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Part 44: kicked out

Adriana:

I was on my way home when I got a message forwarded from Liam, enlightening me of Cody's second house party on next Friday. Obviously Shawn will be there, and that's the only reason that I will ans would want to go. Just to see him or hang out with him.

I'm confused though, Liam knows I hate him for what he did, Cody, but still he forces me to go with him to the parties.
It doesn't make sense.
Cody killed his best friend, and my boyfriend. How can he trust him or even forgive him?

I have to see Shawn again today for lessons, hopefully things won't be weird between us but I don't think he'll make it weird. I still feel the butterflies in my tummy when I think back to last night, the way I kissed him and he kissed me back.
His hands in mine.
I felt the warmth of his body for the first time, even though it was only a bit. I don't know how to describe what I feel for him, what I think about him and how much I actually love him.

I've fallen hard for him in a moment I thought I'd never love again. Not that he showed me what love is, but we both found that again, we both opened up to one another and I think that is what made us so close.
We understand each other, we know each other.

The deepest parts of his heart are now in mine, and I won't let him down. I want him to know, and to know that forever, I'm here for him and always will be.
No matter what.

"Hey Adriana. Can we talk?" I heard Keegan saying as he stuck his head in my room. I just looked at him, already feeling sad.
"I'm so sorry Adriana. It kills me to think that being yelled at by someone I don't even know, and who doesn't even know me, that, that was the break through to make me realize what I actually did to you. That even someone else can see that, and not me. I'm sorry Adriana. I should've been there for you when Mason died, I should've been the brother that will tell you things will be okay. But I wasn't." He said, and I saw the tear rolling down his cheek.

"And it was all my fault that mum kicked him out. It's my fault that they don't like him and doesn't allow him over again and I'm so so-" "What!" I jumped up.
I did not know that.

"Yeah, didn't mum tell you? She told dad about the whole fiasco and he said that he isn't allowed over again." He said sadly, wiping his eyes. I grabbed my phone and jacket before running past him downstairs.

"Where do you think you're going?" My dad asked and I just looked at him, trying so hard not to glare, roll my eyes or just unbelievably laugh at him for being small minded about Shawn. "I'm-uh.." but I sucked up the lie and just told him. "Well since he isn't allowed over, I'll just go to him." I smiled and before he can say anything I ran out, slamming the door shut.

I started riding the bike all the way to the cabin, but he wasn't there.
"Hey. Shawn please answer your phone. You can't go to my house!" I left him another voice message. "Shit!" I started pacing around, not sure of what to do.
"Hideaway. Maybe he's there." I drove the cliff hoping to fond him there, but he wasn't there. And I tried calling him again.
"Shawn please at least listen to the voicemail! You can't go to my house!" I hung up.

Why isn't he answering my calls? Is he mad at me, trying to stay away from me? Whatever it is, it's breaking me.

💞Shawn:

Me and Brian had so much fun playing games and what not, that I almost forgot that I have to go to Adriana's for lessons. "Shit dude, I have to go. I need to get to Adriana's." I jumped up, grabbing my phone from his bed to see that she tried calling me over ten times.

"What the heck?" Brian asked, looking over my shoulder at my phone. I shrugged my shoulders, opening the calls to listen to the messages.
"Hey Shawn, please you can't go over to my house." "I'm at the cabin. Please don't go over to mine. I'll explain it all to you later." In one she thought that I was mad at her and I could hear the crack in her voice.

"Dude I have to go." I grabbed my jacket and ran out to my car, driving to the cabin.
But on my way I saw her bike lying down by the cliff.

She's going to my secret places.
And this is the moment where I realize that she's the one.
And I love her.