Complications Throughout Generations

Chapter 15

Levi's POV:

I was angry with myself. For multiple reasons. I'm with Eren for a reason. To distract his emotions. Instead I completely lose myself when he pins me against a fucking wall. What the hell is wrong with me? I was utterly weak underneath him. It was a side of Eren I hadn't seen and I wanted to explore it. But I knew I couldn't. I had to continue on with my ludicrous plan as well as fight the new urge to get attached. That's what had been on my mind all day. Until the ceremony. Something was wrong. It reminded me of what Hange, Armin, and I had seen when he was locked up. He looked like he had seen something. I was hoping it hadn't been what I thought. A vision maybe. He was afraid. Maybe that's a good thing. He can prevent it. I still believe what I believe. He will be humanity's downfall. I need to remind myself of that every day. He is no savior. He's the enemy and he doesn't yet know it. My heart ached at the thought. At first, I cared the most about making sure the world was safe. But now I'm afraid he'll do something he'd regret and get himself killed. I would lose him. Thinking all of this as I sat on my bed, my eyes shot open.

I decided to leave the room and wander outside for some fresh air. Do I really feel that way? I need to stop myself immediately if that's the case. But the very thing I didn't want to be near was standing about 15 feet away from me staring at the night sky. I have questions that need answers. He didn't hear me walk closer. So I took a second to admire him from afar. He looked so pure in that moment. Not like the brat I know he is. I exhaled through my nose and walked behind him.

"What happened at the ceremony?" He jumped at the sound of my voice. Stupid brat.

"N-nothing." He stuttered.

"Didn't seem like nothing." I clearly wasn't convinced. I had walked up next to him, longing to be closer. But neither of us turned to look at each other. "There's something wrong and you need to tell me." I acted like I was worried but I was just curious to get an answer out of him.

"It's nothing, Levi." He looked at me with a smile. I still didn't buy it. Looking back at the moon, he laced our fingers together. I started to rub my thumb on top of his hand. He gently tugged my arm to the side and pulled me to his chest so we were both facing the stars and moon. He wrapped his arms around my shoulders and I held onto them. He rested his head on my shoulder and kissed my temple.

In this moment, I felt sad. Almost sick. Was I really trying to manipulate him? Or did I just tell myself that when really all I want is to have someone who understands and cares. That was Eren. What I'm realizing is that it couldn't have been anyone. Many have tried. Eren was different. I absolutely hated the thought of it. I hate how I feel in this moment. God how I wish he wasn't who he was. Because right now, being in his arms right now, is the greatest feeling in the world.

"Wanna know something?" He had whispered in my ear. I was hoping it was going to be about earlier before but I just knew that wasn't going to be the case. He had turned me around to face him, leaving me disappointed not wanting to leave his grasp. "I like you a lot, Levi." He bit his lip and looked down but then back to my eyes. That just made my stomach feel worse. But I kept the same emotionless expression on my face. "I like your eyes." Oh great, here we go. "I like how you act like you have zero emotion but your eyes say it all. I feel like I'm the only one that sees."

"And what are my eyes telling you now?"

"You're sad." He frowned. "I'm not really sure why." I genuinely didn't think he would be able to tell. But he always can. He's the only one that sees me. "Should I ask?"

"No." I shook my head, looking away from his turquoise eyes. But I took it upon myself to return to his body. I rested my head on his chest as I wrapped my arms around his waist. He lifted my chin with his thumb and his pointer finger. He kissed my forehead and looked back at me. He broke out into a giant smile. "What?" I wasn't amused.

"Nothing." He shrugged, acting as if it was nothing but there was definitely something.

"Tell me."

"I'm just thinking."

"About?"

He bit his lip, trying to contain his smile. "How beautiful I think you are." I let out a small gasp but then I shake my head.

He gasped over dramatically. "Is Captain Levi Ackerman blushing?"

"Shut up, brat." I roll my eyes. I tried to break away from the arms I had missed a few minutes ago.

"Come here." He whispered with a smirk and pulled me back. He passionately placed a kiss on my lips and I kissed back immediately. I wanted more as I run my fingers through his hair to pull him closer than he already was. He lifted his hands to both sides of my jaw and his thumbs on my cheeks. His signature move it seemed. He caressed them softly. But then he pulled back to catch his breath. I had hoped he would kiss me again but he just examined the features of my face. He traced my defined cheekbones and sharp jawline with his thumb. "So beautiful." He whispered.

God fucking damn it, Levi.

"Eren?" A whisper was all I managed to let out.

"Yeah?"

"I like you a lot too, Eren."

But holy shit, I wish I didn't.