Complications Throughout Generations

Chapter 191

Jean's POV:

Eren was quieter than usual, which obviously indicated that something was wrong.

"What's on your mind?" We were in my basement instead of my room. His head was in my lap staring at the TV as I ran my fingers through his hair.

"He's going to miss Christmas." He whispered.

"I know, Eren...I'm sorry." After that, I heard quiet sniffles. "Eren, sit up." He shook his head. "Please." So he eventually did which revealed his tear stained cheeks. I wiped them away even though they continued to flow. He was clenching his jaw pretty hard to keep a straight face; I know he's tired of crying.

"He's going to miss Christmas, Jean." His voice cracked as he repeated himself. "I don't want Christmas without him."

"I know but you should spend Christmas with your dad, Mikasa, and Hange."

"I know...but it just doesn't feel right."

"Doesn't Levi hate Christmas?"

"Well, yeah. But still."

Adding onto the reasons as to why I'm not the biggest fan of Levi. Eren is like a Black Lab. I can't exactly say Golden Retriever because he's an absolute mess. But he's very outgoing and just wants to make everyone happy. Levi is like a Black Cat. Not a dog breed but I can't really think of one that would even describe him. He thinks he's above everything and everyone. That's just how I view it anyway. Reiner says I'm wrong but that's a lot of talk coming from someone who gives me Pitbull vibes. If I had to pick a dog breed for myself, I'd say I'm an obvious German Shepard.

But back to my thoughts before I got distracted.

I have more than one issue with Levi. Let's use Christmas as an example. Eren loves Christmas. It's his absolute favorite time of the year. He loves the lights, the music, the decorations, putting ornaments on the tree, watching Christmas movies with the fireplace on. He even loves the snow not caring how it drops to about 15°. Levi, on the other hand, has told Eren every year that Christmas is stupid and cringey. All Eren does is shrug his shoulders with a smile and say 'okay'. Why would you try and ruin your boyfriend's spirit? If anyone deserves the happiness Christmas brings, it's Eren.

Every time Eren is excited or happy about something, Levi brings him down. Then he tells Reiner and I about it, he seems totally okay with it and Reiner and I will give each other that side eye which means, 'this kid is so oblivious'.

All he's ever tried to do is make Levi happy and from an outside perspective, it looks like nothing he's ever done was enough. But Eren just kept on trying. Because that's what this reincarnation is all about, right? For Eren and Levi to finally be together forever? Well it didn't work out for me and Mikasa like I wanted so Eren is really hopeful if he thinks someone like Levi is going to want him forever.

Maybe that's partially why I have feelings for Eren. It's because I know I'd treat him better than Levi. I wouldn't rain on his parade every chance I got. I wouldn't make him feel like I was the most important thing on this Earth and nothing else was above me. I would make him feel like my equal instead of my door mat. Eren deserves better and I've never been blind to it. Not even for a second.