Please don't fall (Shawmila)

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Camila's POV

My eyes fluttered open and it took me some time to realize where I was. Right, my bunk. My Laptop was on my lap and my head was leaning agains the wall of my bunk. Laurens head was leaning against my shoulder, her eyes closed. The screen of my Laptop was black, the movie had ended and I fell asleep during the movie. I could still hear the other girls talking and laughing outside. What time was it? I took my phone and checked the time. 1:13 AM. It isn't that late to be honest. I usually stay awake until the sunlight is slightly shining through the bus windows, thats usually 5 or 6 in the morning. 

I looked down at Lauren. She had a small smile spread across her face. I wonder what she was thinking about before she fell asleep and kinda hoped it was me she was thinking about. My neck hurt but I couldn't move, otherwise I would wake up Lauren, and thats's the least I want at the moment. So I just kept the same position, my eyes open. I could still listen the faint conversations of the girls. It didn't bother me though. I took my phone and was about to open Instagram until I heard my name coming out of one of the girls mouths. So I listened to their conversation.

"...yeah, Camila." Normani. "Yep...we should really think about something haha" Ally said. Then something was being whispered and I heard them all laughing. What are thy talking about? it's clearly something about me. Then again. "She just can't shut up sometimes...","agreed" Then it was quiet. I heard them standing up and making their way through the corridor to their bunks I guess. "Where's Lauren?" I heard Normani ask."Isn't she in her bunk?" Dinah asked. I think Normani shook her head because Dinah didn't asked anything else. "Why is she doing this to herself? With such an loud and annoying thing haha" I don't really know what they're talking about now so I shrugged it off. "Good night." ,"night", "good night".I heard their blankets shuffle in their bunks and the lights went out and everything was quiet from then.

They all fell asleep really fast because when I reached out over Lauren to push the curtains to the side and a bottle of water fell from the top bunk to the floor, no one even made a noise. So I assumed they were all asleep. 'I'm sorry Lauren' is all I thought, before slowly lifting up her head, leaning it on the wall and crawling out of the bunk with my notebook. Lauren didn't wake up during the process, which I'm glad about.

I quietly walked through the Bus corridor to the back of the bus with only my phone, my notebook and my headphones. I opened the doors, entered the room and closed the again after turning the lights on. It was calm back here. I sat on the couch, grabbed one of the blankets and took my notebook out of my hoodie pocket. It was a black hoodie with a giant heart on the back. It was slightly to big but I like it like that.  I sat there, the sad music filling my ears and my thoughts being written down into my small notebook while a few tears made their way down my face before dropping onto the paper.

I didn't really realize how long I was back here until I noticed a light beam hitting my face. 6:26 AM. I was awake for quite a long time. I looked down to my notebook. 7 pages were full by now. You could notice some Tear drops on the pages. They had dried so all you could see was a light wave on the paper and the color of the pen slightly blurred. The playlist I was listening to had ended by now so I sat there in silence, waiting for someone to wake up. 

I just waited another hour before making my way to the small bathroom. I took my Phone and everything I had brought with me and walked to the front where the bathroom was. I placed my things on the counter, entered the small room and locked the door. The first thing I was greeted with, was the reflection of my face in the mirror. I looked horrible. I had huge bags under my eyes from the lack of sleep I had in the last 2 months and my skin was pale. My usually brown eyes looked almost black. I still had tear stains on my face and my mascara was running down my face. I guess I forgot to wash my make up off yesterday. Great. I literally looked like a Panda, a tired and kinda sad panda. So the first thing I did was cleaning myself up and make me look normal again.

After I looked halfway alive again, I walked out the bathroom and I could hear blankets shuffling in one of the bunks. I kinda hoped it was Lauren but when I reached the room with the bunks I was greeted by Dinah who was getting out of her bunk, probably to get herself ready. Well not exactly greeted, greeted with a strange look. I just walked past her and hoped that Lauren was awake. Otherwise I would have to get into her bunk to not wake her up and I really feel uncomfortable being in bunks or rooms of others without them being there. 

I slowly opened the curtain of my bunk and looked inside. Lauren sat there, still sleeping. I sight turn around and got into her bunk. I hope she won't mind. I got in and my myself comfortable in there before I closed my eyes and tried to sleep.

My sleep didn't last long though, because just before I was about to finally fall asleep, someone ripped open the curtains. "Wait, what are you doing in here?" Dinah frowned. I just looked down in embarrassment. She made a simple question sound so dumb. She made me feel dumb. When she didn't get an answer she just closed the curtains and walked away. Leaving me there, with a sad face in Laurens bunk. The only bunk that made me almost fall asleep. Was it Lauren's scent or was it her warmth? I don't know. But it made me feel a bit better.

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Sorry for mistakes but like I said, my main language is not English.