Please don't fall (Shawmila)

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Camila's POV

Shawn had grabbed my hand and intertwined our fingers while we were waiting for the elevator. We had planned on going out for lunch today. It was giving me anxiety, knowing I would be going outside and having that creepy person stalking me 24/7. I hadn't told anyone about it yet and I didn't really plan on doing it. I knew I had to sooner or later. But that wasn't my main concern at the moment.

We were outside of the building and he held my hand tightly. There were some Paparazzis who followed us a few meters but only until we reached Shawns car, which had been parked outside. When we finally entered his car, which luckily had dark tinted window, he squeezed my hand tightly to ease my anxiety and leaned over to give me a gentle kiss. "Where are you taking me?" I asked him then. "Its a surprise okay? I think you will like it." He smiled. I nodded, trusting him.

The car ride was comfortable. We put on some music and laughed and sang and everything. I had fun, without worries. When he finally parked the car, after a 40 minutes ride, he walked around the car and opened the door for me. I smiled and thanked him with a kiss. He then grabbed my hand and thats when I looked around. We were on a parking lot at the beach. There were barely any cars but it looked very pretty. "Do you see that restaurant? We're going to eat lunch over there and then we can take a walk on the beach. Is that alright with you?" "Thats perfect.... boyfriend." I smiled cutely at him, wrapping the necklace he had given me in my hand. I was finally able to talk normally by now... kind of. If I walked too much, my throat would hurt. He leaned own and kissed me, before taking my hand again and leading me to the restaurant.

He had a seat reserved for us, a table right on the window, turned to the water. Beautiful. We were lead to our table and Shawn told me what he had planned to order. I agreed, since I knew that Shawn had a very good tasted in food. He made sure that the food had enough calories so he could write it down on the table. I was still afraid of the number that would be on the scale tomorrow... but I knew I had no other choice for now. I only had to do this for three more weeks. I would never be able to eat without having those bad thoughts in my head.... but I was getting used to it. And Shawn noticed. "Mila... eat this please. I just want you to be healthy again." I nodded, hesitantly grabbing my food. This wasn't the first time he had see me hesitate about eating. He always tried to show me that it was important for me to eat... that he would like me... no matter what. He always made sure to eat the same amount of food like me or even a bit more. But I knew he worked out... maybe I should start working out too... yeah. That would probably help me lose weight again. I have to start working out... soon.

When we were done with eating, almost two hours had passed because we had talked a lot, more Shawn, and we had eaten dessert too. I was pretty happy. When we payed.... well, Shawn insisted on paying since he hadn't let me bring my wallet, he took my hand again and we walked back to the car, which confused me. "I thought we were going to the beach?" I asked. "We are, I brought a blanket to sit on and I think it's better to let our shoes in the car. Do you want to take your sweater?" I nodded understanding, taking my shoes off. "I think its better if I take my sweater, yeah... I might be getting pretty cold later." my fever still wasn't completely gone, which still made me have temperature swings. He swung the blanket over his shoulder, closed the car and took my hand to walk down to the beach. It was a part of the beach where you weren't allowed to swim since the waves were pretty dangerous and there were rocks everywhere so there were barely and people. We had luck anyways today. I thought we would have tons of paparazzis behind us but that luckily wasn't the case. We only had a few at Shawns condo and when we entered and left the restaurant, which I was glad about. I really couldn't deal with paparazzis right now.

It was a pretty sunny day but I was somehow cold. I was glad I had brought the sweater because as soon as we arrived near the water, I slipped on the hoodie. "You cold?" Shawn asked. I nodded. "Glad you brought your sweater then." He smiled, continuing to walk, with me on his side. The sun wasn't at its highest anymore but it was still pretty nice.

After a few minutes of walking in one direction, we arrived at some Rocks in the sand. Shawn led me through them and between all the rocks was a beautiful little space with sand, where you had perfect view of the sun reflecting in the water. No one else was here and the place was kind of difficult to find. "Woah... this is beautiful." I said in disbelief. He smiled as he but the blanket on the sand and sat down, while I was still admiring the beautiful lace. "Are you coming? Or are you just staying there?" He then asked. I giggled, sitting down next to him. He pulled me in closer, giving me a kiss and just cuddling me. I really, really like him... I love him. But I thinks it's still too soon to say that... but it' just what I'm feeling towards him. Love. Something I haven't felt in a long time. It was perfect. The moment was perfect. He was perfect. How did I end up here? After everything that had been going on... here I am, with the man I was afraid would never like me back. I had made my final decision. After this day, which again was perfect, I knew I had to do something for him. Tomorrow I would sing the song I finished yesterday for him. I even was able to play it on guitar. The song meant a lot to me... and I hope he will like it.

"What is going through that beautiful head of yours?" He said, sensing that I was deeply in thoughts. "Nothing in particular..." I lied. I would not be telling him about what I had been planning. "Just about how perfect this day has been til now... and it's not even done." I said, looking at the water and the sun sinking slowly from the sky and coming closer to the water. "Mila, the only thing that made this day perfect were you." He said, as he kissed my head. "No Shawn. We... we made this day perfect." I corrected him, looking up and kissing his lips and closing my eyes afterwards. I hadn't noticed how tired I had been, until my eyes remained closed while I was leaning against him. I fell asleep, with my boyfriend on my side at the beach in his hometown.

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This chapter is so cute, isn't it?

But let's see how long the book will stay this calm.

Sometimes Im afraid of making things bad again because I'm sacred that people will dislike my book again... I'm sorry for playing with your feelings... believe me, I'm playing with my own feelings when writing this.