Please don't fall (Shawmila)

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At 10K I'm gonna post a super long chapter! (If I have time to write it) otherwise I will just upload 3 chapters on that day ✌🏻 Hope to reach 10k soon and I hope you are as exited as I am ❤️

Camila's POV

I woke up in the middle of the night. Again. I felt nauseous. The doctor had told me that this would occasionally happen. It would sometimes happen because of the food and the medicine I'm taking but even before my 'accident' I had those little nauseous feelings because of stress or anxiety. But it hadn't happened for a few weeks now, apart from me doing it on purpose or being... drunk. I jumped out of bed and into the bathroom, pushing the door shut and falling on my knees in front of the toilet. It hurt like hell in my throat and I couldn't hold in the tears. My throat was still extremely soar and everything going out through it.... hurt. Hurt really bad. I really hoped Shawn wouldn't wake up because of it. But it seemed like Shawn had an instinct for when I wasn't near him. The door shot open and Shawn stood there, worried. He kneeled down next to me and hold my hair back, like he had done many times before. "Shit, Mila." Was everything he said before walking to the sink, wetting a towel and putting it on my neck, since I was sweating horribly. I don't know why but I had been sweating the whole night. He wiped the sweat of my forehead and wiped my tears from my cheek before sitting back down next to me and holding back my hair.

After feeling a little better, which took some time, he gave me a cup of water and some pain medicine. We didn't stand up immediately since I didn't feel like I could but when it started getting uncomfortable, he helped me up. But I couldn't really stand so Shawn picked me up bridal style and carried me out to the bed again. "I'll bring you some tea okay? And maybe we should check your temperature. You feel pretty hot and I felt you trembling during the night." He said. I just nodded and waited for him. We were flying back home today at 3 pm and we had our bags done already. I couldn't wait to finally get to Shawns condo and just spend time with him where no one could do or say anything.

Shawn entered a few minutes later with a cup of tea in one hand and a thermometer in the other. He sat down by my side and gave me the tea before measuring my temperature. We waited a bit until it made the tone that it was ready and he looked at the display. "101,48 F (38,6 C) Mila... you have a fever." He said, putting his hand on my forehead, sighting. Great. Thats just what I needed on top of everything that had been going on. Another tear escaped my eye but I wiped it away quickly. Shawn kissed my cheek and laid down next to me. "Mila, come here." HE said, opening his arms once again for me to get in. I leaned closer to him as he pulled the covers over both of us. It was pretty comfortable for a few minutes but it immediately became way too hot for me so I threw the covers away from my body. Shawn understood and pulled the covers away from my body, only covering me with is arm which was enough for the moment. But only a few minutes later it became too cold again. So cold, I started shaking. So Shawn pulled the covers over my body again. I started sweating again, still feeling cold, and pulled away from him to not get him full of sweat but he didn't let me. He pulled me back in, signaling that it was okay for him. And so it was for the rest of the night. It was too cold, then it was too warm again. And I didn't get a minute of sleep but neither did Shawn.... and it was my fault again...

Waking up the next day wasn't too hard since I had already been awake... the whole night, again. Shawn had found sleep some time at night, thank god. He was already up, preparing both of out things. I was still laying in be, sipping tea to hopefully get better during the day. We have to check out within the next hour so I began standing up slowly, but it gave me a huge feeling of dizziness which caused me to pull my hand to my head. "Hey, hey.... be careful." Shawn said, immediately coming to my side and helping me sit up. He gave me a kiss and pushed me up on my feet, holding me if I needed support. I did so he lead me to my bag where I had prepared my clothes for today, I had decided on wearing a black leggings and a white hoodie which was huge on me since it was Shawns. I changed clothes in the bathroom, without looking at myself in the mirror and getting out again when I was done with everything. "Aww, you look so cute Mila!" Shawn exclaimed when I walked out of the bathroom. He embraced me immediately and put his hand on my forehead to check my temperature. "You still feel pretty warm." He said. I just nodded against his chest. I wasn't feeling great either. We stood there until it knocked on the door. Shawn let me go and he went to see who was at the door. Just by the voice I could tell it was my mom, probably bringing breakfast.

"Are you guys ready?" My mom asked, entering with plates on her hand. "We are Sinu, come, let's eat something before heading out of the hotel." Shawn said as he walked us to the balcony. We sat down in silence, my mom pulling out the table again where it had all my calories listed. She compared her lost with Shawns since he had another for when I was with him. She nodded when she wrote the missing days down and gave me my food and a glass of water with my medicine. My mom and Shawn had a light conversation in which I couldn't participate so I just ate. "Mila has fever since last night." Shawn then told my mom. "Mija.... how are you feeling? Are you feeling amu better?" My mom asked. I shrugged. "We took her temperature last night.... she woke up because she had to throw up, probably because of all the food she ate and her soar throat." I nodded. I wasn't really able too eat the mashed food I had on my plate because my throat hurt so bad, again. My mom understood but tried to get me to eat as much as I could. After a few minutes of just sitting at the table I heard my phone ding from inside. I looked at my mom, who didn't seem to mind and slowly stood up since I was not feeling too well. I searched for my phone which was laying on my bed and looked at the screen. 'UNKNOWN'. Fuck. I didn't want to read the message but..... I didn't want to not read it either. So I tapped on the notification.

UNKNOWN (just now): And? Coming home today? I hope you didnt gain weight ;)

I did gain weight... a lot. But right now I couldn't do anything about it. I locked my phone again and just sat on Shawn's bedside. No tears were streaming down my face but I felt anxiety rising up in my stomach but it quickly disappeared when my mom and Shawn entered with the half empty plates. "Are you feeling okay?" My mom asked. I nodded weakly. Lies. I wasn't feeling good at all. I felt the fever coming back again and I think my mom saw the sweat on my forehead and pulled out the thermometer from the bathroom. "Let me check" Se said, checking my temperature while Shawn made the last preparations before we would leave. "101,48 F (38,6 C). How much was it when you last checked?" my mom asked worried, looking at Shawn. He walked over to us and looked at the display. "The same." He said. "So it did not get any better.... maybe she should come home with me." My mom said. I wanted to tell her no but I wasn't able to talk. So I shook my head forcefully, causing my headache to come back. "Mija, are you sure?" she said, putting her hand on my head. I nodded. I felt like a baby. Everyone was taking care of me. "Sinu, I promise I will take her to the doctor if it won't get better." Shawn assured my mom. She looked between Shawn and I. "Okay.... I trust Shawn. Mila please.... watch your health. I need you healthy. Always. I love you so much." My mom said, kissing my cheek and embracing Shawn. She then walked out, saying to meet her downstairs in 20 minutes. We agreed and let my mom walk outside.

When we were done, Shawn gave me another kiss and the took my suitcase and his and walked towards the elevator. I wanted to take mine but he said since I wasn't too good that he wanted to take it. The elevator ride was silent since I STILL couldn't talk and to clear the silence in the car, I put in my headphones. Not only so it wouldn't be so quiet but to stop dumb thoughts from coming into my head. The ride to the airport was about one hour and the whole ride, Shawn held my hand. Thank you for being with me Shawn.
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