Complications Throughout Generations

Chapter 12

Levi's POV:

We stayed in Shiganshina that night. I was looking for Eren. I had assumed he would be with Armin. Which he was.

"Eren, can I speak with you?" I asked.

Eren looked at Armin as he nodded telling him he can go.

We had walked in silence first before he finally spoke up.

"This isn't about us, is it?" He was nervous.

"Why else would I need to talk to you?" He just shrugged. I took him into an empty room to have our privacy. The last thing I need is someone eavesdropping or someone barging in like last time.

"Just get on with it, Levi." He crossed his arms impatiently. I was shocked at the attitude towards me. "Tell me you don't want to be friends anymore or that you're gonna keep your distance. Tell me all of this was a mistake. Tell me-" I had cut him off with a kiss to his lips as I pulled him closer to me by the collar. I pulled away and his eyes were wide. "Oh I see how it is. Earlier you're just gonna punch me in the stomach and now-". I cut him off again with another kiss. I genuinely cannot bear his voice right now. He finally gave in and kissed back. He pulled me in by my hips and then snaked his left hand up my back to my cheek. He pulled away and stared at me in disbelief. I watched his eyes look at my features. My eyes, my nose, my lips, back to my eyes again. "Levi?" I moved the hair out of his face and put my hand on top of his head to move it down a little further. Stupid brat just has to be taller than me doesn't he.

"This is wrong." I shake my head. "Really wrong."

"Then why?"

"Because I'm sick of acting like I don't worry about whether you're okay or not when I'm not with you. I'm sick of pretending like you're not the first thing I think of when I wake up and fall asleep. And I'm definitely sick of telling myself that I need to let go of this." I shake my head with his hands in mine. I don't want to. I don't want to pretend anymore. I know it's wrong. It's so god damn wrong. But I want to try this. You and me. And only you and me. No one can know a thing. Absolutely no one."

"Y-you want to be with me?"

"Yeah, something like that." My voice was low as I gave a light squeeze to both his hands. "I know you want this too, Eren."

"I do," he blushes, "I really do."

It was wrong. On so many levels. But I still can't shake off the feeling that he'll kill millions of people. So my thought is, if I go through with this then maybe it'll change his mind in the future. I'll be able to lead Eren's heart elsewhere. He's just a kid, he can be easily manipulated. Especially since I know he's practically weak at the knees for me.

"I need this to stay between us though, okay?" I traced over his jaw with my thumb.

"Yeah." He whispered, trying to contain his smile.

Later on, he left and went back to Armin and I needed to find Hange. Now that Erwin's gone, she's really all I seem to have left. That's my age at least.

Once I had found her, I went to the room she was staying in.

"I did something bad." I sigh, dragging my hands down my face and leaning back.

"Does it involve Eren?" She was the opposite of her normal, chipper self. I nod once. "Levi, what did you do?"

"I told him to keep it between me and him. But I decided to act on his feelings."

"What, are you guys together now?" She wasn't happy.

"I have my reasons."

"Which are?"

"If he's paying more attention to me, he won't pay as much attention to wanting to kill every last one of us."

"How does having a relationship help?"

"He's young, Hange. Not only that but he looks at me like I'm his savior. It's a sick obsession. He can be manipulated."

"That's low. Even for you, Levi."

"It'll work."

"Don't be so sure." She seemed nervous. I'll do anything to keep everything safe. That's just what I do, right? Protect everyone except myself? Yeah.