Complications Throughout Generations

Chapter 7

Levi's POV:

"Do you every wonder what life would be like if none of this ever happened?" Eren and I were laying down on our backs in the middle of my office. He kept throwing up a random ball he had found up in the air. I had originally asked him to come meet me so we could speak about his new hardening abilities. But somehow we always end up here. Talking for hours upon hours.

"I try not to think about what life could've been." I said with a dull tone. "It's best to focus on life now and see what you can do to either fix it or get with it so you don't get killed."

"Levi?"

"Jaeger."

"Do you think our souls can be reborn in other lifetimes? Like a new version of something from the past, but in the future?"

"You mean reincarnation?" He nods. But the ball wasn't going to fall straight to him the way it had for the past 20 minutes. I caught it before it hit me and kept it.

"Hey," he whined, sitting up , "give it back."

"Shut it, brat." He gives up and lays back down.

"So, do you?"

"I don't believe in much anymore so it would be dumb to believe in this too. Why do you care about being reborn in some way like that?"

He turned to me and propped his head up with his elbow to the ground and his palm on his head. "I want to kill every last Titan in existence. I want to protect the people around me. I want-"

"Yeah, yeah, I know what you want, kid." I interrupted. "Why do you really care?" I changed my position to mirror his and examined his features. His deep turquoise eyes, his messy brown hair. I noticed the way he was doing the same to me. But once again, I noticed the newfound admiration in his eyes. I had suddenly figured out why he was bringing the topic up.

"Because I wish mom was still alive, I wish my home wasn't destroyed, I wish I could've gone to school or something, I wish I could've loved someone, have a family."

"Well it's not too late for some of those things."

"I feel like it is. I don't think I'll ever be satisfied. Which scares me."

I mentally frown remembering all my fears of what Eren will most likely do to the world. He's right. He will never be satisfied. So he'll do nothing but take and take until there's nothing left. But I chose not to say anything about it for once. Even though I fear it's inevitable, if I just act like I'm there for him rather than how I actually feel, maybe I could even convince him to stop what he'll do. I clearly have that effect on him so I can take a small advantage.

"I think you'll get through it. You're thick headed enough to believe that, so do it. Believe it."

"Do you think you'll get through it?"

I stayed silent. To be quite honest, I didn't care if I did or didn't.

"I don't think about the future. Like I said, I focus on the present so I don't get killed or so that someone else doesn't get killed."

"You don't think about anything else?"

"Nope."

I do.

"Nothing?" His voice raised a pitch and he scrunched his nose a bit. I shook my head and laid back down. "I don't believe you." He moved closer to me.

"Is that so?"

"If I ask you something, will you be honest?"

"No." I said coldly.

"Fair enough...but I'm still going to ask."

"Spit it out, brat."

"Do you ever think of me?" I raised an eyebrow at him. At this point he was physically too close for comfort.

"I told you I do. I need to make sure you're not going to kill-"

"You know what I mean."

"Jaeger, why would I ever think that way about you?"

"Because you've asked me to come see you every chance of down time that we get. You've told me things you haven't told others. You've literally cried in front of m-"

"Okay I see your point." I was annoyed. He could too by the way he lowered his head on his folded arm like a beaten dog.

I couldn't really explain why I continuously went to Eren. But I don't see exactly how he could've misinterpreted our bond for something other than friendly. He was just a kid. An idiot kid at that.

"Sorry." He whispered. I turned my head towards his. I felt the need to run my fingers through his hair. It was my way of saying "it's fine" without speaking. Too lazy to talk it seems. After a few minutes, I could hear the light snores beside me. Eren was asleep. I rolled my eyes and quietly got off the ground.

"Stupid brat." He looked down at him sleeping peacefully. But I scooped his larger body up in my arms and took him from my office to his room. It was quite the walk but he stayed asleep. I rested him on his bed and moved the hair out of his eyes. "God, how I wish it wasn't you." I crossed my arms and shook my head as I spoke those words to myself. I leaned down and gave him a light kiss on his forehead. My eyes widened the second I realized what I had just done. I looked back at him to make sure he was still sleeping. Which he was thankfully. I had walked back to my office to clean up my workspace then head to bed. "Shit." I sighed. "This is so messed up."