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Part 103: pregnant?

Shawn:

My mum and Adriana left without a trace, without a reason. I don't know if it was serious or not, but I know they'll come home.
And it was long after, when I saw the car pulling up.

Most of the guests already left and only my dad, sister and few friends remained. I smiled as I saw them walking up in to the house. But my smile faded when I saw Adriana's eyes a bit puffy and red. She had a smile though, and my mum's smile was even bigger.

"Baby?" I questioned as I stood up, walking to her. "I can't do this." She whispered as she turned to my mum. "He needs to know Adriana." But she shook her head as tears filled her eyes again. "I'm afraid." My mum turns her around and slightly pushed her towards me.

The room went quiet as they watched us.

"Darling, what's the matter?" She stuttered, not getting a single word out and her eyes still filled up with tears. "I can't." She ran outside. I turned to look at my friends and family, big eyes staring back at me. "Go!" Aaliyah yelled and I immediately turned to rush after her.

"Adriana!" I yelled her name, seeing her silhouette standing by the lake. Shaking as she sobs. "Hey hey hey. What's the matter? Why are you so upset?" I wrapped my arms around her, feeling her body shaking as she cries. She hid her face in my chest, still not saying a word. "I'm just afraid you'll leave me!" She sobbed again.
Now I seriously need to know what is going on. What will make me leave her, after having this amazing week.

"What is it?" She stepped away, wiping her face as she cracked a small smile, chuckling and then smiling big. "I'm pregnant." She said, sniffing. My jaw dropped to the ground. Now I'm the one not being able to say anything. "I uh- I - oosh. Wow okay uhm..." she bit her lip as she looked at me, nervously.

"I don't know what to say I mean, gosh. This is big Adriana! I'm not ready for this!" She nodded, looking down at the ground.
"And that's what I was afraid of." She said softly. "What you mean?"
"That you will leave on this." She looked up at the sky, blonking her tears away. "I'm not leaving you babe. This is my mistake too."

Shit. Probably shouldn't have said that.

"Mistake? What! Shawn this is our child. I know it's early and all and you'll probably want to experience love with another girl or I don't know, run off and marry some stripper in Vegas but this is a big thing. This is a life you're talking about. My baby. Your baby. Do you really think this is a mistake? Would you not want to have a kid with me?" I sighed, runnig my hands through my hair.

"This is a big shock, I don't know what to do." I yelled. "I'm going to bed," she stepped closer to me, taking my hands in hers. "I'm in this, with or without you. But I'm not leaving you out. If time is what you need, you have nine months. But I'm not raising this baby when I know he or she won't have a father." She pecked my lips.

"Goodnight Mendes. I love you." She walked back up, going to the back door to get to our room instead of walking past all our friends and family. I sighed hard before walking back inside myself.
"What's wrong?" I plonked down next to Brian on the couch. "Adriana's pregnant." I said blankly, slouching down in my seat. "What! Oh my god I'm gonna be an aunt! This is amazing Shawn congratulations!" Aaliyah rushed up to me, goving me a big hug.

"How is this good? I'm 19! I can't be a dad." "Shawn, you're having a baby with Adriana. This is amazing man." Brian interrupted. "It's not a bad thing my boy. It's a miracle. You have to be proud of it, because it's your own creation. I know right now it might be a bit overwhelming but you'll grow to love it." My dad said.

I always wanted to be a father though. I just never thought it'll be on me this quickly. I don't know what to say.
Maybe this won't be such a bad thing as what I'm making it rigt now.
When it's with Adriana, everything is always great. I need to apologize to her, talk to her about this.

"I guess it won't be a bad thing, right?" "No!" They all said in unison and I smiled. Feeling my heart beating a bit faster again and butterflies on my tummy.
I'm kind of excited now.
But scared too.

We'll figure it out.