MY FAKE ROMANCE WITH THE HOTTEST GUY IN SCHOOL

CHAPTER 37: CALM BEFORE THE STORM

I can't sleep. I'm reliving the kisses. How he made me feel. I turn to face him, he's on his back, his hand on his head.

  I said, 'Tommy" I don't say it loud, in case he is asleep.  

He said, "yeah"

 I said, "I thought of it earlier, and I was going to tell you, but then well I forgot."  he rolled up on his side and looked at me. 

 He said, "Tell me what"  

I said, 'I wanted to apologize for being so selfish, and so self-absorbed." 

 Tom laughed.  I looked at him.  

He said, "Madison please, you couldn't be selfish or self-absorbed."  

I said, "I was" 

Tom said, "how do you mean" 

I said, "well I was all worried all week about this party, how I would react, I mean before you, when I tried to sleep, some nights I could still smell the alcohol, and how gross it smelled I can't stand the smell of beer. I would be back there that night anyway I was thinking about me and my trauma, and when we were sitting in the kitchen, I realized how selfish I've been to you."  

Tom said, "Madison you are not selfish" 

I said, "Tom I didn't even think about your trauma, your pain, your flashbacks." 

 Tom said, "you lost me."  he smiled.  It should really be illegal the way that man smiles at me. 

I said, 'Tom the last time you were at a party"

 He said, "oh yeah that. I honestly didn't even think about it." 

 He laid back down on his back. 

 I said, "What you didn't. I mean with both of them being there."  

He said, "yeah I'm over that." 

I said, "oh" He said, 'But thank you for thinking of me You ae very sweet."

I said, 'Tom it's ok if you don't want to talk about it, but if you do, I'll listen. 

 Tom rolled onto his side.  

He said, "now where have I heard that before,"

 He smirked.  I laughed.  He said, 'I think it's what I have been saying to you."  I laughed.  So did he.

He said, 'what do you want to talk about?"

  I said, 'No I meant you. But you can go to sleep." 

 He said, 'I don't want to go to sleep. Too hyped up to sleep."  

I said, 'oh." 

 He said, "What did you want to talk about."

  I said, 'Tom I just meant if you"

 He was staring at me. His face is perfection. His whole body, but those eyes, his lips, his jaw.  I am burning up. I am hot all over, because when I look at his face, remembering kissing him, I mean did I really do that. And his lips were kissing my neck.

Tom said, in a deep voice, "Madison, you're blushing"

 I laughed. So did he. 

 He said, 'I'll talk about whatever you want."

 I said, 'I meant about your pain."  

Tom smiled.  He said, 'I ain't feeling no pain." 

I smiled. He was staring intently at me. Making me feel all kinds of things just by his gaze. I said, 'I just meant it was your first party since."