Changing | SM

Part 87: boyfriend

Adriana:

He drove Home.
Our home.

When we arrived there I just got out, walking around to the back, sitting down by the lake. "Adriana."
"Shawn please I-"
"No!" I looked up at him as he raised his voice. "You need to talk to me! Why do I feel like with every day I'm losing you more? Why are you being so distant?" He started crying.

This is all my fault.
I held my hand out to him, wanting him to come sit down next to me. He took my hand in his and sat down down next to me on the stump. "Please talk to me." He begged. I rested my head on his shoulder, intertwining my fingers with his.

"Everyone had been telling me that we have too different lives." I sighed, "So much that I'm starting to believe it." As I looked up at him I saw the broken expression on his face. "So what exactly are you saying? Do you not want to be with me anymore?" I closed my eyes as I tried to keep the tears away.
"I know I can't manipulate you like this but I gave every last bit of me to you. And you make me feel alive, but when you're not happy, I'm not happy. So I need you to be happy. And if that is leaving what we have..." he broke down. Shaking as he sobbed. "Then that's probably okay." He croaked out.

"No. That's not entirely what I want Shawn." "Then tell me what you want!" I stood up, crouching down in front of him and resting my arms on his knees.
I never saw someone so fragile over me.
It makes me sad that I'm breaking his heart now, but he doesn't even know what I want, what I need.

"I want to be with you." I smiled as some tears fell down my cheeks.
"Everyone always told me that I can't do anything, I can't be who I want to be or do what I want to do. But this time I seriously want to prove them wrong." I cupped his cheek as I stood up. He pulled me closer to him, pulling me on to his lap as he wrapped his arms around me.

"What do you want to prove wrong? About us?" I nodded. "I want to show people that we can be together, no matter how far apart our worlds and stories are. I love you Shawn, and I'm not going to throw away what we have over some people not agreeing with us being us. I know I questioned and doubted this for a while but maybe that was still just the confusion and emotions from almost losing you with the accident. Please don't leave, I don't want to lose you. I know I'm messed up bu-"
"You're not messed up darling, and I'm not going anywhere." He just planted a kiss on my cheek before letting me get up, and he walked off.

"Shawn?" I questioned but he just walked. Maybe he needs a breather?

I jogged up after him, walking through the back door to the front, seeing him standing on the porch.

"Shawn? What are you doing?" I saw him lookig out over the view of the lake. Seeing the sunset in the horizon. Our home is finished and everything is perfect. I walked up to him, wrapping my arms around him.
"Just mesmerized by the view. I'm lucky to get to see this again, to wake up next to you and love you. I'm lucky to live." He turned around in my arms, wrapping his around me. "I'm so glad you're okay." I rested my head on his chest, feeling him kissing my throne as he only held me tighter.
"I promised you Adriana. I'll never leave you."

I stepped back, a big smile on my face.

"I dreamt this. When you were in the hospital I had this vision and this is it. I knew we'd be okay. I knew you'd be okay. That's why I never left and.." I ran my hands through my hair as I smiled.

"Oh my god. Okay this is all so confusing now, I know but, Shawn..." I took his hands in mine. "Forget about everything and everyone saying shit about us. I want to be with you and I know you want that too."
"More than you know." He smirked at me, pulling me closer.
"I know this is a daring move but," I took a deep breath. "Will you be mine? As in, be my boyfriend?" I asked, hesitating a bit but I knew this is what I wanted.

Out of all the confusion I know this for sure. His smile faded, looking at me with big eyes. "What? What's wrong?"
"Nothing, it's just... I thought I already was." I laughed, seeing the smile returning to his face. "I love you Adriana. And where you are now is where you belong, it's where I belong." I nodded, cupping his cheeks before crashing my lips to his.
"Oh and thanks for driving me crazy with your confusion. This was by far the most challenging talk we ever had."
"I'm sorry. I was caught up in a lot of things."

His smile reassured me that he'll always be there and that no matter what, he'll love me forever.
We've been through so many ups and downs, tough times and total hell... but through it all we sticked together and we stayed in love.

It's rare for something like this to work, but we'll prove the doubters wrong.

Our love, is so much more strong.