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Part 11: alone

Adriana:

Keegan overslept this morning and now we were late for school. It's not my reputation and I hate being late because everyone looks at you weirdly when you walk into the already full class.
Wondering why you're late, what you did or where you've been.

It didn't surprise me though when we arrived at the same time as Shawn at school. Except he's always late on purpose.
Every time.

The lesson I had with him wasn't at all that bad, I have to admit it. He changes when he's alone and I saw a glimpse of a side from him that I never though he had.
I guess people can truly surprise you once you get to know them or just get them alone. But we all judge and think about things way too quickly.

During lunch time Liam, Mariana and I all went outside to eat lunch. The cafeteria was way too full and the atmosphere outside was just better. Calimg, relaxing and out of sight.

"So is that douche coming over to your house again or is that only on Tuesday's and Thursday's thing that you keep with him?" Liam asked as he looked over to me. "No, I uhm... I actually told him he can come any day last time I saw him." I said nervously and hesitantly, afraid of their reactions. Both his and Mariana's eyes grew big as they looked at me.
"Adriana! Are you even thinking straight? You're actually opening up your home and life to a complete psychopath, a stranger who could be a serial killer! He'll chop you up and dump you in the neighbors bin!" Liam freaked out.
"Guys he's really not that bad when you have him alone. Yeah he's a tool but something about his is sad. He's distracted. And I bet he won't chop me up... cause I'll do it first." By the expression on their faces, I already knew they don't know what I mean by he's distracted.
And clearly my joke didn't make them crack up either.

But it's true.

There's a reason behind it all, there's a reason why he's the way he is or why he acts the way he acts. Am I the only one who thought about that, or am I the only one who really care that little to just think a bit deeper? It's sad how the world leaves you when you change the slightest bit. I think the world left him.
But I can see that he wasn't a bad person before the one he is now. I just want to know what happened.

"Don't worry about me you guys. It's fine." I said, standing up as the bell rang. I gave them both a hug, but Liam held on a little while longer. "Just be safe okay. I'll see you later this afternoon." I pecked his cheek before we all walked in.

Now I have math.

I was standing outside with a classmate when I saw the silhouette of the all so known Shawn. Looking up and down the hall before walking out the door. "Hey, I'll be right back." I said, knowing I'll probably not come back if Liam was right and he really is a serial killer.
Why am I running after him?

I looked outside as I pushed the door open, seeing him sitting down on the bleachers as he looked down at his hands. "Hey. You have school you know." I chuckled as I walked up to him. "No. You have school, what are you even doing out here?" He asked blankly.

For some reason his normal voice tone now sounds more like a call for help, a sad cry.

"Well I saw you walking out and I, well I don't know why but I just followed you." His eyebrows furrowed together, "So you're stalking me now." "Keep dreaming." The smirk on his face never fading away but he scooted over to make a seat for me.
This is all new to me, especially coming from him.

"I know this will probably end up in an argument or you being rude to me but it doesn't hurt to ask so... are you okay? Why are you out here alone?" I asked as I sat down next to him, keeping a small distance between the two of us because I still don't know the guy. "Sometimes I want to be alone." My eyes grew big in surprise, "Is it really that hard to believe?" He actually means it.
He wants to be alone, yet now I'm here feeling like I've invaded space. But he made seat for me... does he want me to be here?

This guy is deep, it's a glimpse of a side I'm seeing... clearly one he doesn't show often, or well, ever. Full of surprises.

He's like a onion with layers. Like Shrek you know... wait, I can't really compare him to an ogre right? He's way too good looking.
   But something about him is off, and I deeply want to know what it is. But yet, at the same time... I don't.