Please don't fall (Shawmila)

20

Camila's POV

I suddenly woke up. No one next to me. I opened the curtain and the bright light shone directly to my face. The bus was empty and we were standing. I slowly got up, grabbed my stuff and walked outside, realizing that we had reached our next location. I saw a few security men standing at the entrance of the building so I walked towards them to enter the building to but not without grabbing my small suitcase which had everything I needed. The suitcase was always prepared. I only needed to pack my bathroom things and charger, notebook, small purse and some water. When I was ready I took my suitcase, which seemed to be heavier than usual and slowly walked towards the building with my sunglasses on. I entered and was directly met with Dinah. "Oh, hey you." she said and gave me a small smile, which I couldn't tell was real or fake. I just nodded towards her with a small smile and passed her with my suitcase, entering the dressing room where the others were.

When Lauren saw me she immediately smiled at me and stood up. "Hey Camz. How are you feeling?"  I didn't exactly know how I was feeling but I guess ok so I just gave Lauren a thumbs up and smiled lightly. She rubbed my shoulder reassuringly and pulled my towards a free couch to sit down. We sat there together, I put in my headphones and leaned my head against Laurens shoulder.

After about half an hour someone came inside telling us that we had 5 minutes before soundcheck so we slowly got up, drank some water and prepared our voices. Then we walked toward step stage, got our mics and rehearsed some dances and did the soundcheck.

It actually went very good and the girls didn't throw any comments at me. But I just couldn't feel comfortable around them, knowing that they weren't very happy with me around. I didn't talk, just sang my parts and danced the dances. When we were done we all walked back to the dressing rooms starting to prepare for the concert. This time there luckily wasn't a meet and greet. I felt pretty exhausted so I went and sat down when I was ready with dressing myself. I sat there and watched as the other got ready until I got called for Makeup. So I stood up and to my surprise I couldn't really steady myself so I quickly hold onto the table next to me before anyone could notice. When I was sure I could stand by myself after a few seconds I walked over to the free chair and let them do my makeup.

After about 20 minutes I was done and we still had 40 minutes til' showtime. I didn't know what to do so I plugged in my headphones and quietly listened to music while the others talked. The actually asked me if I wanted to join them but a declined.

Suddenly I got a text.... from 'UNKNOWN'.....

UNKNOWN (just now): Have luck :P It's gonna be awesome... like always Camila.

How will it know? Maybe he...it would be there tonight... I should be prepared for whatever would come tonight.... something bad would happen tonight, I knew it.

I was now time to get on stage. I closed my eyes one last time and hoped for the best. We all walked in hand in hand and started singing our first song while walking up. The crowd cheered and I could do anything but smiled.                                                                                                                       

The first part until now went good and I could but feel relived. Til now nothing happened. We were now at the last few songs. We were singing 'No way' and it was a pretty emotional song.

Lauren started singing the first few lines then Normani started and I made myself ready to start singing. When my verse arrived I started singing:

We ignore
Those with opinions of hate

While singing this line I looked into the crowed and a sign catched my eye. It read " Get rid of Camila Cabello!"

And next to this person was someone else with another sign up "Better off without Camila in the group!!"

I tried to continue singing but all I got out was a stutter.

We're n..- not like t...the rest of them
Fri-...ends with in..insanity as of late...

And I felt the tears burning in my eyes. But luckily my verse was done. I quickly looked down and made sure no one saw the tears I had in my eyes. The girls probably thought that I was crying because it was a very emotional song so they didn't say anything.

Lauren was in the middle of the Chorus when I looked up again into the crowd.

Another sign "Normani, Ally, Dinah and Lauren are perfect!"... I told you that I wasn't perfect. How ironic haha. I just looked down and walked to the side of the stage to sit on the steps in front of the drums which currently weren't playing. The girls didn't seem to mind since they were too much into the song. But then Lauren saw me sitting in front of the drums and made her way towards me with the others. They all sat down besides me and we sang together. I didn't even see another sign at that moment.
As we reached the end of the song we stood up again and turned towards the crowd and there I saw the signs again.

Get rid of Camila Cabello!
Better off without Camila in the group!
Normani, Ally, Dinah and Lauren are perfect!

And that was when I lost it. I couldn't hold my tears in anymore so I let them fall. Lauren somehow heard me sobbing and turned towards me. I had stopped singing by now and was just standing on the stage, looking into the crowd. Lauren followed my gaze and I think she saw the signs to. She immediately stopped singing and poined towards the signs.
„Put them down, Now!" she shouted into the microphone. Ally,Normani and Dinah had catched the signes too and looked angry at the people who were holding the signs.
I was crying even more by now because it had been my fault the song had stopped and the girls couldn't continue singing.
Then everything was fast. Security people kicked the people with the signs out and shortened our second part to only four more songs, because i couldn't continue. They also send me backstage to calm down since I had been hysterycally crying on stage.
The crowd of course got upset but the show continued... without me.

I was sitting in one of the dressing rooms by myself, listening to music. I was trying to not have another panic attack. But it was turning out difficult, since i just couldn't stop crying.  Then i stood up from the couch and started pacing around the room to distract myself but the tears never stopped. My vision was blurry. I couldn't stop thinking about the signs and what was written on them. The words were true. And i knew it.

30 minutes had passed and the girls finally entered the dressing room. I just wanted to go and lay down.
When Lauren saw me, she immediately embraced me, so did the others. I had my head on Laurens shoulder and let my tears fall, while Lauren was saying encouraging thing to me and the other girls saying that nothing that was written ot these signs was true. 
They asked me if I wanted something to eat but I just told them that I wanted to go and lay in my bunk and sleep. They nodded and hurried up with taking off their makeup and getting into some comfortable clothes, which i had aleady done earlier.

Lauren was walking by my side towards the others and we were just talking.
„Camz, I hope you know that none of this was true what they said, Ok?" She told me, just like the others had earlier. I just nodded weakly. „Camila, really. Listen to our opinion, not to theirs. We are your friends and we love you for who you are. Those are just some Fans that only know you from the TV or radio." While saying that she grabbed my hand to give me comfort while my tears still hadn't dried. They were still falling.
„I just want to lay down." I told her quietly. „Do you want me to lay down with you?" She asked. And i nodded, needing somone for comfort.

I was feeling tired immediately so I closed my eyes and almost fell asleep. After a few minutes I felt Lauren leave my side and getting out of my bunk. Since I hadn't fallen fully asleep yet, I could hear their voices from the front part of the bus. So I listened closely because I'm sure they would be talking about the concert.... just like most of the news probably....and its my fault.

Lauren's POV

I left Camila in her bunk to go and talk to the others. When I entered the front part of the bus they were already looking at me.

"How is she? Is she ok?" Ally asked worried. I shook my head slightly. "No." Because she wasn't.

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