Changing | SM

Part 107: ring

Shawn:

I knew at some time she'll leave it to me to make a decision about what I want to do and if I even want to spend my future, the rest of my life, with her.
I just want to wake up with her, that's everything I need. I can't imagine it without her in the future, and the thought of her actually being able to move on from me, find new love, falling in love and be happy or even happier with someone else... that scares me.

I don't want that.
Even though all I want for her is to be happy. I know she deserves so much more than what I can give her and what I can promise her, she deserves someone who can make her happy all the time.

She deserves better than me.

But yet, that's not what she wants. She still sticks with me, she still just wants me to be with her. She wants me in her life, no matter how much trouble I actually cause her.
I'm still the person she knew I was. Even though she changed me, I'm still that person. I may just have a different perspective on things and my life is totally different, but my past will always stay the same.

I can't change the start, but I write my own end. And I'm not letting it just fade in to oblivion. I went home after Adriana's dad picked her up from the hospital, but as I arrived I saw his car parked up in front of the cabin.
Our house.

"Mr. Kendrick?"
"Shawn." He shook my hand, looking at me with calming eyes. "Adriana doesn't know I'm here, but don't tell her as well." I nodded, putting my hands in my pockets as my eyebrows slowly furrowed together, "What is this about?" He smiled faintly up at me.
"I want to help you."
"With what Sir, if I may ask?" His smile grew, more serious, more devilish. "Come with me." He walked over to his car, getting in and waiting patiently for me to get in as well.

I didn't fight it.
I know the only way for me to know what he wants to help me with, is to see where he's taking me. Or even what it is he claims he can help me with. I didn't even knew I had a problem worth helping for. He drove off, heading towards the mall.

"Sir?"
"Trust me."

After he parked the car, we walked in. Or well, it was more of a follow the leader game because everywhere he walked and turned, I did the same. All up until... we ended up at a jewelry store. "First off I want to say that I know this is really early, but if you can just put a ring on it it'll be better. Even if you postpone it for years." He smiled, speaking quickly before walking in.

"Wait what! A proposal? Mr. Kendrick, I don't even know if Adriana wants to marry me?" He furiously turned around, but he wasn't furious at all. "She will most definitely. She can't stop talking about it my boy, all she talks about if how she'll marry you one day. She's making plans already and to be deadly honest, it's driving me crazy man." I felt butterflies fluttering around in my tummy as my cheeks started burning.

Feeling the tingling feelings all over my body of sweetness and joy. "Seriously?"
"Honestly." He turned back to the case as he looked over the rings but I turned around and walked out, tears filling my eyes as I approached the balcony of the mall, looking out over the parking lot.
"What about this o- Shawn? Shawn!" I heard his footsteps running after me as I rested my elbows on the railing, closing my eyes and smiling faintly as a tear draw from my eye.

"What's wrong?" He stood beside me, looking at me with big eyes. I smiled, "I don't deserve someone like her." He chuckled, patting my back like a proud father. "If I'm honest with you Shawn, I never thought that my little girl would ever even fall in love with someone like you, no offence." I laughed, "But she has a big heart, always wanted to change people and make them happy. I'm happy she did that for you. And I never thought I'll even be here myself, standing with you here about to look at some rings, but I wouldn't have anyone other than you to marry my daughter." He smiled at me as he placed his hand on my shoulder.

"Thank you Sir." I smiled before we walked back over to the store, looking around for what Adriana will love. She always talked about how the smallest and most simplist thing can make her the happiest.
Like I said, I cannot give her much, but I gave her all of me. And I want her to keep it, even if

I can put a small ring on her, make her mine. Life is complete with her.... and my baby girl.