Please don't fall (Shawmila)

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Shawn's POV
I quietly entered the bus. I knew Camila had been sleeping. I walked to our place and found Camila sleeping again. She looked like she was in a dee sleep. So I put the food on the table, sat down next to her and turned on my laptop. It was now 2 pm. Two more hours.
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We had arrived. Camila had slept through and was still sleeping. How? We put everything in the carts that would bring our things to the venue and I walked back to wake up Camila.

I shook her shoulder. Nothing. I called her name. Nothing. She must be in a really deep sleep. But I guess she hadn't slept in a few days. So i picked her up bridal style and carried her out to the venue. When I entered I took a separate dressing room and laid her on the couch. The it knocked on the door. Lauren. "How is she?" Oh... now they care. I was still mad. "Okay. She's sleeping." "Still?" Lauren asked surprised. I nodded, looking down towards her. " She's usually a light sleeper. Have you tried waking her up?" Lauren was now getting worried. I nodded. "Try it again." Lauren said. I bent down ad shook er again. When it didn't work she started helping me. Nothing again. "Something is wrong." Lauren said. "Check her pulse." She said again. I rolled up her sleeve, noticing the cuts. So many. Holy shit. Mila.... I put my fingers on her arm, feeling her pulse. It was there. But very low. Shit. I looked at Lauren panicking. "What? Shawn? Is there a pulse?" She asked, now clearly panicking too. "There is, but very low. What is happening?" We need help. Quick. I stood up, leaving the room but Lauren followed. "You stay with her Shawn. I'll get one of the paramedics." I walked back inside caressing Camilas hair, worrying. What is she doing. I didn't know if she did this to herself, on purpose or if it was an accident. But how? I could tell that it wasn't because of her cuts but why then?

A few minutes later Lauren ran back in with two paramedics behind her. They asked us to tell them what we knew and then to leave the room. We stood outside, while the paramedics did some tests on Camila. "We should tell the others what's going on." I said to Lauren. She nodded and took me back to their dressing room. The girls were talking and laughing, clearly not knowing what was going on. When they saw the looks on our face, the became worried too. "Is something wrong?" Ally asked, putting her phone down. "Something is very wrong with Camila. She did not wake up. Her pulse is very low. We have some paramedics in our dressing room to check on her right now." I told them, trying to stay calm. Inside I was panicking. The girls stood up immediately, waking towards the door until Lauren stopped them. "We have to wait, they'll come and get us. They are doing some tests on Camila to know what it happening." We all stayed inside the room, worrying. We had also told our team what was going on and the were deciding what to do next. Would they perform without Camila? Would they perform at all?

After some time it knocked on the door and I went to open it. It was one of the paramedics. " We have news. One of you can come with us." He said. I looked back to the others and they all nodded, signaling that I could go. Be held the door of Camila's dressingroom open for me to get inside. I walked in and saw that they had Camila on a stretcher. "What is going on?" I asked scared. They were about to bring her outside. "We need to take her to the hospital as soon as possible. She swallowed too many sleeping pills. Not enough to kill herself, but enough to put her in a very deep sleep. If we don't pump her stomach her pulse will get weaker with every minute." The paramedic spoke calmly. I had tears in my eyes. "I saw some scars on her arms. I guess this has something to do with it. But I can not be sure. If you or any of the other people here know something please come with us. We need all the information we can get." I nodded. "I know some things. I will come." I spoke quietly, holding back tears. They then led me with them to the ambulance after I told the girls that they would perform without Camila.... again. But my worries weren't about what the girls would say. More about what the fans would think. I know Camila gets a lot of hate and I know it plays a huge role to whats happening with her.

I sat next to her in the ambulance, holding her hand and calling her mother. Poor Sinu. She would get a heart attack. On the phone I tried to stay calm but she could tell I was crying. She stayed surprisingly calm and said she was on her way. Just a month ago she had to fly to Nashville because Camila was in the hospital. That's when I found out that she wasn't doing too well. Now again.

We arrived at the hospital and everything happened really fast. They rushed her to a separate part to pump out her stomach and told me to wait in the waiting room. Since they had to pump out her stomach, I knew it would take some time. Meanwhile I got a call from Lauren

L: "Shawn? What is going on with her?"
S: "It's better if I tell you when we get back okay? Just stay calm. She's going to be ok. She's in surgery right now."

I didn't want them to think too much about this just when they were about to go on stage. But I on the other hand was worried as heck. I knew what was happening to her and I also knew what they were doing right now, but still..... being in the hospital in most cases unfortunately isn't good.

But I could do nothing else in this moment. So I sat in the waiting room.... waiting for my best friend to finally be okay again.... waiting to be able to hold her again.
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This is always so hard to write haha
I wrote this while I had physics class oops and obviously had something on my mind to write a "sad" chapter
but anyways, I hope you enjoyed!

Oh and by the way, it's Corona time.... how are y'all doing? Day 1 in quarantine.... great. I live in Europe and every country closed its boarders so since I live in a small village right on the boarder to another country I am trapped... I don't know what to do in the next 5 weeks.... No school. Today was the last day we had to go skiing and I, of course, took the chance with my friends! Maybe I'll be putting one or two videos of us skiing in the next chapter! Other than that, our village is completely empty, apart from the residents.  I'll probably be writing some chapters for you!! How are you all dealing with this current situation? Let me know!

Stay safe guys <3