Changing | SM

Part 78: dead or survivor

Adriana:

Karen and I walked back inside and sat down by his bed for a while. Aaliyah was sitting down on the bed next to him, just staring down at him.

"I need him to open his eyes." She suddenly said, breaking down again. Manny took her in his arms, trying to get her to calm down but I guess it's just all too much at this moment.

We all fear for what will happen, it's only a few more days before the doctors call him dead or a survivor.

"We need to get back home." He whispered after a while, still giving Aaliyah a shoulder to cry on. "I'll come by tomorrow to check on you." Karen said, giving me a kiss on the head.

She's a great mum.
If only she was my own as well.

"Thank you." I said softly to her as I gave her a hug, greeting the rest as well before they left.

The room was silent now, not that it was any busy or full of smiles and laughter at any time before.
"Goodnight baby. I'll see you in the morning." I kissed his cheek, unable to kiss his lips because of the pipe going down his throat.
I stayed there for a while, just looking at him but then I missed his touch, his smile, laugh, his eyes.

The eyes are the only part of a human that never changes, so if you fall in love with someone's eyes... then you're in love with them forever.
And I love his eyes, but I miss them.

The more I look at him, the more I miss him. So I got up, lied down next to him and just rested my head on his chest.
I can still hear his heart beating, that's good. I closed my eyes, feeling my tear sliding down my cheek before I drifted off to sleep.

💞Shawn:

I could feel it, I felt the pain in my heart when I heard, for the first time after the crash, people crying.
It was Aaliyah.
God, if I can just wake up and see her, show her that I'm okay. But my eyes still just refuse to open and I can't get my lungs to breathe.

The room went empty again, but I felt Adriana's presence. I want to talk to her, kiss her and see her again.
When will I wake up?

I forgot why we broke up, and I hope we'll make up. I'm scared about this, the way I'm starting to forget things.
I just need to remember her name.
God please don't take my precious memories of her.

I felt her laying down next to me, and I wanted to wrap my arms around her so badly.
Hold her.

"I love you Mendes. Please don't leave me... you promised." She whispered and I could feel tears building up behind my closed eyes. Her hand was caressing my cheek before she pecked my cheek again, resting down on my chest and hopefully drifting off to sleep.

I see myself from the outside, like my soul is watching me die.
I can walk around the hospital, flash back home to my parents and sister, give her a good night kiss and a hug. Lying down with her for a moment to wipe away her tears as she cries in her sleep.
Then I'm back at the hospital, seeing Adriana never leaving my side. But also, never resting.

She needs to sleep.
She needs to regain her energy.

"Baby, you need to sleep." I said but she can't hear.

Or so I think.

"Shawn?" I saw her eyebrows furrowing together as she sat up. "Can you hear me?" She looked around the room. "Baby, I'm right in front of you." I cupped her cheeks, but she kept on looking around the room.

"Probably just my imagination." I sighed as she lied back down.
"No it's not." I kissed her cheek, sitting down and looking at her as she drifts off to sleep on my chest.
My body.

I need to wake up.