Please don't fall (Shawmila)

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Camila's POV

We were sitting on my bed and he was talking about how tour was. It sounded like a lot of fun, unlike mine. "Now tell me about your tour Mila." he said. I nodded and started talking about the beginning of the tour, where we started and everything .Some small details about my feelings but not too much.

While I was talking I got a notification on my phone so I took it out of my bag and looked at the screen. "What happened to your phone?" Shawn asked. Oh, right, I almost forgot.... honestly I didn't I just tried to forget it. "Eh... it fell when Lauren and I were out." He nodded and kept eying it. I just opened instagram, where I had gotten the notification. It was a DM from a guy. @MattewHussey. What? I tapped on the DM and read the message.

@ MatteyHussey: Hey Camila, I heard you stopped tour and are now in Miami? Want to meet up?

I didn't know what to answer. I mean, I was kind of a fan of his work. A dating coach. Why not?

@ CamilaCabello: Hey :) Yes, I am back in Miami. We should definitely meet up. When and where?

I send the message and looked back at Shawn who was trying to get a look at my phone. "Who's that?" "Just a guy who wants to meet up with me soon here in Miami." I explained. "And you're just going to meet up with some random guy?" He asked me. "Oh, no, I kind of know him. He's Matthew Hussey. The dating coach. You might also know him." I said and showed him his Instagram. He just looked through his page and handed me back my phone. "I still don't understand how your phone broke... You never broke a phone. And its really really damaged." I just chuckled. If only he knew. And some memories flooded back in my mind. From the incident. From how I still have nightmares. How I still can't sleep. How I couldn't prevent it from happening.

I got back to reality by Shawn putting his hand on my shoulder. "Mila? Are you ok?" He wiped the few tears from my cheeks, that I've not noticed. But I nodded. "I'm tired...." He stood up, put the bags and my jacket that were on my bed down and told me to get comfortable in my bed. I stood up and crawled under the blanket. "Will you be ok?" He asked carefully. "If you stay here, yes." I lifted my blanket for him to get in with me. We cuddled sometimes. Just like Lauren and me sometimes. Friends can do that.He carefully put his hands around me and I closed my eyes. trying to sleep.
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After a few hours of sleep I woke up, sweaty. Great. Shawns arms were still loosely around my body and his breath was hitting my neck. I looked at the clock that was next to my bed. 4:38 am. Not again. I just wasn't able to sleep.  I tried to get out of Shawns arms and walked downstairs, where we had a yard with a pool and some deck chairs.
I opened the door and made my way to one of the chairs, looking up at the stars and the moon. If only I could be up there....
I slowly drifted back to sleep with the cold breeze around me, only dressed in a hoodie and shorts, which I had changed into earlier.
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"Cam..... Cami....la" "Yo...... g...t...sick..."
I heard a faint voice and a hand on my back.
I opened my eyes to see a worried Shawn putting a blanket around my body. It was pretty early but not dark outside.
"Hey?..... Camila....how are you feeling?"
I slowly sat back up, only to feel a strong headache, causing me to hold my head.
"I guess your head hurts?"
I nodded. It really hurt. "Come" He held out his hand for me which I gratefully took.
He lead me inside, sat me on the couch and put the blanket around my body. "What were you doing down here ? Its really cold....Why would you sleep out here and only in shorts?"
His voice had a worried and concerned tone, as he put his arms around me. "I couldn't sleep. And I didn't want to wake you up. I came down here to watch the moon... it calms me down... I was feeling really anxious." I whispered the last part. "Mila... no. Wake me up. Always. I will always be there. I would never want to get you sick.... You mean so much to me"
He said softly. I nodded. He then let go of me and went to our kitchen and started making Tea. He's the best best friend....
I kept watching him. He's honestly great.
I would help him if I wouldn't feel so could and have such a strong headache.