Da Truth

Da Smoke

January 1st, 2020 (Flashback)

We stopped at a gas station to fill up the tank but also to get snacks. I sent Bashar in to get me some apple juice, core water, and a bag of cool ranch Doritos. After a minute, Bashar and Samuel were now walking out of the gas station and to the car.

"Aye, Pop where that fine ass bitch of yours at she been M.I.A lately!" A guy yelled, standing by a black car, two pumps down. Bashar quickly looked at him, and I raised my window down a little so Bashar could hear me. "Babe, I know you wanna defend my honor, but please don't. If bullets start spraying, then who knows what will happen to the twins and me." I said in a low voice, and he nodded as he came, opened the car door a little, and handed me the bag of snacks.

"LOVELY IN THERE RIGHT NOW?" The guy yelled, then Bashar, Jacob, and Samuel made their way over to the guy. Hiam and the four other security guards stood around our car. I closed and locked my door as I watched them.

I wasn't able to hear anything they were saying. Then Bashar knocked the dude out. FUCK! I thought to myself while looking down, and when I looked back up, they were putting him in his car.

They locked his car from the inside, then they came and got into the car. "When your kids get suspended for getting into a fight because of what someone said, just know you're staying home with them and picking them up from school," I said as I leaned my head on the door and began writing. Jacob waited for everyone to get in the other car, and once he heard the engine start, he pulled off and began driving the vehicle.

Hour later

"Why are you so...ugh...Fuck it." I said as I began putting my dress on. Bashar looked at me like I was the most ungrateful thing in the world. He was putting his suit on. "Why am I what? So in love with you? Willing to die for you and our family? The only man you'll ever love? What Lovely? Why am I so WHAT?" Bashar asked as he eventually yelled at me, and I realized this was close to his heart. I was too close to his heart.

"No-" I was about to speak when he shook his head. "You been spoiled all yo life, Lovely. Getting what you want, doing what you want, and now you want me to give up everything I've ever know!" He said, which caused me to get mad.

"WHEN DID I ASK YOU TO CHANGE FOR ME? WHEN DID I ASK YOU TO GIVE UP EVERYTHING FOR ME, HUH? I THOUGHT YOU CHASED ME!?! YOU IGNITED ALL OF THIS POP! THE RELATIONSHIP, THE BABIES, THE ENGAGEMENT IT WAS ALL YOUUU! POP DON'T FUCKIN-" I was about to really go off on Bashar.

But Barakah and Bhanavi placed their hands on the inside of my belly. I didn't know it was noticeable till Bashar looked down sad. "Are you reverting back to your old ways, Pop? Is Pop Smoke here to stay and kick it while on his street shit? I understand that's your rap persona. But if he's coming home with you, my children and I can leave now and never look back. Actually." I said, walking towards him. Then I placed my ring on the bed. Cause although I loved him a lot, I won't let my kids go through anything crazy.

I started walking away when he grabbed my hand. "Please let go, I don't wanna have a tussle, and then something bad happens to the babies or myself," I said, and Bashar did as asked. While walking away, I heard him say something it was so low it was almost like a whisper. "I would never hurt y'all."

Hour later

I was sleeping in my old room at Nicki's house. She was going to sleep in the room with me, but I convinced her I would be okay.