Please don't fall (Shawmila)

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Camila's POV

After my small breakdown in my room with Shawn, we decided to pack my things so I could distract myself. He helped me put everything in my bags and entertained me. My mom sometimes asked if we wanted something to eat but I always denied. Shawn luckily did too. Our flight back to Nashville, where the shows were continuing was tomorrow morning, 5am. Lauren would be flying with us but Shawn was sitting next to me. Everyone knew he was coming with us, apart from the fans, and they were all exited. We also rearranged the busses so Shawn would be right in front of my bunk.

After about 45 minutes we had everything we needed and just decided to rest since it was already dark. But of course we first had dinner, which I had thrown up right after without anyone noticing. My mom allowed Shawn to sleep in the same bed as me. She knew we wouldn't do anything and she also knew I needed comfort. So there we were. Sleeping in my bed, waiting for the next day to arrive.
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"Wake up. We're gonna be late for our flight." I heard a gentle voice. Shawn. He was shaking me, trying to wake me up. I sat up, rubbing my eyes and looking at him confused. "It's 3:30am Mila, come on." He threw my blanket away and put my clothes in my hand. I stood up and walked to my bathroom, getting myself ready. We had chosen a flight this early so fans wouldn't be there. Lauren would meet us at the airport.

After some minutes and after checking all my cuts and covering my arms with make up and my sleeves I walked out, where I saw Shawn ready. When he saw me he stood up and walked towards the door. My dad would be driving us to the airport so he was already up, just like Shawn and me. He was waiting downstairs for us.

We tiredly sat down in the back of our car and I fell asleep immediately, leaning my head on Shawns shoulder and putting in my headphones.

Entering the Airport was easy this time, considering it was still very early and no fans were around. When we left the car with our bags, we immediately saw Lauren standing by the entrance. She waved at us and we walked towards her. I didn't really know how to feel seeing her. She didn't even call me....but none of the girls did.... and in my mind I had million reasons why.

Lauren embraced us both and started a conversation as if nothing ever happened. As if I hadn't been admitted to a hospital after cutting my wrists too deep, after her finding out I self harmed. Did she forget? Did she think a trip back home for one month would 'fix' me? Well... that unfortunately wasn't the case. But I just smiled and involved myself in the conversation, while Lauren smoked. A coping mechanism I had been using myself. But not in front of Shawn. He didn't know. Barley anyone knew. Only Lauren. And maybe 'UNKNOWN', who I had forgotten about in the last month I had been home.

Half an hour later we were by our gate, waiting to enter the plane. Since we had first class tickets, we were the first ones to enter. We entered and sat down in the second row. It was a short flight but I was still scared. I always was. But this time I had Shawn next to me. The let me sit on the window and Shawn sat in the middle. He knew how scared I was of flying. So, as soon as the plane started moving he grabbed my hand, never letting go. Not even when the plane was in the sky. I swear I had a small panic attack while the plane took off but the contact to Shawn's hand made me calm down. To avoid the rest of the flight and turbulences, I slept. Today was gonna be a stressful day. We had a show in the evening and had sound checks, practice and everything.

Feeling a tuck on my arm made me wake up. I looked around, noticing we were back in Nashville, where our bus was. We would be driving by bus to out next destination which would be Memphis. After the concert there tonight we will be staying there one night and the drive down to Huntsville. I was really scared of our concert today.

We collected our bags and walked outside where the bus was already ready for us. We rearranged the bus so that Shawn could be on the bunk in front of me, like he had requested. Laurens bunk would be over to the front part of the bunks, where Dinah's, Ally's and Normani's were. I was glad that Shawn could stay near me. We entered and Shawn was surprised by how bug our tourbus was. He had never seen it from inside. I showed him around and the led him to our bunks. We threw our bags into an empty bunk underneath Shawns bunk and sat in the back of the bus, waiting for Dinah, Ally and Normani who hadn't arrived yet. Lauren was outside smoking again but joined us after a couple of minutes, starting a conversation with Shawn which didn't really interest me so I just sat there, concentrating on not falling asleep until the others arrived.

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Shorter one, I'm sorry! Do you want drama in the next chapters?