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Hey. So I just need to get my thoughts out.

So about 2 weeks ago my mom sent me to this outpatient program because I self harm. And I haven't been to school in that amount of time. And after the first day at the program I cut myself again. So I was put inpatient for 6 days. And that delayed my program for about a week. And now I'm not enrolled to my regular school. Which sucks ass because I have a out-of-state field trip next Saturday and if I don't get out of this program by next Friday, I can't go. So I mean, I want to work hard to get out of the program so I can go back to school, but I don't know if I want to stop cutting. But I'm sure I could try and stay happy and participate but I don't really want to stop self harming. I just don't know what choice to make. Any advice?

Thanks,

Confused.and.depressed

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Dear confused.and.depressed,

Your mental health is more important than any trip to whatever. You have to take care of yourself before anything. You wanting to keep cutting is the reason to why your in the program in the first place. Try to focus on getting better. Do not fake your way out of it either. Do you want to see yourself happy 10 years down the road or not even living long enough to see those happy days? Think about it. A week in a program isn't enough time to get fully better, I understand that because it take a lot more time and you have to work on it but a program can help to get u to the steps you need to practice on every day. I know you want to take a trip somewhere but try to reason with your mom if u don't get to go. Make it a goal to get better in order to go and take a trip to somewhere you really want to go and see if she'd agree to doing that :)

BAM