Complications Throughout Generations

Chapter 178

Eren's POV:

Here I go. I thought I was going to black out as I walked to his room. Hange walked back with mascara stains all down her cheeks but she seemed dead inside; lifeless. I made my way into his room and rolled my eyes immediately to the sight. For whatever reason, my emotions drastically went from sad and worried to anger and rage. I stood over him and pushed the hair out of his face, analyzing the breathing tube in his mouth along with all the wires surrounding him.

"You're an idiot. I also know damn well you can hear me. You're gonna wake up and be like 'yeah I heard every word' and I'll be like 'I know'. That's what's going to happen. Is this about me not coming over when I said I would? Is this about the note? Going back to school? I mean, it's pretty clear that you fucking planned this. This wasn't spontaneous. You probably took advantage of your time alone." I think I was in denial. I was fully convinced he'd be back in no time. "It's fucked up. God, this is so..." I dropped to my knees, holding onto the plastic rail on the bed, just grazing his hand. I guess it finally hit me. "Was it that bad? Who am I kidding? Of course it was. This life was supposed to be fucking better!" I punched the ground, wincing at the pain from the reopened cut. "I tried to make it better. But now that I think of it, this life is actually fucking worse for you and it's all my fault. You've lost so much." I stood up and stared at his unconscious body. "Don't leave me. If you go, I'll be right behind you. You fucking know that. I'll follow you to the end. I...I can't live without you." I was choking on sobs as I felt myself going weak at the knees once more. My entire being felt like it was ready to collapse. "I'll do anything. I'm fucking begging you, Levi. Wake up. I'm so sorry. Fuck, you're all I've ever wanted. This isn't how this is supposed to go. We're...we're supposed to be together forever. We're supposed to live together and-and get married a-and I had it all planned. Fuck, I'm so stupid." I balanced myself so I didn't fall once again. I needed to take in every second of him. "I love you so much, I'm so scared." A doctor came in and nodded. "Please, just a few more minutes."

"I'm sorry, I can't-"

"Please," I begged, staying close to Levi.

"Sir, I understand you want to stay but I'm afraid you can't."

"Why the fuck not?" I raised my voice, wiping away my tears.

"Sir, I really don't want to call security."

"I'm staying here."

"If I call security, you won't be allowed to revisit him." That was a bullet to the chest. Just the thought of not being able to visit him absolutely horrified me. I nodded.

"Can I have just 30 seconds? You can kick me out right after, I promise."

"Okay," he nodded, leaving the room once more. I looked back at Levi and bent down to reach eye level with him. I held his hand with both of mine and kissed it softly.

"Even on the brink of death, how the fuck are you still so damn pretty?" I let out a short laugh, still letting the tears fall. "I'll love you forever, Levi Ackerman. Even if it's the last thing I do. You're still my hero."

The doctor came back in and I nodded, understanding I need to leave. He led me back to Mikasa and Hange. I sat back down as Hange and Mikasa talked to the doctor. I took my phone and dialed my dad's number.

"Eren? Is everything okay?" He said calmly.

"No," I whispered.

"Eren, where are you?" He sounded more panicked.

"Can you pick me, Hange, and Mikasa up from the hospital?" I sniffled, biting on my lip.

"Oh my god," he whispered and a few moments later, I heard his engine turn on, "I'll be right there. What happened?" I couldn't even speak to explain. "Was it Levi?" He sounded quieter, he sounded afraid. My silence was enough for him to know the answer. "I'll be there soon."

"Okay," I whispered.

"I love you, Eren."

"Love you too," saying those words felt wrong. Almost as if they were reserved for Levi. I hung up as Mikasa and Hange walked back over to me. "My dad is on his way to pick us up." They both stayed silent. I stood up and quickly embraced them both in my arms. The three of us held each other close. We'll need each other now more than ever.