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Part 74: the longest hour

Adriana:

I was in the waiting room with the Mendes family, holding Aaliyah in my arms as our crying, eventually after hours, died down.
Time never seemed to pass by so slowly, so gratuitously, so painfully.

When Shawn got in the accident, a piece of my heart felt like it died along with it. Like I could feel him being ripped away from me within just a second.
"Will he be okay?"
"I hope so honey. I really hope so." I whispered to Aaliyah.

I never saw someone this heartbroken and sad. Was that how I looked after Mason?
I just wish that darn doctor will come out again and tell us his condition. The police where here, asking questions and making a mess in all our hearts with explaining what happened to him.

He didn't see it.
He didn't see the car coming from the other road. This is not his fault.
But I feel like it's mine.

I shouldn't have left him, I should've went with him. Took the ride he offered.
Then he'll probably be okay.

"Mr. And Mrs. Mendes?" We all jumped up when the doctor called the names. "Yes. What's wrong, how is my boy doing?" Manny asked anxiously.
Aaliyah still by my side as we stood at the back of her parents, waiting impatiently for the doctor to give us the examination of Shawn's health at the moment.

"He's not completely stable, but doing okay. He's still not responding to anything or waking up anytime soon. We think he's in a dee coma but we cannot see any signs that show it. And I'm really sorry to say that, if he doesn't wake up within the next week... there's nothing more we can do."

My heart tear to pieces once again.
I can't go through this again, lose another love. Another life so full of worth to me.
Basically they can't see signs because he's dead. If you can't see anything, he's not showing any.
There's no life at this moment.

"Can I see him?" I croaked out, everyone turning around to look at me.
I know I don't really have a big part here, I'm not family, but my heart is his, and with the weakness I feel... I can feel him dying. "Please?" I cried again, trying to sob silently. "Adriana..." Manny stepped up to me.
I'll break if he tells me now that I should go home, that this is not my place to be.

But that wasn't at all the case.

"After you saw him, can we talk?" I nodded as I pulled him in to a hug. "I promise I won't be long." I said to Karen, knowing she needs some time with her son as well.
Just before I turned in to the room, seeing him lying there, weak, dead.
I called Aaliyah.

She rushed up to me, and we both walked in.
"I never saw him like this."
"Trust me, it's not something you want to get used to."
She looked at me with worry, probably wondering how I get to handle this a bit more at ease as the rest of them.

I slowly sat down next to him, taking his hand in mine. "Hey, Shawn." I whispered to him, brushing my fingers through his messed up quiff.
"Baby you need to wake up for me, you promised that you won't leave me. And I can't lose you like this as well. Please Shawn, I need you. Your family needs you. You can't leave. Please. Please. I love you." I whispered to him, my tear drops landed on his cheek as I leaned over him.
But I quickly wiped them away.

He looks peaceful in a way, but I need him to not be.
He needs to wake up, I need him here.

"You can stay a while. I need to see your dad." I said to Aaliyah as I walked over to her, kissing her forehead and she sat down next to his bed. I glanced back at him, and for some reason, only then did it all get too much for me.

I got out the door, but the room seemed more white than before.
My eyes flickered and my body felt numb.

"Mr. Mendes." I stepped forward, but immediately fell to the ground. "Adriana!"
It was the last thing I heard before it all went black.

-

*vision*

"shawn? what are you doing?" I saw him looking out over the view of the lake. Seeing the sunrise in the horizon.
Our home is finished and everything is perfect. I walked up to him, wrapping my arms around him.
"Just mesmerized by the view. I'm lucky to get to see this again, to wake up next to you and love you. I'm lucky to live." He turned around in my arms, wrapping his around me.

"I'm so glad you're okay." I rested my head on his chest, feeling him kissing my throne as he only held me tighter. "I promised you Adriana. I'll never leave you."

*end vision*

-

"Adriana! Adriana wake up." I was shook awake and my eyes fluttered open to see a panicked Manny looking down on me. "Oh thank god you're okay." He sighed, helping me up.
But I still feel like falling down.

"Come with me." He helped me over to a room right next to Shawn's, and I sat down on the bed, staring blankly out of the window as he wrapped a blanket around my shoulders.

"I told you I needed to talk to you. But all I wanted to know is how you can handle this? What happened to you Adriana?" I looked down at my hands.

I should probably tell him.