Complications Throughout Generations

Chapter 36

Levi's POV:

3 years passed. 3 years without Titans. 3 years since I've been able to walk on my own. 3 years since I've lived with Gabi and Falco.

3 years without Eren.

It never got easier. I told Gabi and Falco everything. It actually made their love stronger. I tell them all the time, "if you love them, tell them." Every time one of them would leave they would say "bye, love you." But all I could give them was a simple head nod. They know I care about them deeply but saying the word "love" to another person is something I can't bring myself to do. Only because I love one person. Who isn't here anymore.

I was right. I was going to end up alone. I've known this but it doesn't hurt any less. Especially when I actually thought I had a chance at happiness. I was also right about Mikasa and Jean. She finally gave him and a chance and they're living their happy lives. She visits Eren's grave a lot. I was jealous that she's able to just get up and do that. But I thinking making Gabi and Falco wheel me over there wouldn't be the best idea. So actually, I've never seen his grave.

I was in my room in front of my mirror, styling my hair the way I have for years. I had to learn how to use my left hand since I was missing two fingers on my dominant right. I still struggle but I try my best. I groaned once I dropped the comb on the floor. I bent down, straining my back but eventually grabbed it.

"God, I really am an old man." I sighed, looking at the comb.

"That's for sure." A voice behind me spoke. My eyes widened and I gasped once I looked into the mirror.

"Eren?" I whispered. He looked the way he did when I last saw him. His hair was tied up and he was towering over me, even more so since I was stuck in a wheelchair. His face was more sculpted than mine at this point.

"Hey," he smiled. His arms were crossed and he was leaning against the nightstand next to my bed. "The scar is fitting." I just rolled my eyes and moved closer to him.

"I'm hallucinating, I've been waiting for this to kick in. But I'd be lying if I said I cared." He kneeled down to look me in the eye and grazed his finger along the scar across my eye. But somehow, I actually felt him physically.

"It's something like that I guess." He bit his lip.

"Any reason you're here now? It's been 3 years."

"Just wanted to see you is all. Seems like everyone is doing alright. Except you." He seemed sad. But it's a sad statement most definitely.

"Well, what did you expect?"

"Didn't think Captain Levi would get this shaken up for so long." I shook my head at the title. "Levi?"

"Jaeger."

He smiled at the name. "What did you wanna tell me? You told everyone...during The Rumbling...you told them you had so many things to say to me."

"It doesn't really matter now." I looked away from him.

"Why not?"

"Maybe in the future. But not now."

"I'll hold you to that."

"I know you will."

He stood up and walked over to where the comb was and came back over to me. He lifted my chin up and started to part my hair with it the way I usually have it. I bit my lip and clenched my jaw because all I could think was, "this was the life I secretly dreamt of". Eren and I after the war. Me taking care of him, him taking care of me. A lot had changed in those 4 years when he was gone. What started off as a stupid, manipulative plan turned into some sort of sick karma. The world really said, "you wanted to fuck with the Founding Titan? Alright, fall in love with him. Now we're going to kill him". I haven't cried in a while but I felt the heat rising to my cheeks. But how could I not?

"Levi." Eren said softly as he wiped the tears away. "What's wrong?"

"I miss you so much." I whispered. "I wish you were here with me right now."

"Soon. Maybe in another lifetime." He bent my head down and kissed my head after he had finished with my hair.

My door slowly opened. "Levi." It was Gabi. Once I looked up, Eren was gone. I didn't move. I didn't need her seeing I had emotions. "Mikasa wants to have us over for dinner."

"Is she here now?"

"No, Jean is."

"Okay." I had no reason to see Jean so I just stayed in my room. There's nothing wrong with him or our relationship. But I felt the need to tell Mikasa about this. Maybe she's seen him too.