other arm and told me that I could remove the bandage tomorrow. It was just protecting my arms from getting infected. "So now we are going to do our usual check up, alright?" I stood up, taking off my shoes and my jacket, only standing there in my leggings and and bra. I stood on the scale and Dr. Reece wrote down my weight, comparing it with the previous one. "86 lbs... you gained weight, which is good, its just still not enough." I cringed at her words and at the number on the scale. 86 lbs.... shit. I can never loose that weight again, fans will never be okay with my weight or body... "Did you bring you calories table?" She then asked, lookin up from her notes. "My boyfriend has them... he's outside... in the waiting room." I said quietly. I heard the door open and Mrs Reece left, probably to get the table from Shawn.  A few seconds later she reentered the room and looked at the table "You have been eating pretty good Camila, I am proud of you... keep it going, alright?" "Yeah..." I whispered. "I'll see you next week then?" I stood up, shaking her hand and nodding. 

"How was it?" Shawn asked while we walked to the car. "Okay..." I still had my current weight in my head. I had gained so fucking much weight...ANd my arms were stinging a bit. "My wrists sting a bit..." I said quietly. I entered the car and leaned my elbows on my knees, looking down to my feet. "Hey... what's bothering you?" he asked quietly, putting his hand on my shoulder. My fucking weight is bothering me... "Nothing... it's just... exhausting...." It is... my thoughts right now are exhausting. I leaned back in the car seat and looked over at Shawn, who still had his hand on my shoulder. He then leaned over to me, pressing a kiss to my lips. I lingered with my lips on his for a bit longer, before pulling back again and looking out the window. I felt his eyes on me but I just couldn't look him in the eyes. He would instantly know that something else was wrong. Then he started the car and we made our way out of the parking lot. But I instantly noticed that we weren't going back to the condo, this was a different road. "Where are we going?" I asked, not looking at him. "I'm taking you somewhere, somewhere quiet so you can relax a bit. It's gonna take some time though to get there... you can just sleep for a bit if you fell exhausted, baby." He said, putting his hand on my thigh as I put my hand over his, leaning back in the seat, closing my eyes and let Shawn take me to that place.

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Oh Mila.... you are perfect, like.... she literally is.