Complications Throughout Generations

Chapter 97

Eren's POV:

I wasn't sure why Jean wanted to see me. But I figured it couldn't be good. Why do this on my birthday? Not that anyone seems to care other than Mikasa and somehow Levi. But still, it's annoying.

I knocked on the door and he opened it then walked away, not even looking in my direction. He walked over to his couch and sat down with his elbows on his knees and his hands together. I sat down on the other couch and put my ankle up to my knee and held my leg in place.

"What is it about you?" He finally said. I didn't understand what he meant truthfully. Not entirely anyway.

"What do you mean?"

"What is it...about you...that makes you so damn special, hm?" He looked at me with nothing but betrayal written all over his face. "I thought I did everything right. Never fought with her, did anything she wanted, bought her anything she wanted, complimented her endlessly, told her I would always love her. What is it about you that still makes Mikasa so crazy for you?"

"I don't know, Jean." I figured this is where this was going. This is the first time we've spoken in months. Now that the conversation has finally come, it's seeped in much deeper.

"Eren, I thought you were my best friend. You knew how much I loved her. You knew I would've done anything for her. But instead of doing what a best friend should do, you do what Eren Jaeger would do."

"What the fuck does that mean?"

"Be a dick. I mean did you even care about how this would make me feel? Or this one is just as bad, how about Levi? Eren, I'm going to ask you this question as your friend, what were you thinking? Please answer this truthfully...please."

I never had a great answer for this. I was almost ashamed in a way.

"I just...I don't know."

"So you weren't thinking," he nodded, "as if that wasn't clear enough."

"She loves me. I wanted to be loved and I wanted to be loved by someone who remembers me and I was just so angry that Levi didn't. I wanted to redeem myself. I had hurt Mikasa so bad back then. I knew she loved me. I thought now in a new world, maybe we could try what she always wanted. So it would've been killing two birds with one stone I guess."

Saying it out loud made me realize how ridiculous it was. I said I was going to wait for Levi and now here we are. I'm dating Mikasa.

"Jesus Christ," he shook his head, "I hope you're happy with yourself."

"I'm not."

"Then what the fuck is wrong with you?!" Jean raised his voice.

"I don't know!" I yelled back. "I don't fucking know." We settled down a bit. He stood up and started to pace.

"You don't even love her like that, do you? I know you don't love her like I do, that's for damn sure."

"No," I sighed, "I do love her. But not like you love her and not the way I love Levi."

"What did I do wrong?" He groaned and slid his hands down his face.

"You didn't do anything."

"Do you think I have a chance?" I was shocked he would still want to be with her after all this time.

"Maybe. It's 50/50. What about my odds with Levi?" That card proved he would be with me in an instant.

"He's in love with you, Eren. Which is exactly why I asked what the hell is so special about you? You got two people head over heels for your dumb ass."

"I saw it coming. It was like that back then too."

He rolled his eyes and sat next to me. "Enough of this bullshit. I'm sick and tired of hearing the same shit over and over for years. 'This happened over a thousand years ago', 'this happened then'. I want to remember."

"Jean, it's not that simple."

"I know what has to happen." How the hell does he know? I didn't want anyone to know. I kept it to myself for a reason. Wait...Connie was there with Zeke. God damn it, Connie.

"Gross," I shook my head, "just open your mouth, let's get this over w-"

Before I knew it, I was cut off by his lips on mine. My eyes shot wide open. What the fuck is happening?

He pulled away, "I think it's only fair that I find out what's so special about you." Although
I was incredibly confused, I was also highly aroused. Never in my wildest dreams would I imagine Jean being into guys, let alone myself.

"Since when were you into guys?" He pushed me down on the couch and hovered over me. I gasped once he started to suck on my neck.

"Complicated." He broke away for a split second to answer. A lightbulb went off in my brain.

"Marco."

"We'll talk about it later."

I didn't say another word and continued to make out with Jean on his couch.

"What if your mom comes home?" He ripped my shirt off along with his.

"She won't come home for another 3 hours." He sucked on my chest, leaving an endless amount of hickeys. My hands ran up to his back and I pulled his waist down to create some friction between us. He exhaled heavily through his nose and ran his fingers through my hair, gripping it to deepen the kiss. I felt a shiver down my spine when he started to play with the waistline of my jeans. He started to leave a trail of kisses down my toned chest towards the button of my pants.

"This is gonna get me in a lot of shit," I could barely collect myself. There always was something fun about getting with a woman. But a man? That's something that strikes my interests. But I never actually had sex with Mikasa. Meaning I'm still a virgin. The night I asked Levi to come over, something happened with her. She was upset that I didn't answer the question and she said me having sex with her would prove that it was her that I loved most. But I couldn't go through with it.

"Me too." He unbuttoned my pants and pulled them down off my legs.

"I thought you and Levi were best of friends now. This'll make things worse." He started to kiss the inside of my thighs. I immediately gripped his hair in my hand and arched my back.

"We'll keep this a secret." The euphoric feeling almost felt like a punch to the stomach.

"Jean," I moaned.

He leaned back up to my ear and slid his hands down, feeling me grow harder in his hand. "What do you want, Eren? Tell me." He whispered. I was pushed over the edge. I had gotten close with Levi but it never got to the full extent. He never asked so I never forced it on him. I wanted that to be on his terms, not mine. I was always ready, just the way I am now. Levi had said years ago that I had a thing for Jean. I'll confess, Jean was a part of my bisexual awakening. Seeing him in the gym locker room was a magical experience for a young boy. I never had a crush on him, but I could never deny the attraction I did feel. But Jean, I never would've guessed. But knowing his history with Marco all those years ago makes me wonder if they were anything back then, and what they are now.

"You know what I want, come on, Jean." I tried to contain my loud sounds as his hand went faster but it was useless.

"Do I?"

"Stop being a tease." He took his hand away and went to unbutton his own pants. He discarded them and revealed his massive size. I knew it. I couldn't help but stare.

"You're not so bad yourself, Jaeger." Well I knew that. I don't mean it in a cocky way. I just knew that I wasn't small. But Jean? I knew he was packing some serious heat.

I pulled him down on top of me and groaned in his ear, "just fuck me already."

And that is how Jean Kirstein got his full memory back...