Please don't fall (Shawmila)

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Camila's POV

The door to the room opened and at first I thought it were the girls... but it was the waitress with my juice. She set it down in front of me and I thanked her and payed. I took a sip and then took out my phone and I had a message from Shawn. 'I love you.' was all it said and I smiled and replied with an 'I love you, too'. I sat my phone down on the table and in the same moment, the door opened again, and in came... the four girls. "Hey" Ally smiled and sat down. The others also greeted me with a simple 'hi' and sat down. They already had their drinks in their hands. 

"So, about the mini tour..." Lauren started. Ally pulled out a few papers with notes and showed them to me as Dinah started to explain. "So you see here.... we ned a set- list with at least 7 songs... we already wrote 3 songs but still need the last 4." Dinah explained. "Here." Normani said, putting another paper in front of me on the table. "These are the songs we already wrote" She said as she pointed at the three songs. They were called 'Down', 'Angel' and 'Make you mad'. "These are the lyrics right here..." Normani pointed at the bottom of the paper where lyrics to each song was written down. The songs were... interesting.... but nothing I would write and sing myself. The songs just didn't feel like... me. But whatever. "Okay... I think they are pretty cool." I said unsure, not wanting to disappoint them. "We will have to get into the studio together, record the songs, plan the show and start organizing the bus and everything." Lauren said. "Well... they want us all together in New York.... next week on Saturday...." Lauren said. What the heck. This is pretty soon... but it wouldn't mess up my doctors appointments. "Alright..." "During the week we can discuss the times for the flights and book an apartment for the time we will be there... thats what out management wants us to do... and I know Camila, you have your own apartment in New York.... but they just want us to stay together until going on tour. We are going to be done with tour until New Year though." Lauren explained. She had all the notes from our management and was summing them up for me. "okay.. that sounds good." Was all I said. It was a lot to take in. "And Camila... please don't do anything stupid while on tour." Dinah warned me. I knew what she meant. I nodded, looking at my drink and taking a few sips. 

We talked for a little more, they talked a little and I listened. Just like old times... I could sense that they had grown closer over the last month on tour without me or the time I had Shawn with me. "Oh and Camila? When were you going to tell us that you and Shawn were together?" I looked surprised by that question. "Wha... what?" I acted even more surprised. I haven't told anyone about us apart from both our parents. "It was everywhere on the news... pictures paparazzis took with the caption 'Are Camila Cabello and Shawn Mendes dating?' so yeah... tell us." "I... we...  well it obviously is no secret that we get along pretty good..." I started with a small but nervous chuckle. I don't know how they would react. "But.... we are just really, really good friends." I finally lied. "Oh... okay, the news are pretty good at spreading fake news." Normani finally laughed. Everyone laughed then and I let out another nervous laugh. 

"See you in two weeks then" Dinah said as everyone embraced me. "Yeah, see you then" I smiled at them, waving and walking back into the smoking area when they were out of sight. The room was empty too, perfect. I lit the second cigarette of the day and it relaxed me once again. The smoke in my lungs calmed every nerve in me. I took my time and when I was done, I once again sprayed myself with tons of perfume and called Shawn, telling him that I was done with the meeting. He said he would be here in 5 minutes so I walked to the front of the cafe, a bit to the side where not everyone could see me and waited for Shawn. 

"How was it baby?" HE asked when I entered the car and placing a kiss on my lips, which I broke quickly, since I wasn't sure if he could taste the smoke in my mouth. "Exhausting." I said as I let out a sight, falling back into the car seat. I saw Shawn nod from the side of my eye. I don't know why, but I got so tired as soon as I entered the car so I leaned my head against the warm air window and closed my eyes, falling asleep. But only after a few seconds I was shook awake by the car braking hard. I quickly opened my eyes, and looked at Shawn, who was shocked and looked at the road. I too looked at the road, seeing that we were in the middle of the road. It was no car crash.... nothing was damaged... no one was hurt, so I didn't know what had happened since I had been asleep only seconds ago. Cars were honking and Shawn was still gripping the steering wheel with both of his hands, looking shocked at the road. "Shawn.... babe...." I said, trying to get him to focus again. "Y- ye- yeah.... wait shit.... I'm so sorry.... shit.... no...."  he quickly snapped out of his shock and quickly put the car back to work again. He quickly drove again and I could feel tension in the air. Luckily we weren't far from home so it only took us 3 minutes to get back to Shawns condo. We parked the car and sat still in the car. "What happened?... " I finally asked after a few minutes of silence. "I-I...There..... a...-" "Stop... babe, its okay... lets just go inside and calm down first alright?" he nodded quietly and I leaned in, pressing a kiss on his lips and then opening my door as Shawn did the same. There were a few paparazzis, walking behind us and following us to the entrance. I know I couldn't hold Shawns hand... I didn't want pictures of us holding hands all around the internet. 

"Come." I said to Shawn when we were alone in the elevator. I pulled him into my arms and held hi close. Now it was my time to take care of his for a bit. He was in shock, still. He put his arms around me and his chin on top of my head. I kissed his chest and pulled away when the elevator door opened, signaling that we were finally at the right floor. He walked in front of me, opening the door to his condo and closing it again when I was inside. We walked both to the bedroom, sitting next to each other. He reached fo my hand, intertwining our fingers as I sat closer to him. "Wanna take a bath?" He asked quietly. "I know you are pretty exhausted.... and honestly.... I'm till shaken up..." he admitted. "Yeah..." I said, kissing him and pulling him up with me. We both grabbed our clothes and new towels, setting them down onto the counter. 

Shawn let the warm water fill the tub while we decided on a bathing oil to put into the tub. "Here... I have theses.... I actually never really got to use them.... but I think we should..." Shawn said, pulling out a box with different colored bathing oils, each with different effects. I looked through the oils, pulling out a dark blue one. "This?" he took it and read fro what it was. 'Stress release' was what stood on the glass bottle. "Yeah, amazing:" he said as he put a few drops into the filling tub. He also added some bubbles and let the rest of the water fill the tub. We got undressed and did everything like last time. I got in first and then he behind me, but this time with less problems. It felt natural already, even though it was only the second time bathing together. And as soon as I felt Shawn behind me, I felt relaxed. I turned my head back to him, giving him a meaningful kiss and letting myself fall into his big arms. We intertwined our fingers and just... savored the moment. 

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Sweet, sweeter, sweetener but kind of boring...

Decided on updating this book because I have written a few chapters!

And I also already planned an ending! But when this book ends, I already have a few more planned! But it's still going on for probably at least 20 chapters hahah so no need to worry!

Oh and I finally can open Wattpad normally again! I had to delete it from my phone and download it again and on my laptop it was just a whole confusion but I did it, yay!