Da Truth

Lovely Smoke

March 28th

It's been seven days and Lovely is still not fully responsive. I've been taking care of the twins with Nicki's help. Right now, I'm in the nursery while Nicki puts the twins to sleep in my bedroom.

The doctors say to wait and be patient but I can't. The woman I love is technically in pain and I'm powerless. It's crazy cause I would catch a body or even bodies for her but how can I catch one when she's the body? The thing that's hurting her lives inside of her blood, inside of her dna.

I haven't made music or left this house because I can't. Every time I'm about to step out the door I get sick or stuck. I can't explain it but it's like this house, my kids, and the woman I love has a hold on me. I wish I was lying but Nicki and Kenny have been here to witness it all.

The twins cry for her and the only way to get them to stop is to play her music and be in the room with her. We just now got them to sleep in a different room from her. Everyone is hurting with her but she's the only one in physical pain. I finally walked over to the chair and sat down.

"Lovely, I knew we ain't say our vows yet, but I'm with you in sickness and in health past death," I said, looking at Lovely sleeping in the bed. "You're the only person besides blood that makes me go so hard. You're my gas, my high, my smoke. Baby, you're my everything." I said, grabbing Lovely's hand.

"Baby just." I stopped talking cause Lovely's hand gripped mine. I quickly looked up at her. "I know you're mad at me, but can you please just be happy I'm alive?" She asked in a raspy voice with her eyes still closed, not moving one bit.

"I am happy you're alive, but I'm also upset that you almost died. You put me through something that I never wanted to happen. You also did it in a fucked up way. Having me sign those papers without knowing. How could you do that?" I said, and it was quite.

Lovely sighed as she slowly began to sit up, and she groaned as she did it. "I'm sorry, but I had to do it, and I trusted everyone around me to know that the twins and myself would be fine and if not, that was a price I was willing to pay. My life has always been in doctors hands that I either didn't know or didn't trust and for once I wanted my life to be in people I trusted hands." She said, looking past me as a single tear rolled down her face.

"When I was sixteen I had gallstones and my gallbladder removed around my birthday. The only thing I knew about the doctors doing the procedure was that they were doctors. When I use to be sick in the hospital they did daily rounds coming and telling us  what they thought was wrong with us and we would help them out with our input. Then they would proscribe medican that we knew nothing or little about. Did I question everything? Yes but when the doors close I still have no idea what changed and what goes on. I felt Arron Burr when he said I wanna be in the room where it happened." She said sadly till then end when she slightly smiled cause she realised how corny but cute she sounded.

"I get it we're a team and as your teammate, I won't put you in that position ever again but this was always going to be my choice." Lovely said then she finally looked into my eyes and I nodded. "I would let you see your babies but their sleep in our room." I said and she smiled.

My heart lit up seeing her smile again. It's been too long since we've talked so tonight we were going to talk about everything.

April 23rd

Lovely, Nicki, Kenny, and myself were sitting down with the kids. Kenny and Nicki were making eye contact while Lovely was breastfeeding. We were in the nursery because Lovely is still on bed rest. The twins are thriving even better than before and I'm genuinely happy. If this is what my life is going I be like till I die I never wanna give it up.
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I'm not going to sleep tonight so their will be two chapters posted. One will be later than the other one. So you all will get three chapters tonight.- Lovely 🥰❤️