Please don't fall (Shawmila)

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Last one for today! Thanks for 20k again and I hope you liked it and are liking the book so far☺️

Camila's POV

"This is beautiful Shawn!" I said full of excitement. He walked over to me, taking my hand in his and leading me a bit more into the forest. There was a huge lake with beautiful blue water. There was a rocky path going around the lake and every now and then there were benches to sit on. It was... a dream. No one was here, even though it was a very sunny august day.

Hand in hand we strolled around the lake. He gave me kisses here and there and we sat down near the water in the grass. "I love you so much" he whispered into my ear before pulling me into his lap. I leaned back, enjoying the scenery with him. It was... perfect and it really made me relax. but not forget. Only one more week until we will be apart... for a very long time. He kissed my neck gently, making me look back to him and giving him kiss on his lips. "Only one more week... " I whispered, turning back around, looking at the lake. "Mila, stop thinking about it. We will make the best out of this week, even it it didn't start.... good." he said gently, putting his hands on my hips. I nodded slightly, putting my hands over his.

(This is the Leake where Shawn took her to! Its actually here where I live and I go there in summer to swim and tan with my friends by bike!)

We stayed there a few hours, walking around the lake and just enjoying each others company. It was getting dark and we decided to walk back to the car. "Are you feeling better, baby?" he asked before starting the car. "A lot, thank you, I love you." said, leaning over to him and kissing him. He smiled back at me, starting the car and making our way back to his condo. The whole drive he had our hands intertwined. The whole time until I got a text. I pulled out my phone and when I saw the message, I wanted to just throw my phone out the window and scream. But Shawn couldn't know about this. so I calmly, or I at least think I was calm, tapped on the message, reading it.

UNKNOWN (Just now): Hey hey hey, Camila. Savor your last moments with Shawnie boy before you two are going back to work. Let's see what will wait for you on tour. Remember last tour? It was great, right? Oh.... social media is going cray- cray!

What a freaking psycho.... I decided to not check social media just now. Shawn just lighted my mood and I was not going to let haters take it away from me this fast. So I quickly put my phone back and of course Shawn had to ask. "Who was it?" "My mom... she just wanted to know how I was and to call her later." I lied, once again. Maybe I should really call her later and tell her about the tour. I actually miss her a lot. He nodded, turning up the volume of the car radio as our favorite song came on. 'Kiss me' by Ed Sheeran. This had always been our song. We connected to it. So we sang along to it as we held hands, driving back home.

When we finally arrived, it was already dark outside. We entered Shawns condo and hanged clothes. Shawn got in the bathroom first while I waited in the bedroom. When he came out, I took my thing and entered to change. I slowly took off Shawns jacket, seeing my arms which didn't have any stitches but were still bandaged. I would be allowed to take the bandages off tomorrow and I was happy. I knew I still had completely scarred arms but the scars would stay forever. I took off my jeans and also my top and stood in front of the mirror in only my underwear. I turned a buts, seeing my fat thighs and my stomach, which had cuts on the side. I just don't like my appearance. And people are always right. Maybe its their opinion that matters.... I mean.... I have to bare with myself, I see myself every day. But those people don't. It's the first impression that matters and obviously my fist impression to other people is.... that I am a fat.... ugly.... selfish girl. It might be true.