Please don't fall (Shawmila)

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Another late night update :3 it's currently 12:28 am

Camila'S POV

"Baby... I really don't want to go... I want to stay here... w-with you.." I was now full out bawling into his chest still sitting in the car but parked at the airport. "I- I don't want to go.." I sobbed. He held be close, trying to comfort me but nothing was working. "Baby.... I know... but you have to. And so do i... I will have to go back to recording." he whispered into my ear while holding me. "I can come with you... just, I - I don't want to leave you." I protested again, knowing it would not help at all. I had to go, now. "baby, come one... it will be alright. I am always here to talk, call or cuddle the bear or send a vibration... I will send you a lot so you know I'm thinking of you." He said, taking my hands in his and smoking my knuckles. I might, nodding in defeat. "Okay...." "Mila, baby, stop crying please... you are making this so hard for both of us, really..." he said quietly, wiping my tears away. "Come, let's walk inside and I will not leave your side until you have to enter the plane, alright?" I nodded, pulling away from his as he got out of the car and opening my door. I got out and we walked to his trunk, getting my suitcases ou. He carried them to one of those luggage carts and rolled the cart inside, my arm hooked with his, my bag back on my bag and the teddybear with his shirt in my hand. I probably look like a little baby but I really... really don't want to leave him. We made sure to get securities so we wouldn't be bothered and right when we entered, the lead us to a separate part of the huge airport. Due to being celebrities Shawn could stay with me until I had to enter the plane. We sat down in front of the separate gate where I would be the first one to enter and cuddled Shawns teddy while he pulled me into his lap. We just sat there together, knowing that it would be our last moments together for a few months. I was so sad... and still crying. Even though I know I had a lot of things that would remind me of him, it didn't help at all. I pulled up my sleeve, revealing the bond touch bracelet, tapping one time on it. 'I miss you' was the meaning. "I will miss you too baby... a lot." He whispered into my neck. 

Then, my flight was called and I had to get up from Shawns lap and walk over to the entrance. I gave him a passionate kiss, a tight embrace and shed a few more tears before whispering "I love you a lot and I will miss you" "me too baby, a lot. And please call me when you land." He whispered back. I then took  the bear, pressed it into my chest and walked over to the entrance where I showed my boarding pass on got to enter, waving one last time at Shawn. This is really happening...

I sat down on my first class seat, even if it was only for 1 hour and pulled my hood and sunglasses up, so passing people wouldn't notice me. First class wasn't booked out completely so I probably might have the row for myself. I put on the seatbelt, held the bear with both my hands and leaned back in the seat. I was dreading seeing the girls and living with them for 4 months. The flight started after half an hour and now I was only seeing the landscape of toting, slowly getting smaller... I wanted to sleep but I couldn't. I had such a restlessness in myself that I just wasn't able to calm myself down so I put on music, Shawns music. His songs always amaze me... every word, every tone just everything... and his voice slowly send me into a light sleep, but not without me sending out three vibrations to Shawn. 'I love you'

Setting my foot into the airport of New York was strange. Shawn wasn't beside me anymore and I was completely on my own. Rob said he would pick me up at the airport and drive me to the apartment. I was the first to arrive. When I looked around, searching for him I didn't find him... but tons of Paparazzis. I, luckily, had my hood and my sunglasses on. In front of me I was wheeling the luggage cart with my suitcases and the teddy bear on top. I just need to find Rob. And as if on cue, I felt someone tap my shoulder. "Camila! Come on, lets get you out of here." He said, taking the cart from my hands and leading me to the shuttle. He put my suitcases in the trunk while I sat inside the car, in the bag. I promised Shawn to call him as soon as I land but I decided on doing it in the apartment where I was alone, so I only send out one vibration, followed by three. 'I miss you' & 'I love you'. I immediately got the same amount of vibrations back before leaving my head on the window as Rob started driving me to the apartment.I had the urge to cry the whole drive but hold it back, causing my eyes to be watery. I pulled the teddy bear up to my nose, smelling Shawns scent and closing my eyes for a moment. 

"We are here Camila. These are your keys. The apartment is on the 5th floor. You can choose your room, since you're the first and groceries will be done by us." He explained, giving me the keys as I nodded. I then followed him upstairs to the 5th floor and he brought my suitcases inside. "thanks." I said quietly before he closed the doors. I walked through the apartment which actually was pretty big and entered every room. They were all very pretty but I decided on the one at the end of the corridor with a small balcony. It looked pretty calm. Every room luckily had an own bathroom and we had a big kitchen connected with the living room. We also had a recording studio and just a chill area with a huge white wall with a projector. And there was also another chill room. It was pretty small, with a comfy couch and a window which was as big as the wall and you could see the streets of New York. Just like from my room. I then brought my thing into my room, sat down and send two vibrations. 'I need you' and then I called him. 

S: Hey baby, how are you feeling?

C: Lonely.

S: Aren't the others there yet?

C: No, I'm the first one here... but its pretty here... but it would be better with you here.

S: Baby... I wish you were here too... it is empty in my apartment now... what are you doing?

C: I'm laying on my bed... clutching the bear with the hood of your hoodie only head....

S: Have you cried anymore?

C: I am...

S: Baby.... no... stop, please... I miss you just as much... but it's our job, alright? 

C: Yeah, I know

S: Alright.... I love you a lot... like, really a lot... I have to go... I have to drive to the studio in a few.... the want me to start writing today.... have fun baby and I am always thinking about you, okay?

C: Yeah... I love you a lot too... have fun... bye.

S: Bye baby..

And then he hung up and I let myself fall into the bed. It wasn't nearly as comfortable as Shawns but it was... okay I guess. I closed my eyes, with the teddy tightly in my arms and fell into a restless sleep yet again. Would I even be able to have a good sleep without Shawn here? Probably not...

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Mila is missing him so much.... and... I just wrote a really intense chapter, so enjoy the harmless stuff while you can...