Please don't fall (Shawmila)

77

I hope you feel loved in this difficult time!
I am sending virtual hugs out to all of you
👉🏽❤️👈🏽

A quick update at 1 am ✌🏻

Camila's POV

When we detangled from each other, I remembered that I still needed to pack the rest of my bags. I would be taking everything that I had brought... apart from a few things maybe. "Shawn, I need to finish packing. " I said sadly. "Alright, I can help you." he suggested, getting up on his feet and walking over to my opened suitcases. "What do you need?" he asked. "Only a few things that I put into the dryer yesterday and the things from the bathroom." I said, walking to the dryer, seeing that it was ready and putting the things into a laundry basket, taking it over to my suitcases. "Ohh... I really like this one." Shawn said, pulling out one of my shirts. "Can I keep it? Pleaseee." He begged, holing it to his chest. I chuckled. "For what? It doesn't even fit you..." "But it has your smell... and it'll remind me of you!" That is so cute... "Aww... okay... can I get something in return?" I asked innocently, knowing full well I already had about 3 of his shirts and one hoodie of his in my suitcase... and the Teddy bear! The clothes had lost his scent though... "Hmm... okay, but only cause it's you, baby." He said, putting his hands on my hips. He gave me a soft kiss and pulled me over to his closet. "What about.... this one?" he asked, pulling out a baby blue sweater. "Yeah!" I said, taking it from his hands, immediately taking in his smell. "And this? " He pulled out another sweater. A pastel yellow on. "Really?" "Take it. But bring it back... some day." He chuckled. "Yeah." I laughed back, knowing that he probably would never see it again on his own body.

"What are you going to do with my shirt anyways?" I asked, putting another spoon full of pasta in my mouth. "Hmm... probably wrap it around the pillow you sleep on." he said smiling, also putting a spoon full of pasta in his mouth. "I love you... alright?" he said, taking my hand while continuing to eat. "I... I love you too, a lot." I smiled back at him, finishing my pasta. We put our plates away, getting back to my suitcases.

I picked up the bear which was sitting on the bed and looked over to the pillow with my shirt around. "Do you also want a shirt?" Shawn asked, basically reading my thoughts. "You... you don't ... you don't have to." But he was already getting one out of his closet. "This doesn't fit me anyways." He threw a red shirt at me which I put around the bear. I then put a knot on the back so it fit better and looked at it. "Now it really reminds me of you." I smiled and pressed it to my chest. Shawn put his arms around me, pressing me to his chest and kissing my head. "How about we get ready for bed and cuddle?" He suggested. "Yep." I smiled, carefully setting the bear on the bed and changing my clothes. Of course it was a pair of leggings and one of Shawns hoodies. It was still summer but I just felt more comfortable sleeping in long things. We got ready for bed together and laid down.

"Please cuddle this bear so it has your scent until we see each other again." I whispered, suddenly feeling really sad about having to leave him tomorrow. I had my head on his chest as he had his arms around me, holding me tightly. He gently took the bear into his arms, holding it between his and my body. "I will." he said softly, caressing my side. I snuggled more into his embrace, hearing him whisper an "I love you, baby" before I closed my eyes, falling asleep for one last time in the safety of my boyfriend.

"Babe... it's time...." I heard him whisper into my ear, feeling his hand on my cheek. Noooo. I don't want to leave him... I groaned, slowly opening my eyes. "I don't want to...." I whispered, and as soon as I saw his face, I started tearing up, clutching the teddy bear to my chest. This is going to be so hard. "Baby, I know..." he said pouting while putting a hand on my shoulder and sitting down next to me. "I will be taking you to the airport and we even have time to eat breakfast together, alright? But you need to get ready though." He said softly. I sighed, turning to my back while pressing my eyes shut. He put his hand on my cheek, coming closer before kissing my lips. I am going to miss this so bad. He then gently wiped away the tears I had on my cheek and helped me sit up. I took the clothes which I had chosen the night before. It was a pair of stretch jeans and one of the hoodies Shawn had given me yesterday. The flight would only take about 2 hours so I didn't really need any joggers and I needed to look presentable when I finally meet the girls. I brushed my teeth, put on makeup and walked back into the room. Shawn had already taken my suitcases to the front door and I picked up my backpack. I looked one last time around the room before walking out to where Shawn was waiting. "You ready to go?" He asked. "No..." he chuckled, leaning down to kiss me and then walked ahead of me with both my suitcases.

The car ride to eat breakfast was awfully quiet. There was a tension in the air and no one dared to speak. I was so sad that I had to leave today. Not even music was playing. I looked down at my wrist where the bond touch bracelet was and tapped three times on it. It means "I love you". I felt him look down at his bracelet and then looking over at me. "I love you too." he said, before taking my hand gently and intertwining our fingers.

When we parked at the diner we walked inside. It was still pretty early so not many people were here. Not even paparazzis. We chose a table and ordered waffles, a cup of hot chocolate for me, coffee for Shawn and a few fruits to eat with the waffles. "Do you want anything else?" He asked before the waitress took our order. I just shook my head, no. "Alright, then thats all." He said and thanked the waitress. We waited for the food and I quickly checked my flight details to see if we were still in time. And we were. We still have about 2 more hours until I need to be there. I would meet the girls at the apartment which had been rented for us. I was really anxious and tensed. Shawn could sense that and placed his hand on mine, making me look up at him. "It' going to be alright, baby. I promise." He said reassuringly. I shrugged unsure and placed my phone back down.

When the food arrived, we ate it, having some small talk and finishing up before getting back in the car. "Alright Mila, I promise it will be okay. Please don't be sad..." he said again, putting his hand on my leg and leaning over, placing a small kiss on my lips. I just nodded unconvinced. Shawn started the car and the drive to the airport began.

-----

Here it begins!