Changing | SM

Part 76: flatline

Shawn:

I don't know what happened.
It was all so high on excitement and I just didn't see it.

It's not my fault.
It's not my fault.

The last thing I remembered was kissing Adriana in the parking lot of the supermarket. Then it all went black, but I still feel her lips on mine. It's dark, the afterlife.
But I know I'm not dead.

I could hear everything going on around me, and I even heard the familiar crying of my love. She was with me, before I got to the hospital. But afer she left again, that's when everything took a downward toll and I lost the beating of my heart.

I saw it though, the light.
And she was there, she was there, holding her hand out to me. I was one stretch away, but then.. beep, beep, beep... it came back.
I knew my purpose wasn't done.

I need to be with Adriana, even though she calls me to afterlife... life here with her is more unique. And that's where I want to be. I have her to thank for a lot of things.
My life began the day she kissed me... that was the moment that I felt most alive.

I'd do anything in my power to protect her and keep her safe.
She's my world, and I can't let my world be shattered to pieces.

💞Adriana:

💞3 days after the accident💞

I never left.
And I also won't.

"Adriana." I heard a call, shaking me awake, gently. My eyes slowly fluttered open to see Aaliyah standing by my side, a bag in her hands. "I uhm, I brought you some new clothes. Mum put money in there as well for you to get some food from the cafeteria." She looked at me with sad eyes, even sadder when she looks at her brother.
"Thank you."

I stood up, looking down at him and kissing his forehead before walking to the bathroom to get dressed.

I took a shower first, basically just standing under the water as time passed around me.
I keep on getting flashbacks of the best moments Shawn and I had.

The times we spent together laughing and also just enjoying the silence of one another. I closed my eyes, everything once again moving in slow motion.

Breathe in.
Breathe out.
Tears.

I got out of the shower, got dressed and just looked at myself in the mirror as tears naturally flowed down my cheeks.
"Adriana? Are you okay? You've been in there for a long time." Aaliyah's voice came mumbling through the door.
I quickly brushed my hair out, the drops still dripping down my back from my wet hair. I wiped my tears away, and walked out.

I smiled faintly at her and just as I was about to ask her if she wants to go get some food... flatline.

Nurses came rushing in as Aaliyah fell to pieces in my arms. I just stared at the scene. I'm frozen, I don't know what to do. "Get Doctor Hastings in here. Now!" They pushed us out of the room, but I fighted back.
"No! I can't leave him!" I screamed at the top of my lungs as I cried too.

"Ma'am you need to stay ba-" but I pushed the nurse off me, running up to Shawn and grabbing ahold of his hand.
"Common baby please don't leave me." I looked up at the monitors as the doctor tried CPR and basically everything to get him back to life.

"Common Shawn!" I cried.

Beep. Beep.

I sighed hard, crying in the his chest as I fell down on him. "Thank you." I was a sobbing mess by now, and every psychiatrist in the hospital tried to get me to talk to them.
But I just want to stay with him.

That way I'm sure he's safe.

Alive.