Please don't fall (Shawmila)

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Camila's POV

I woke up. I could feel Shawns arms around me and our hands intertwined. It was already bright outside and I looked at the clock. 7:35 am. I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep again, so I slowly got out from his embrace, kissed him on the lips, whispered a quiet "I love you" and walked into the kitchen. Today was my time to make breakfast for him. I made sure to close the door to the kitchen so he wouldn't wake up and started making some breakfast. I knew he liked coffee so I made a cup for him and I made tea for myself. I needed a tea to relax... today is the day where the girls arrive here in Toronto. We'll be meeting up tomorrow. But I pushed it quickly out of my mind again, to not ruin the mood. I then made some toasts and a fruit bowl and put everything on a tray. I took it and walked back into the bedroom. It was 8:15 am by now.

I slowly opened the door, seeing that he was still asleep and walked inside. I set the tray on my bedside table and got on the bed next to Shawn. I laid down next to him, watching him sleep for a bit, before kissing his nose and forehead. But he didn't wake up from it. So I started whispering his name. "Shawn.... wake up.... babe....." I covered his face in kisses, setting several kisses on his lips, until he finally kissed back and continued the kiss. I could feel him smile into the kiss and so did I. I put my hands behind his head and played with his curls, like I always do. He grabbed me gently by the waist and pulled away gently. "Good morning beautiful." he said in his raspy morning voice. "Good morning babe." I smiled back. "I made you breakfast..." I said, sitting up and grabbing the tray. He smiled sheepishly at me and sat up against the headboard. "Thats too sweet of you baby." he said, leaning forward for a kiss. I smiled, pecking his lips and looking back at the tray. "Here." I said, giving him his coffee. He took it gratefully, taking a sip and the taking on half of the toast. I did the same and we enjoyed our breakfast in bed together.

We were now just cuddling in bed, doing nothing, but I had felt his mood drop. I hadn't bothered at first but he then just stopped laughing. "Shawn... what'S wrong?" I asked worried. He stayed quietly for a few moments and then started to talk "I-I...I got a call from management last week.... and they said that they needed me.... back in the studio.... before new year..." I knew what that meant.... my fear became reality... we both would be returning to work... without each other... "I won't be able.... to be with you on that December tour..." I nodded sadly. Since we were laying in bed on our sides, my face towards his chest, I could lean my forehead against his chest. "I know.... I had a feeling that.... that everything would go back... to how it was.... before I got you... as my boyfriend. " He put his hand under my chin, making me look up at him. "No... don't say that Mila... It won't be as it was before.... I won't be with you... but I am yours and I am there for you, always. I'm only one phone call away when we're apart." "I know...." I whispered against his neck, closing my eyes. It's funny how quickly a mood can change.

We were ready and sitting on the roof. We hadn't planned on doing anything today, since our moods weren't too good today. He knew I would have to me with them tomorrow and I was still waiting for Laurens text. "Can I sing something for you?" he asked after a few more minutes of sitting on the roof, enjoying the sunny weather. "Sure." I stood up, probably getting his guitar. I stayed back, sitting a little closer to the edge, letting my feet hang of the building again. I knew it looked scary, but it just made me feel free for a moment. "Mila! Please sit back a bit." he said, when he saw me sitting so close to the edge. I pushed myself back a bit as he sat down next to me. "I wrote another song" He said, strumming the first chord. "It's called 'What if I told you that I love you' and I actually wrote it before... you told me you love me. I didn't have the courage to say it.... but you did. I love you, Mila" he said, before starting.

'What if I told you that I love you' (by Ali Gatie)

