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Part 79: the last day

Adriana:

💞next morning💞

"Adriana. Adriana."
"No, let her sleep Manny, it's the first time in days."

What a way to let me sleep.
Now I'm awake.

My eyes slowly fluttered open and I looked around the room, seeing the smile on Karen's face and the small smirk on Aaliyah's. Then I remembered that I lied down with Shawn last night, but that was the only way I'd get some sleep.
To just be near him.
God, I miss him.

"Morning." Manny chuckled as I stood up. "I'm taking you home today Adriana." Karen said, picking up my bag that was now already packed.
I didn't fight with her, I knew it'll only be pointless to fight against it. And it wouldn't be that bad to get home again... but home, home.
I want to go to our place.
"Okay." I said weakly, walking with her to her car after saying goodbye to the family and Shawn.

I probably fell asleep in the car again because when Karen woke me up... I was home. I mesmerized the view of our home, seeing it a bit changed from the outside.
"Get some rest, and stay calm okay. Shawn will be okay." She kissed my cheek as I gave her a hug. "Thank you Mrs Mendes. I really appreciate you guys helping me out."
I felt like tearing up, but that's because they mean a lot to me and the emotions are still all so overwhelming.
"Anything to help Adriana. You're family." I gave her one more hug before getting out, grabbing my bag and walking up to the house.

I waved goodbye from the front porch before getting my key out. I one night went to Shawn after we separated, to see him. He was asleep on the couch in the living room and I saw my key on the table.
So I took it again.
I don't know if he realized it was gone or not, but that doesn't matter.

Home will always be home.

I opened the door, "Oh my god." I gasped as I saw the house. He finished it. He totally finished revamping the house.

I dropped my bag by the door as I walked through the house. The living room done, the dining room done... "Oh my god." I broke down, clamping my hand over my mouth as I walked in to the kitchen.

He painted the walls yellow.
Just like I dreamed it would've been, but he didn't like it.
He did that all for me.

"This is what you wanted to show me that night." I sat down on the floor of the kitchen, just looking around. After a while of taking everything in, I stood up, walking to our room. It was strange though, I saw the mattress on the floor.
He never slept in the bed since I left.

"You, Mendes, are the love of my life." It's a good feeling to know that he never slept in our bed, while I'm not there. But he really could've slept in our bed. I lied down on the mattress, smelling his cologne in the linen. I held on to the pillow, hugging it for life and death as I sniffed.

I ran out of tears, they had all dried up... but my heart was still aching and my hands were still shaking.
And that's where I fell asleep.

Just not with him, but wishing I was.

💞Shawn:

I could hear her leaving and felt my heart aching by the second of her being gone. Lord only knows how I survived the time of us being apart.

When I cannot even handle this.. and I'm practically a vegetable... how will I ever be able to survive when something happens to her?

"Mr and Mrs Mendes, I'm afraid that if Shawn doesn't wake up today..." just by the dramatic pause I could already hear my mum starting to sniff again and my dad sighing hard with a crack in his voice as he started crying.

"We'll have to call it." He finished his sentence. For gods sake, I need to open my eyes. This is not my time yet, I can't go already.

I just got the head start in kicking life's ass, it can't get back at me that easily.
And what about Adriana?

She can't experience this all over again.

Not a chance.