Complications Throughout Generations

Chapter 86

Levi's POV:

I sat on one of the chairs outside on Historia's front deck. I was devastated. I pulled at my hair and let the tears fall freely.

"Why can't I remember?" I whispered. "Why can't I fucking remember?!" I screamed that time. I wouldn't be surprised if the whole neighborhood heard me.

"And you wonder why I had no issue getting with Mikasa"

I heard footsteps next to me and the person had sat down. I just wanted to be alone. They placed a bottle on the table in between us but we both stayed silent.

"I ask myself the same thing all the time." It was Jean. I guess he's the only person who could understand how this feels. To me, it was my sister and the person I'm in love with. To him, it's his best friend and the person he's in love with. "Kinda makes sense now. That's why she broke up with me. I can't help but wonder what the fuck I did wrong." He picked up the bottle and took a swig, keeping it in his hands. "What does Eren have that I don't?"

"Everything." I mumbled.

"Well of course you'd say that." He scoffed.

We sat in silence for a while. My heart was broken. It's not even just that he doesn't feel bad, it's the fact that Mikasa wanted this to happen. She knows how I feel so why do this to me?

"I had a feeling there was something happening with them."

"How? Are you saying she cheated on me?"

"No. She definitely didn't. But I just had this weird suspicion that Eren was just using me to get to Mikasa. I think Eren also could've been using you to get to her and possibly the other way around as well. He's been using us both to get to her..."

I could be talking out of my ass? I'm shocked I didn't throw up yet. I've never had alcohol before. I'd say I somewhat drowned in my sorrows tonight.

"But Eren loves you."

"Loved. He loved me. A different version of myself. I did the reading. I'm not Captain Levi, I'm just Levi. I'm not some fearless soldier who can kill a hundred Titans no problem. I don't have some snarky ass attitude-"

"Yes you do."

"Okay, maybe I do. But still. Captain Levi didn't show any emotion, he was a cold person. I read all about his infamous look of death. I don't have that." I looked at Jean and he was uneasy in his chair.

"You sure about that? Mikasa told me that everyone is nearly the same minus a few details. For example, the accident...that's what made you who you are today. Right?"

"Isabel and Furlan were killed by Titans. Eren said he made up this entire life of ours so why the  fuck did he have to kill them?" I clenched my fists tight, feeling small fits of rage.

"Because without that happening, you wouldn't be you."

"Well I don't like me. Why couldn't I have been someone else?" I shouted.

"Because then Eren wouldn't love you the same."

"Let's get this clear. Eren used to love me. Used to. Old timeline. Past life. Generations ago. Back then. Not now. He loved Captain Levi. Humanity's strongest soldier or whatever the fuck I was called. He does not love me. This Levi."

"Have you ever asked him what you two were back then?"

"Yes! Guess what he fucking said."

"What did he say?"

"He said we were close. He said there wasn't much room for a relationship. But we still cared about each other and that he would've done anything for me back then. Didn't say love. Actually, within that same conversation, he told me he loved Mikasa."

Someone else came out to us. It was Annie to my surprise.

"Both of you, shut up." She leaned back on one of the beams on the deck. "Jean, leave Mikasa alone for now. She's having one of her stupid Eren phases again. Give it a year."

"A year?!" He shouted.

"And you," she looked at me, "stop fucking up."

"Me? How the fuck am I fucking up?" Last time I checked, he just got handsy with my sister so I don't know what she's talking about.

"Grow a pair and tell him how you feel or else things are just going to get worse."

"How?" Jean asked. She waved us to come inside with her. I don't think I'm going to like what I'm about to see. She led us towards the closed downstairs bathroom door. She tilted her head and we both put our ears against it. "I think I'm gonna be sick." Jean held his mouth and walked away. It was none other than my sister practically shouting Eren's name. I kept a straight face.

"Is this what you meant?" Then she nodded.

I was done. I wanted to go home. I took my phone out to text my mom but it seemed as though she was already on her way. Mikasa must've texted her. I genuinely do not want to be in the same car as either of them right now.

I looked around the room and ignored the faces I didn't recognize. But I spotted Sasha vomiting in the kitchen sink with Connie rubbing her face, Armin was passed out face down on the ground, Hange and Miche were smoking outside, Erwin and Reiner were doing shots, Bertolt was sitting by himself, Ymir and Historia were making out on the couch, and Jean was ranting to Marco. I went to say something to Annie until I realized she was on her way to sit next to Bertolt. I was alone.

Mom - I'm here

Mom - Eren and Mikasa aren't answering, can you get them for me?

Mom - Is everyone okay?

I sighed and texted a reply.

Levi - We're all fine. I'll go get them

Well, here goes nothing. I knock on the door.

"Busy." Eren laughed as Mikasa moaned in the background.

"Mom's here." I said, keeping my composure. I heard them scrambling to get themselves together. When they opened the door, both of their necks were abused with hickey's. Eren's hair was a mess; must've been from Mikasa pulling at it. They both looked like they didn't even care who was in front of them. They probably didn't. "Come on." I groaned and they stumbled behind me. I genuinely didn't care if they fell or not. I knew they were behind me so I walked further in front and got in the car first.

"Hey honey, how was-"

"I think Mikasa and Eren fucked." I bit my lip, annoyed with the fact that I had more emotion left. "Just don't say anything." I could see her heart breaking at the sight of me. The door behind me opened and the two of them stumbled in.

"Hey." Mikasa said. "Thanks for picking us up."

"Of course, sweetheart." She sounded sad. I'd be sad too if I found out your daughter was a total piece of shit.