What if I told you that I love you?
Would you tell me that you love me back?
What if I told you that I miss you?
Would you tell me that you miss me back?What if I told you that I need you? (Need you)
Would you tell me that you need me, yeah?
If I tell you all my feelings (feelings)
Would you believe me, yeah?What if I told you that I lo-lo-lo-lo-lo-lo-lo-love you? Yeah
What if I told you that I lo-lo-lo-lo-lo-lo-lo-love you? Yeah
What if I told you that I need you? (Need you, need you)
Would you tell me that you need me, too?
What if I told you that I lo-lo-lo-lo-lo-lo-lo-love you?Ay, when you told me that you'd love me
Was I a fool to believe in you?
When you told me I was special
Was I dumb for trusting you?
When you told me that you want me
Did you really want me?
Or was this all a joke to you? (To you, to you)
I don't wanna say, "I miss you"
If I don't know that you miss me back (oh, no, no)
I don't wanna say the wrong thing
If I do, there's no coming backWhat if I told you that I need you? (Need you)
Would you tell me that you need me, yeah?
If I'd tell you all my feelings (feelings)
Would you believe me, yeah?What if I told you that I lo-lo-lo-lo-lo-lo-lo-love you? (Na, na, na)
Yeah, what if I told you that I lo-lo-lo-lo-lo-lo-lo-love you?I wish I told you that I loved you
Now it's too late, you have someone new
I hope he loves you like I do
Do you love the way he's treating you?What if I told you that I love you?
Would you tell me that you love me back? (Me back)
If I told you that I miss you
Would you tell me that you miss me back? (Me back)What if I told you that I need you?
Would you tell me that you need me, yeah?
If I tell you all my feelings
Would you believe me, yeah?What if I told you that I lo-lo-lo-lo-lo-lo-lo-love you? Yeah
What if I told you that I lo-lo-lo-lo-lo-lo-lo-love you? Yeah
What if I told you that I need you?
Would you tell me that you need me, too?
What if I told you that I love you?
What if I told you that I

He sang it with so much love and feelings... I had not other words than "I love you Shawn." And kiss him on his lips. "Shawn... you are literally perfect... perfect in my eyes." He chuckled. "It's funny.... I always think that of you...you are perfect in my eyes, too" He replied lovingly, kissing me one more time before setting down his guitar and taking me back into his arms. We spent the rest of the afternoon on the roof with a few snacks, enjoying each others company.

We were peacefully laying together, still on the roof, listening to Toronto's daily traffic, when my phone vibrated in my hoodie pocket. Hey message from 'Lauren'. No...I pulled my phone out of my pocket and tapped on the screen so it lit up again. Shawn curiously looked over my shoulder. "It's Lauren..." I said.

'Lauren' (just now): Hey Camila, I hope you are doing ok so far. We just landed in Toronto and are going to our Hotel. Where should we meet up tomorrow? Maybe at the cafe 'Tandem Coffee' ? I'm sure I can reserve a private table there so no one will listen. Of course we won't talk about special touring plannings in there but about maybe the main topic and everything? Let me know.. oh and come alone, more privacy... nothing against Shawn though. See you!

Shawn had read everything and put his head in my neck, calming me instantly. "Mila, it won't be as bad as you are probably imagining right now." He said trying to easy my anxiety. "Dinner? You can answer later, ok?" he then asked, quickly distracting me. I nodded. He stood up, pulling me up by my hand and grabbing his guitar. I actually was pretty hungry. It was already 7:38 pm and the sun was going down already.

We had decided on making a salad and were currently cutting onions. Well... he was cutting onions. I was cutting cucumber. I knew Shawn hates tomatoes so we didn't cut any. I heard Shawn sniffle next to me and knew it was because of the onions. I walked over to him, playing a little. "Awww... babe don't cry." I said with a playful voice, putting my hands on his shoulders after setting down the knife. "Shut up, Mila... or you're the next one cutting onions...." he said with playful anger in his voice. I giggled and kissed his cheek quickly, so I wouldn't start to cry myself. I got back to cutting cucumber, putting a few pieces in my mouth, leaving only a few to put in our salad. "Heyyy, Mila, stop eating them or we won't have any for the salad. " he giggled and sniffling. I took on, hold it infant of his mouth and he ate it. " Stop eating yourself, Mr. Mendes." I said playful. I then put my cucumber into the bowl with the rest of the salad we had already cut and Shawn also added the few onions.

The salad was delicious and I had completely forgotten about the text Lauren had send me a few hours ago. Shawn and I had fun together and danced around the living room until it was dark outside. And the, we found ourselves back in bed, wrapped I the sheets and holding each other close. Well, he was holding me close and encouraging me to finally answer Lauren. When I finally gave in, I grabbed my phone, turned around so he could se what I was typing and started forming a response.

'Camila': Hey Lauren, I'm good. Yeah, meeting at then Tandem coffee sounds good to me. Let me know the time tomorrow and I'll be there. I'm coming alone, Shawn has something to do anyways. See you tomorrow :)

"I actually don't have anything to do...." Shawn said. "Well... now you'll have to." I said, putting my phone away and turning back to him. He pulled me close again, putting his hand on the back of my head, kissing my lips, whispering a "I Love you, baby. Sleep well" and holding me tight. I whispered the same and closed my eyes, falling asleep.

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I think my actual sad mood gives me more motivation to write cute stuff about them.

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