Complications Throughout Generations

Chapter 17

Levi's POV:

After a few days, I had finally mustered up the courage to tell Eren how I felt. I walked to his room and knocked on the door.

"Eren?" I whispered but loud enough for him to hear. It was late. Which was the typical time for our meets. "Eren, it's me." Maybe he was sleeping?

I slowly opened the door so it would creak, hoping I wouldn't wake him. When I fully walked inside, he was nowhere to be found. I didn't question a single thing once I had seen the empty room. He was gone. I didn't need to check any other room. I didn't need to check outside. I didn't need to check Armin or Mikasa's room. He was gone and I knew immediately.

I clenched my jaw, trying to stop the tears from escaping my eyes. I walked over to his bed to sit and let my emotions run free but I stopped myself as I noticed a note on the pillow. My hand started to shake as I went to pick it up.

Levi,

I hope you can forgive me for this one day. I wouldn't be surprised if you don't. I need you to forget everything that's happened between us. It'll hurt now but you'll move on soon enough. You're strong. The strongest person I know. I'm sorry for leaving you without saying goodbye. But if I had seen you, I was afraid I would've changed my mind. Take care of yourself, okay? Please. Look out for Mikasa and Armin too. They don't know. I don't expect them to understand either. Please continue to be that fearless leader that you are. The one that's inspired me to this very day. Goodbye my love, maybe I'll see you in another lifetime.

Eren

At that point, the tears were running down my face uncontrollably. It took a lot to make me cry but this would be the second time in a long time, both because of Eren. The difference between the two times hurt. At this point, I didn't care that I knew why he left. I was just angry he left me. I wanted to scream. I felt my chest get tight from the aggressive emotions I was feeling. I hadn't even heard the door open when I felt two arms around me. I looked up, praying to god that it was Eren. But it was only Hange. Which only make things worse. She held me close as I continued to cry on her shoulder.

"He left." I choked out. "He left me, Hange." Her body grew tense. I knew why but I couldn't focus on that now. I understand that it's truthfully more important, but I looked at it as the only person that ever truly cared about me was gone. The person who could look into my eyes and just know how I was feeling. The person who would hold me through the night. I thought of how I used to pretend to be annoyed with the fact that I'd have my back against his chest when we laid down or that my head would be on his shoulder rather than his being on mine. All of those memories came back like in a flash. "I didn't get to tell him, Hange. I'm sorry." I shook my head.

"Shhh, Levi." She tried to calm me down by rubbing my back. "It'll be okay."

"No it won't!" I shouted and stood up. "He's gone now. He left. We both know what he's about to do now. I had a stupid plan of manipulating him and instead I'm the one that got hurt. He's probably fucking fine. He sure as hell acted like it for the past few months." I picked up the letter once again and handed it to her so she could read it. I sniffled and wiped my tears. She gazed over the written words then dropped it at her knees.

"Levi." She felt sorry for me.

"We need to find him." I whispered.

"Right." She nodded.

I need to find him.